I don´t own or have any claims to Fullmetal alchemist. Not the manga, the original anime or the Brotherhood-series. This is a character study or something to that effect. It is based on the Brotherhood-series and well…I started writing it after having watched so it does only include things that have happened up to that point of the series. Please review and PLEASE don´t write anything that might be a spoiler to anyone who has only watch Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood up to episode 28 "Father".

Alphonse

I didn´t kill my mother. I didn´t kill my mother. For years I thought that we had killed her, that by committing the taboo we had killed her for the second time. But it wasn´t her. I didn´t kill my mother.

2) I hate nights. I hate waiting while everyone is asleep. I hate not being able to rest. To simply just stop thinking. Stop…remembering. They nights are too long. They give you too much time to think. I don´t like that at all. And I hate how lonely it gets.

3)I didn´t realize how much in common humans have. Eating, sleeping. Getting hungry, tired or sleepy. Feeling pain. Feeling the rain. Not being able to have all that… it makes me feel different and isolated from other humans. Even my own brother.

4) I miss the taste of stew.

5) I wish my brother would stop blaming himself for my condition. We both tried to revive our mother. We both committed the taboo. We are both to blame.

Edward

I miss my father. I despise him, despise him for leaving mum, for leaving her to take care of two boys by herself, for not being there when she died, because he wasn´t there to save her when she got sick, and yes, because he wasn´t there to stop us from bringing her back to live. But I miss him. I miss having a father. I miss him; Hoheimen, the man who used to tell bed-time stories for Al and me. The who found me the time I got lost in the woods, the man who taught me to swim. I hate him so much, but yet I miss.

I will never forgive myself for what happened to Al.

I care about Winry…a lot.

The reason I affixed Al´s soul was because I couldn´t stand losing him. I wasn´t thinking whether or not I would be able to fix it, or how it would be for him. I wasn´t thinking of the consequences it would have, for him or anyone else. I just did it, because it was the only way I knew how to bring my little brother back.

For some reason Gracia makes me think of my mother. Not because they are that alike in appearance or behavior, but because of the kindness and loving nature they both have. I guess I wish Gracia would adopt me and Al. But she will hardly ever want us in her family. Not after Huges death.

Winry

1) I still have nightmares of the time Al came carrying Ed´s body that night.

2) If I had to chose between getting my parents back, and giving Al back his body…I´d chose giving him his body back. It would be selfish of me not to, and I can´t stand watching him suffer. Then I ´d rather be an orphan.

3) I did want to shoot Scar. And yet… somehow…I don´t hate so much anymore. Not really.

4) I love my Granny, but I love living in Rush Valley too much to go back to Resembool. I feel ungrateful for how rarely I think of her, and how little I miss her.

5) I am in love with Edward Elric.

I miss