Speechless

Summary: It's about time that I start acting for myself. I love him…it's all that matters.

Disclaimer: I do not own degrassi, or 'speechless'.

8:00 p.m. I had that current time on my watch. I was standing in front of him. He was heartbroken, & he needed me. I was heartbroken, & I needed him. Who needed whom more? I will never know. But this was what I needed the most. I can't believe I actually turned him down in 10th grade.

You've got me
You've got me
You've got me
You've got me speechless...

For a moment, we just stood in the space of each other, breathing each other's air, undressing each other with our eyes. I felt so safe with him, it just seemed right. He ran his hands along my arms, slowly & softly. A smile tugged at his face. "Where were you?" He asked as he laced his fingers with mine. I wanted to answer, but it was impossible. I couldn't. I just was too into it to speak. He could tell.

Where you been baby
Waited for you all day
Waited for you to use the key
That opens my place…
My heart starts trembling
As I hear your footsteps pace
Lock opened, doorknob turned
There appeared your face…

He got closer to me…the space between us was disappearing. I looked straight into his eyes, & he looked into mine. Then, he had kissed me. However, it wasn't like any kiss he gave Ashley, or Hazel. This kiss had real, raw passion that only a few men had. He was one of them. It was almost as if art was being made.

Going outta my head I think I'm loosing all my mind
Drive me crazy burning candles making love all night…
Feels so strange it feels so crazy to be in your world
in your arms lost for words
you've got me…

I could tell that he didn't want to stop, because he frowned a bit when I pulled away. I smiled at him playfully as he ran his fingers across my face. "Skin like porcelain…" he began as he wrapped his free arm around my waist. I was trembling by now. "…a smile as bright as sunshine."

You've got me
You've got me
You've got me
You've got me speechless…

He picked me up slowly & laid me on the bed. I knew this was coming…but I couldn't stop it. He started to unbutton my shirt as he began to kiss my neck. I could feel myself become more & more ready & chilled out with every butterfly kiss. His kisses were warm & passionate.

Laying so closely
I feel your skin rubbing and touching me…
Only sweat between us
Feeling you kissing and pleasing me…
I rub your back…
I kiss your neck…
I know that you love when we touch like that…
I can feel you need me
Feels so good to me…
Feels so good to me…

He smiled as he looked at us two, completely naked. It was as if he knew we were meant to be like this. He had 'jacketed himself' when I finally found my voice.

"Jimmy…" My voice was there…I knew it was.

"Yes?" He asked warmly as he kissed my neck again. I was so intoxicated by him, yet I was so scared.

"I don't know if we--"

"Look…I will never leave you…you know I won't. Remember, I'm not Sean." We both laughed a bit, & it instantly lightened the mood.

You've got me
You've got me
You've got me
You've got me speechless…

He was in. I could hear small, but audible moans from him, but I seemed to do enough moaning for the both of us. I was running out of things to moan out so he could go faster. So I used the simplest & most common words in the English vocabulary.

"Yes…"

Yes, yes, yes
yes, yes, yes…
Speechless, all I can say
yes, yes, yes…
All I can say is
yes, yes, yes, yes…

& after what seemed like a wonderful eternity, it was over. He laid beside me, our fingers still laced together.

"Ellie…thank you…" Jimmy said slowly as he kissed my neck slowly. I smiled & finally felt complete.

"No problem…" I said, & soon enough, the room was completely silent.

Kiss me
Hold me
You've got me
Speechless