Warning: This will be a sad fan fiction. If you're looking for a story that has a fairy tale ending, you've clicked the wrong fanfic.

This story is dedicated to: My best friend, Holly. Although we are probably the two most opposite people in the world, we some how (against all odds) became best friends. I decided to write this after she decided to join the US Army, after we graduate from High School. I couldn't imagine life as I know it without her. When I began to watch TDI, I saw how close Katie and Sadie were, that their strong bond could never be broken, even if they were a world away from each other. So please when you read this, think of your best friend. A best friend is for life. Forever. Never forget that.

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters of the Total Drama uninverse, Justin Timberlake, or Boys like Girls. Although, when I some day rule the world with rabid squirrels and eskimos, it could be a possibility.

Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep…

"The beeping is getting faster, is she okay?" A frail voice asked with worry. That voice, it sounds familiar, but whose is it?

"Her heart rate is just increasing, Mrs. Winters. It can mean numerous things, like maybe she's dreaming, or feeling some signs of pain, or possibly she's walking up." A deep handsome voice explained. That voice is definitely new to me, I'll have to get his number later. "Perhaps if you talk to her, her heart rate will slow down."

Pause.

"Katie, dear, it's me, your mother—" That explains why her voice is so familiar… "Katie, everything will be alright."

Everything will be alright? What's everything? Where am I? Why can't I open my eyes? Oh. My. God. Am I in the nuthouse? Did someone sew my eyes together, like in that one creepy movie Sadie and I watched? Oh man, it's all downhill from here. No more eating with my favorite pointy eating utensils. No more texting or phone calls. GASP. No more Fashion Daily magazines! I have to escape! How can I—

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

"Doctor!" My mother screamed.

The doctor came back running into the room. "She must be having one hell of a dream. I'll have to give her a shot that can calm her down. Nurse!" The handsome voiced yelled.

No, not the shot, anthing but the shot! "No!" I managed to scream hoarsely. I ripped open my eyes, and a bright light came streaming in, making my eyes burn with pain. Stupid, stupid light!

"Katie? Katie, can you hear me? Katie!" My mom yelled into my left ear.

"Loud and clear mom."

She gasped, "Oh Katie!" She threw her arms around me and a surge of pain attacked my abdomen and left leg.

"Ow!" I shouted. Pft, Ow? That was an understatement.

"Oops, sorry Katie." Her tender voice, guilty.

I looked around at my surroundings. I was in a small white room that had three black chairs next to the large oak door. White sheets surrounded my body, all except for my left leg that was inside a white cast being casted up on some pillows.

"Mom, where am I?" I asked.

Pause.

She took in a deep breath. "Katie, you're in a hospital." She said, sounding like she was being stabbed in the throat.

"The hospital?"

Pause.

She looked at me with her intense dark brown eyes, "Katie, you were in a car crash last night."

And then it all came back…

Flash back:

I use to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over.

I love you forever, forever is over.

We used to kiss all night, now it's just bar fight.

You don't call me crying, say hello and goodbye.

"Oh Katie, don't you just, like, love Boys like Girls?" The hyper voice of my BFFFL, Sadie sang.

"Like, OMBLG, totally!" I yelled back in equal excitement.

I looked out the window, staring at the large snowflakes that hit the window; I remember learning in science class that all snowflakes were different, yet they all looked the same to me (1). We were driving home from one of the biggest mall sales of the season, the grand 50 percent off everything sale. Not many people showed up, because of the current snowstorm. But no snowstorm could ever stop Sadie and I from attending the sale of the season, it was a tradition that we have had every year since before we could walk. I looked over at Sadie, who was still mouthing the words to "Love Drunk". She was wearing her newly bought red and white winter jacket.

"Sadie, I totally love your new jacket!" I complimented my best friend. "It's socute!"

"I know right. I can't believe it was only $19.95!" She replied in her usual excited tone. "Too bad we couldn't buy that one shirt. I wish our moms would have given us more money!"

I pictured the red and white stripped long-sleeved shirt. It came with a really pretty black belt, and the back had lace on it. "Yeah, I know! It looked really good on me."

"Well, I thought it looked really, really good on me." Sadie said.

"Well, it looked really, really, really, really good on me."

"Not as good as it looked on me, though." Sadie snapped.

Two can play at this game. "Oh, you are so wrong, the shirt looked sooo much better on me!"

"Nuh uh!"

"Uh huh!"

"Nuh uh!"

"Uh huh!"

"You know what Katie; we are so not BFFFLs anymore!" Sadie snapped, returning her eyes to the road.

"Fine!"

"Fine!"

I folded my arms and stared back into the passenger window. Sadie was right, as usual. The shirt did actually fit her better; it hugged her hour glass shape perfectly. Even the smallest size hung loose on me, not doing the same justice as the shirt did on her. But, of course, I would never admit it.

Sadie leaned over and turned up the radio. A familiar tune of "Sexy Back" arose into my ears; it's one of our favorite songs. I couldn't help but tap my feet and sing along.

I'm bringin' sexy back

Them other boys they don't know how to act

I think it's special what's behind your back

So turn around and I'll pick up the slack

A few moments later, the song formed into a trio. I looked over at Sadie and she looked right back at me and smiled.

"Oh. My. Justin! I love this song!" I exclaimed.

"I know right? Justin Timberlake is so SEXY!" Sadie screamed back. I couldn't help but giggle when Sadie said sexy. It after all, is what this whole song is about.

"This is why we are total BFFFLs, Sadie!"

"Oh yeah, best female friends for life!"

"!" We both squealed at the same time.

I turned my head back to the window, still singing the words to the song. It wasn't snowing so much anymore, just a couple snowflakes fluttered onto the ground. It's defiantly going to be a white Christmas this year. I smiled. As the last few words of the song drifted off, we both sighed.

"Awh, I wish the song was longer!" Sadie whined.

I looked back at her, laughing. I suddenly noticed bright lights vigorously approaching Sadie's window. There was a loud bang, and a single scream and everything went black.

Sadie. Where's Sadie? I shook my head back and forth looking around the room for my best friend. There was nothing, just my mom and a couple of empty chairs. I tried to sit up, but an overwhelming shot of pain stroke across my abdomen and leg.

"Katie, you need to rest. You broke your leg and three ribs; they need time to heal dear." She looked at me with worried eyes.

"Sadie. Mom where is Sadie? S-she was driving the car."

I looked at my mom; she was covering her eyes with her hands, trembling. She moved her hands, looking at me with her tearful eyes.

"S-Sadie…" She paused, taking my hand. "Sadie's dead."

Dead, dead, dead, the word passed through my head at least a dozen times. Dead, deceased, departed, lifeless, gone, none of those worlds made sense. I couldn't comprehend them. Tears started falling from my eyes, sobs vacated my mouth.

Sadie is dead. My best friend, my other half, my better half, the person I thought would be in my life forever.

Dead.

We always called ourselves BFFFLs, Best Female Friends for Life. For life means forever, but how long is forever? Forever could be tomorrow, next week, or 30 years from now.

For me, forever was yesterday.

I've never considered life without Sadie. We always planned are lives around each other. We were supposed to go to college together. We were going to open up our own clothing store. I would be the designer; she would handle the customers and all the other stuff.

We were going to be married a month away from each other. We were going to be each others "Maid of honor." We were going to have our kids at the same time. I would have a boy named Charlie, Sadie a girl named Charmen. Our kids were going to grow up together, fall in love together, and have kids together. Sadie and I would be grandma's and die old happy women.

All of these will forever remain mere memories.

Memories that would never happen.

Sadie's gone, and she's never coming back.

Gone, but never far away.

AN: I know, I know... You don't need to tell me. I'm a horrible person that hasn't updated ANY of her stories in a little under a year. And for that, I'm truely sorry. I'm not going to give you any excuses as to why no updates have occured, I owe you all atleast that. I just want to say my life has changed A LOT in the past year, some changes for the worse, some changes for the better.

I plan on re-writing the three stories I have going on fanfiction at this current time. I'm over all dissapointed by my writing, so it seems right to re-start my fanfictions. And by THREE, I do mean THREE stories. I've decided I'm going to discontinue "Total Drama Impulse". Sorry to any of my readers, If I still have any. Once again, I'm sorry for my hiatus, but I want you to know, Mysterious Bluerose is back. And I'll let you be the judge of whether or not I'm better than ever. :)

(1) Although this sentance may seem insignificant now, I can guarantee it will have greater meaning as the story goes on.

R It feeds my writing ability. XD