Disclaimer: I don't own Glee.
For Blaine, life at home wasn't exactly ideal. He reminds himself daily that he could have had it worse. His dad could have kicked him out for being gay, or insulted him because of his sexuality. Though he tells himself this it doesn't always stop the slight self pity leaking through into his thoughts.
He envies Kurt sometimes. The relationship he has with his dad makes Blaine's heart hurt when he sees them together. As Blaine's relationship with Kurt grows he begins to stop envying Kurt, but the wistful feeling he still gets at times in his stomach makes him angry at himself. He tries to stomp out the feeling in his mind; instead, it only seems to grow stronger.
Blaine's always felt like an independent person. When bullies got him, or teased him, he kept it to himself because he wasn't out to his parents yet, and when he did come out, and his dad installed a silent week period full of awkwardness and slight embarrassment for both parties, Blaine dealt with it. So why was he wishing that he and his dad had a closer relationship now?
He knew the answer. He knew that he always wanted a closer relationship with his dad, but it was like they were both on different wavelengths. Even before Blaine came out they didn't understand each other. Sure, his dad asked your typical: 'How was school; how was your day?' but the conversation never went farther than Blaine saying 'fine' and his dad questioning him about term papers or tests. His mom always asked how Ashley was, his best friend. Or what Sean and he had gotten up to, the friend who he had taken to the Sadie Hawkins's Dance with disastrous results. Sometimes Blaine didn't even think his dad knows anything about him, so he made up a test.
"Dad, what's my favorite color?"
"Blue."
That's the thing. It had been. He changed it half a year ago when green started appealing to him more. Later he will look back on this and think of how strange is was that his favorite colors were the same colors of Kurt's eyes, but now he's wondering that maybe the reason he and his dad never got along was because not only had his dad never reached out to him, but he had stopped trying to ever reach out to his dad sometime during the last few years.
Blaine understands after days of staring up at his bedroom ceiling that he is going to have to let go of some of his pride if he will ever have a chance of connecting with his dad. He knows also, that he will never have the relationship with his dad that Kurt has with his father, but he sure as hell is going to try.
So, he says, "No actually, my favorite color's green."
"Oh...good to know,"
Hmm…I'm not sure about this, but I felt a need to post something and I had already started this so…here it is! :) Hope you like it!