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Pity Me Not
I wonder what happens when a star burns out . . . Does it just fade? As if it never even existed? I hope not. I pray that is not what happens but inside I know it is true. I used to wish on a star every night. I know it's childish, but I would wish with all my soul but nothing ever happened. Not anything. I once thought that was normal but after I met you, I realize that wishes do come true - just not mine. Not once has a star granted my wish. Funny, isn't it? The one who wishes the hardest gets frozen silence.
I also used to believe that fairy tales were true as well. But now, I have come to realize that they don't. No one ever lived happily ever after. I could wish on my silent star all I wanted but neither my wish nor my fairy tale ever happened. Just the silence that I have come accustomed to. No princess ever appeared to welcome me with open arms; no prince ever came to save me.
God, do I wish someone would come to save me. But that will never happen now. The shadows are the only things that call to me. They beckon me and I welcome them with open arms. The darkness is the only thing that has ever accepted me. No one else - just the shadows and the demons that inhabit them. Ironic isn't? The one thing that I feared since childhood is the only thing that brings me comfort now? I wonder how long ago it was when I first accepted this darkness? Was it a few years ago? A month ago? A lifetime ago? You know what? I don't really care. The only thing that I can do is let the shadows comfort me as no one else can.
The shadows are the only friends I have now. You claim that you are always there for me, but I have yet to see it. You claim that friends are there when you need them, but where were you when the shadows first beckoned me? You were nowhere in sight. I needed you and you were gone. I'm sure that you pity me for the things that have happened. And don't pretend that you don't. I hate pity more than anything. I am not something to be pitied. Pity is not something that should be wasted on someone like me. After all, I am not alone now, am I?
The darkness is still here. Will always be here. And you know what? I think I like it. It does not judge; it does not discriminate; it does not pity. No, instead it embraces and draws me forth. And it continues to do so to this day. There is no more light nor is there the chance for my happily ever after. But for you . . . Just for you, I pray. I pray with the entirety of my being that fairy tales exist. Because, after all, shouldn't someone get to live happily ever after?
Fin
June 19th 2004
Thus, I have finished this short retrospect piece. I thought it turned out rather nicely all things considered. I really only had two characters in mind when I wrote this but I leave it up to the readers on how their interpret this strange piece of writing. I would like to hear what people thought of this and who it was they thought was speaking.
If anyone has any comments, questions, requests go ahead and email me or visit the livejournal site under the id of shinikius and leave a comment. I don't really mind.
Lk