This is my first Fanfic. So be nice.

Sora has been in a relationship for almost three years, but is it the one he wants?

This chapter just sets up what's going on. I plan on updating as often as humanly possible and making the entries longer.

Rated M for lanuage, more reasons later on.

And let's be honest. I don't own Kingdom Hearts. Whoever would think that someone on this site would, is stupid.

Loveless Lies

Chapter 1: Talk to Me

"I love you, too" Sora said as he looked into his lover's eyes.

"Then why don't you just go to Destiny State with me?"

Sora couldn't take the look he was given and turned around, "Because, I got a job up in Twilight Town as a fencing instructor, I've already told you that."

"It's far away. Too far away," Sora's lover said.

Sora turned around and took his significant other into his arms. He placed his lips against herr's only for a moment.

"Kairi, I love you. It will be okay," Sora reassured. Although something in his voice sounded like he was reassuring himself and not just the sobbing girl he held in his arms.

They stood, alone, in Sora's bedroom. Two days before graduation.

How did it come to this? Sora asked himself. Why have can't I just tell her…

"I should be getting home," Kairi said while whipping a few stray tears from her eyes. "It's not too late to apply. They have rolling enrollment. All you would have to do is…"

"Kairi."

"I know. Sora, I know. I love you," with a slight peck on Sora's lips, the red-hedded girl walked out of the room.

She's gone. Why can't I just tell her? Why? I can't go on like this…

"Call me before you pick me up for practice. God knows it will take everything to get me awake at 7:00 in the a.m," Kairi said as she peered from behind Sora's doorframe. He voice sounded bubbly, as if she hadn't been in tears 20 seconds earlier.

" I will. Goodnight, hun."

And she bounced off. A few minutes later he could hear her VW Bug drive off into the distance.

How the hell does she bounce her emotions like that? I tend to be always happy, but damn.

Sora was always happy, well on the outside. The past few months were trying pretty hard to make him crack.

He had been dating Kairi since the 10th grade. He had loved her since he was 13. Well, he thought ha had loved her since he was 13. Now, in the days approaching graduation, things were different. He had to make decisions that would affect him for the rest of his life.

Such as, would he ignore what happened at after prom three nights ago, or act upon it.

The sound of "Smells like Like Spirit" played as Sora's cell vibrated off his dresser to his floor. He reached down and picked up his crap-tastic cell and looked at the small screen.

Riku, Sora thought, I can't handle this. And he pressed a button on the side. The screen went blank and Sora fell down onto his bed. Tears formed in the corners of his eyes.

I can't ignore you forever. But for tonight, I can, Sora said to himself as he curled onto his side and closed his eyes. Tomorrow Riku, tomorrow I'll make it okay.

Sora yawned as his thoughts faded into a motionless sleep.

"Answer your godforsaken phone!" Riku shouted into Sora's voicemail and slammed his phone closed.

"He's probably just sleeping…" Roxas said as he tried to comfort an utterly distraught Riku.

"Sleeping with her," Riku muttered.

"She's you're friend, too. Don't forget that. You've only known each other since kindergarten. Give it time, he'll come around," Roxas picked up his phone and checked the time.

11:30. I was supposed to be home 30 minutes ago. Axel is probably asleep by now, Roxas thought, I hope he didn't lock the door.

"It's been three days. THREE FUCKING DAYS since I took your advice. I need to talk to him. Not only about that night, but just talk to him. The last time we went three days without talking to each other I was in Japan and lost my phone. He hates me. I know it," Riku sighed and threw himself onto the couch. "I fucked up."

Roxas jumped on Riku, grabbed his shoulders and pulled the angered teen forward. "One: you haven't talked to him in three days, how would you know anything about what he is feeling right now. Two: he probably really is sleeping. We have graduation practice at the ass crack of dawn. And three: you did just pour your heart and 6 years of bottled up emotions to the kid, without warning, at prom, which he took his girlfriend to. It might take some time for him to take it all in. So get up and go to bed. You'll see him in the morning…"

"But he…" Riku tried to interrupt.

" I don't care what he did that night. He was half drunk and you looked amazing. Anyone would have made out with you given any invitation," Roxas explained.

"Hump," Riku fell back onto the couch.

"Go to bed. Stop worrying. Tomorrow things will be better. I have to be home 30 minutes ago," Roxas got up and turned towards the door.

"Yeah, you go home to your sexy boyfriend, and I'll just sleep alone."

"Was that really necessary? Don't take this all out on me. I'll see you tomorrow," Roxas waved and walked out the door.

It kinda is my fault, but he should have told Sora long ago.

Riku laid in his bed. Looking at the ceiling fan. He attempted to follow one of the blades as it spun around and around.

I shouldn't have told him. It was a mistake. I could have hid it for another couple of years. I think I've lost him.

Riku pulled the covers over his head to distract himself from the spinning fan of death. It was starting to make him feel like vomiting.

I shouldn't have told him.

Riku sat up and opened the drawer. He shuffled around until he found a small clear bottle. He opened it up, took three of the unmarked pills and swallowed them.

At least I'll be able to sleep tonight.

And that's all I've got for now. More soon.

--Emily