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Author's note: I'm so sorry!!! I've re-posted this after being edited! and well.. since this is supposed to be my school project... i need to apologize once more for not making this a yaoi! the school teacher's will kill me if I wrote yaoi... and well... I'm so sorry for making the ukes change their sexes!! i'll never forgive myself... but it's necessary for the continuation of the story... please bear with Sora and Roxas being a girl, kay? i'm really really sorry about this! cries
Standing on the bridge, I watch the glimmering twilight reflected by the water underneath me, lost in thought. A pebble was thrown at the river, causing it to ripple under the stone's pressure, as I stood there watching the water dismally.
I used to pass this place whenever I walk home with him. Just thinking about him makes my heart clenched in pain and my blood boils. How could he?!I thoughtAn angry growl escaped me as I threw yet again, another pebble with all the strength I have, to the shadowed water beneath me.
Watching the stones sunk in, memories came flooding into my mind slowly---much to my dismay.
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"I'm sorry, Sora. I just don't think we're meant to be. I don't think I'm good enough for you." With a fake tone of apology and regret, he said with a smile.
'Oh sure. You're not good enough for me, that's why you were flirting around with Kairi earlier.'
"I think it's best for us just to remain friends…" He added, completely ignoring the hurt look I gave him.
"It's okay, Tidus. I understand." I replied, a much-forced smile on my lips
'What? You don't really expect me to whine and got mad, do youIt is not as if I want to say it, anyway. But whatelse am I supposed to do'
"Thanks, Sora. I knew you would." His face lit up and he gave me a quick peck on the cheek before he walked away nonchalantly.
If I had known any better, I could've swornthat he doesn't actually care how I would feel or react.
"Yeah, Sure… Anything for you, Ti." I found myself muttering the words that I amtoo familiar with, as I have been chanting the same thing repeatedly ever since we havebeen dating
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Going back to the present world, I sighed as I reflected on our relationshipIt has been 3 months since I dated him. I do think that it's long enough for him to decide whether we're meant to be or something like that isn't it? But nooo! It just wasn't good enough for him.
With an exasperated sigh, I threw in another pebble. This is ridiculous. I watch the pebble as it slowly sunk under the water and faded into the black nothingness.
Maybe if I…
"I wouldn't do that if I were you." A velvety voice came from beside me and broke my thoughts. I thought I was alone?
A young man stood before me as I turned my head to see the owner of the voice. From his height and appearance, he seems to be older than I am by a year or two, which makes him around seventeen or eighteen.
He looked surprised when my gaze fell on him, and for one fleeting moment, I could swear I saw him mouthing something before his cool façade return to him. Strange guy
"What are you saying? I'm not thinking about jumping or anything! I-" Those words escaped my lips before I even got the chance to process it but it was cut short when I heard him chuckled.
He chuckled at my strange demeanor, before smiling softly and averting his gaze towards the dark horizon. We stayed like that in silence and I chose that moment to inspect closely the stranger who had disturbed me out of my thoughts. The first thing I noticed was the color of his eyes; it's like the color of the sea during the summer! It was a mixture of sea green and the softest blue, which glowed under the soft light of the moon. I stood there in awe, never once did my gaze left those strangely beautiful orbs. Suddenly, a gentle midnight breeze swept past us, framing the pale face of this stranger with his silver hair, highlighting those silver tresses with the pale light of the glowing moon, before it swiftly fell back on his shoulder blade gently, just like silk. All the while, said person still stood unwavering while holding his hard gaze towards the water with a mixture of longing and pain painted on those intoxicating orbs.
That was then when I realized that this person was beautiful. Not in the 'pretty-boy' sense, but it's as if he possessed an ethereal beauty; a beauty that resembled a fallen angel who had lost its wings and was bounded by the cruel earth. While I stood there in awe at this eerily beautiful person, a feeling of recognition swept through me.
As I search through my brain in an attempt to remember where I had met him before, he then turned to look at me with a smirk adorning his lips.
"…and when did I ever mention you're thinking about jumping? I believe all I ever said was 'I wouldn't do that if I were you.'"
"…" …Shoot!
He laughed at my panicked expression before he continued in that velvety voice of his again.
"…And, it's practically obvious, you know. What person in their right mind would come here this late at night to throw pebbles at the river while growling? Besides, you've got this… distant expression that shows your intention of jumping." He said the last line in a whisper, as if he actually meant that word… for himself.
"…Are you trying to say I'm not right in my mind?!" I asked angrily, missing the change of tone in the last sentence.
He seemed to be amused by this for he replied a "…May-be" with a teasing tone, all the while he got that annoying smirk plastered on his face.
…I took back every compliment I've had about him. This person here is one annoying bastard! I would never forget someone with a smirk and a personality as annoying as his.
"If I'm not right in my mind because I'm here this late at night, what does that make you, then? Talk about a pot calling the kettle black! "
My sudden statement seemed to surprise him and he remained silent. Score one for me! I didn't even know why I felt like giving a comeback and wanting to win badly from him, I would normally ignore someone who would annoy me, but… deep within my heart, a nostalgic feeling arose, engulfing my heart in its warmth of familiarity and delight.
He averted his gaze towards the river, once again wearing the same sad and painful expression, as I looked at him questioningly. I was expecting something more of a comeback, not this.
We stood in silence for a while, each consumed by our thought. I stood there, watching and waiting for him in silence. After a moment of peace, he slowly turned his head to look at me once again. I honestly thought he would have that annoying smirk spread across his face again along with an annoying comeback like before, but instead he had a soft smile adorning his lips in an almost painful way as he spoke in a soft voice. "I… live here."
I was mesmerized, no, wait, I promised myself that I am not giving him any compliment, so scratch that. I was taken aback, yes, taken aback, by his soft expressio- no, by his sudden mood change that I didn't quite catch what he said until he left…
"… Don't ever throw you life away. Not for love, or anything. It's not worth it."
When the words finally sunk in, I turned to catch a glimpse of him. However, an empty road met me for he was no longer there…
"I swear, Sora! It's not like what you saw! That wasn't--!"
"It doesn't matter now, does it?!" I snapped back.
"Sora! I'm your best friend! You really think I'll purposely do that to you?!" Kairi cried desperately.
"I never thought you would, but you did, didn't you?" I replied coldly.
"It's not like what you think!"
"Forget it, Kairi." I left her, ignoring the desperate cries from the brunette.
It doesn't matter, does it? He left me… and he was the only good thing that had ever happened to me.
I walked home with a heavy heart and let out a sigh just as I was about to pass the bridge from last night. I turned to look at the bridge as pain stabbed my heart once again. I used to walk home with him or Kairi here. It's so lonely without a companyI stood in the middle of the empty bridge, lost in thoughts of the past events that had turned my life upside down before the event last night came into view with a certain silver-haired person included.
It was unusual for me to think about someone that I had just met, but he… He was different from anyone that I had ever seen… Not only I felt like I had known him, despite the fact that I said I would never forget someone as annoying as him, and… the way he said those lines before he left, intrigued me. It was as if he experienced it before and knew something more than anyone does.
Besides, maybe I do know him… or rather, knew. Mom said I used to live in this town until I was fourteen. I moved to another town, Twilight Town, because dad had been moved to a bigger company and we had to move with him. 'We' are my mom, my twin sister and me.
I stayed in twilight town for about 2 years but one fateful day, I had an accident that caused me to lose all the memories I have until the accident. Imagine waking up in a room full of strangers that claim themselves to be your family. I smiled bitterly at the memory. Not only that I had to stay with those strangers, but it seems my accident caused my parents to quarrel a lot more, each blaming the other for not taking a good care of me. Eventually, it led to their divorce.
It had been half a year ago and ever since the divorce, my mom took my twin sister, Roxie, and me back to this town, Destiny Island. Destiny Island Town… I laughed cynically in my mind. My mom thought that going back here would help me regain my memory but so far, it only made my life worse.
I recall all those people who came to see my sister and me on the day we moved back here. My mom and Roxie talked happily with their old friends while leaving me to ponder alone on the terrace. There are people who greeted me and tried to talk to me too, but I ignored them. Ever since those people know that I had lost my memory, they started to sympathize me and treated me as if I was a fragile glass. I hated that. Kairi was the only one who treats me normally and never once had she mentioned about my past life. She was the only one I accepted back as my best friend and she was my only friend ever since… until today. I still can't believe she did that… she used to be so kind and timid!
When I finally had snapped back out of the memory-lane, I found myself standing on my terrace. It seems my feet moved by itself even though I was daydreamingI was about to laugh at myself but sighed instead as I stare at the cold hard door of my house. Here goes nothing, I thought as I make my way to the door.
My dark living room welcomes me home coldly. No one is home… again. FiguresMy mom was out working so that she could support our family and she comes home late at night. It is true that without her, we would not be able to live the way we do now… but she has been neglecting the fact that by the age of sixteen, her two daughters still need her love and assistance, especially when I am in the process of trying to recover my memory around here. Roxie… she has been avoiding me ever since the hospital released me and I was allowed to go back home. Maybe she is blaming me for the divorce. Ignoring the cold atmosphere of my house, I made my way up the stairs towards my bedroom.
Once there, I prompted myself on my single bed on the corner of the room and grabbed my I-pod along with the headset. I turned the volume to its fullest, just in an attempt to chase away the loneliness that is gnawing in my heart. No one for me to comfort me or greet me in this lonely, empty house… the mother who always works with no time to spent for her daughters… the ignorant twin sister who avoids me… My boyfriend who had just dumped me… and my best friend who betrayed me and my trust… what do I have left to lose?
I shut my eyes tightly as I tried to hold back the tears that are threatening to fall off, but found it is of no use as they started to run down along my flushed cheek. My mind started to take comfort in the darkness that is surrounding me and, as if the darkness is leading me on, once again I found the thoughts of escaping this world appealing when a voice brought me back to my senses and I snapped my eyes open in response.
He knows what he's talking about… It's as if he had experienced it before… He said he lived around there, didn't he? But I didn't see him on my way back… I need to see him again, I concluded. There's something… something unexplainable that told me that he's the key of everything… and the same feeling told me that I will find him if I go to the same bridge again tonight…
End note: Sorry.. cries