Sam: Place For My Head

Author's Note: This is my first Fanfiction for the Gone Series! I hope you all enjoy it, and I am open for any suggestions you have for other people's "Reflections." I plan on this being about a ten chapter fic, but depending on reviews, it might be more or less. Also, Sam's Reflection takes place in Lies when he ran way to the woods after seeing Drake.

Rated T for some sexual references.

Enjoy!

Surrounding me is peace and quite. The tree branches hang full of crisp green leaves. I can only hear the faint sound of small mice and rodents scurrying beneath the leaves that have fallen. Was their lives any different for them in this strange new world? Did they feel the ominous disaster?

It was just starting to get dark all around me. Before the Fayz, this would have terrified me, but now I realize I have much more important things to be afraid of then darkness, like the noun form of the word.

Before this living hell, peace and quite were something I would get to experience everyday, before I went to bed, when the house was completely silent, except for the constant hum of the refrigerator. Now, in this other dimension of a world, piece and quite had a completely different meaning.

As silent as it is around me, in my head all I hear is screams. The screams of all of the lives lost here, the screams of the children I just deserted because of my own fear of the psychopathic killer that is Drake, the screams of Astrid, telling me I am wrong.

Now and the time before sinister creatures haunt Perdido Beach are so far away from each other. A life filled with adults to solve the problems, seems like a distant reality, like reading about the way the Pilgrims lived before electricity, hunting their food, and building their houses out of logs. Honestly, the Fayz was a similar place to that. There was no electricity no grocery stores, there was no help from anyone or anything.

I remember a time when my life consisted of surfing, school, and the occasional "The Office" marathon. No one expected much from me when I made myself disappear after the "School Bus Sam" incident. I didn't particularly care about my future, and lived for the moment. This was still when Quinn and I were tight.

Another thing I lost in the Fayz: my friendship with Quinn. The bond wasn't completely burnt, but its support beams had failed when he betrayed me for Caine, and not to mention that he was intolerable at the beginning of the Fayz.

Before all hell broke loose, I probably had a little too much time on my hands. I probably watched a little too much internet porn then I want to admit, but what fourteen year old guy doesn't? Now, I have a negative amount of time on my hands, between fighting all of the wars of the Fayz, and dealing with sibling rivalries, there isn't even time for me to breath.

I wonder what happens when the song ends, when everything goes back to normal? I wonder if it ever will. Will my successes weigh out my failures? Would my mom ever be proud of who I have become? I wanted Zil dead, deader then dead. I wanted to see him suffer in the inner most circle of Dante's Inferno. If there even was a hell, if there even was a God to make that decision after looking down on us and watch the lives he took, the destruction he caused.

Astrid would say with complete confidence that there is a God. I could never be as certain as she is about the accuracy beliefs about anything. Not even what I wanted on my Burger at McDonald's, when Albert still had it running.

She was the one good thing that had happened to me because of the Fayz. Without the Fayz, there is little doubt in my mind that our fates would intervene. All of the lives lost, all of the elegy was worth it to have Astrid the way I do. In the days before the Fayz, I watched her from afar, and had a few dreams about her where the details will never be disclosed. Without her, my life would be in complete ruins. But did I actually have her now, after the fight? Are we really still together? As controlling as she is, life isn't worth living without her.

If there is one thing I know, its that this mess of the Fayz isn't over, it will go on until we find a way to stop it, before it eradicates us all.

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