Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Eclipse, Twilight, Jacob Black, Nada. Nothing 'cept a pair of beat up grey converse.
I ran. I flew. Anything to leave my memories behind. To escape the pain. To get away from rememberance. I hated myself for caring. She was happy with him, the dirty bloodsucker. And there was nothing I could do about it. Nothing at all.
So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
And nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now.
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
I closed my eyes and braced myself for the pain that was soon to follow after me. I couldn't escape it, at least not for long. Forever was impossible.
So you stole my world, now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl leaves me down and loney
Well send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better.
I choked back a sob. How dare that leech send me a wedding invitation! As if I wanted to see them, happy together! To see her, beautiful in a wedding gown, for someone other then me! Like I'd ever want to see that!
But wait--- She'd be happy. I could see her one last time, before she was as good as dead. Which was more important to me? Bella's or my own happiness? Hers, of course, but I couldn't go through that. It was hard enough as it was.
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
But I could move on, right? Wrong! I answered myself! There is no one, nothing that could take her place! Ther wasn't anything in the world that could compare to Bella. Her beauty, her passion. Nothing.
And it might take some time to patch me up inside
but I cant take it so I, I run away and hide
And I might find in time that you were always right
You're always right.
Bella was right. I was all wrong for her. I saw the way she kissed him, the way he looked at her. I couldn't take her away from that, but that fact that I could give her up was proof I loved her more.
So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now, I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
Was it what you wanted?
Could it be I'm haunted?
Memories drifted before my eyes. Bella broken. Bella laughing, Bella crying, Bella. My Bella.
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.
You're just the best I ever had
I trembled from the weight of my pain. Nothing could take it from me. I'd never forget, and it would never fade, not for the whole of eternity. Never. Face it. I was screwed.
Behind me, a twig snapped, and the noise made me jump. But I couldn't bring myself to care enough to look for the source. I turned, and ran again. Maybe I'd never stop. Good bye, Bella. Good bye, Jacob. The tears flowed freely. I won't forget, but I won't remember, either. Ever.
A/N: So there you have it! I was browsing on i-tunes for a bit after finishing Eclipse and this song just screamed Jacob! So thus Wilted was born. It's going to be be a real story. I have a plot in mind. ;) The song I used was Best I Ever Had by Gary Allen. Listen to it. It's good. ;) Review, Review! I need the input. Bella will be in the story soon enough, don't worry. :) ---Ashi
EDITED&UPDATED: AUGUST 25, 07