We Are Broken

Dear Alie,

How can I say everything I want to say to you?It's hard, but I'll try.

First of all, I hate you. You were dating me, lead me on to believe you loved me then made out and slept with that jerk Christian without giving me any warning that you didn't want me anymore. Then you got pregnant, and everything fell apart from there.

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

I don't see you for five months. You yell at me, criticize me and my friends. You say you hate me.

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

You give birth to two beautiful babies: Faith and Kristoph. They have Christian in their faces, but you in their eyes. It tears me apart.

Yeah
'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole

I'm sorry for whatever I did to you to make you hate me. It was wrong of me. I hate that we are broken, Alie.

Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
It came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

We lost touch when I left camp. That was my biggest regret. And now I'm thirty, trying to make a living for myself and failing miserably. All because of you.

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

You married Christian. You had two more children: Kristen and Samantha. You got a good job.
'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole

I hate it. I hate that I still love you. I hate that I still miss you.

Tower over me
Tower over me
And I'll take the truth at any cost

I guess there's nothing left to say except, goodbye. You were my first love.

'Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again
'Cause we just wanna be whole

From Alan.