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Separated - Taichi's Story

Show me the meaning of being lonely

The only product of loneliness is misery. I remember my Dad saying something about how solitude improves one's moral charcter, and maybe he's right. But it doesn't do much for the spirit. I miss my Yamato so much, you see. I was gonna tell him, too... that night, when everyone was asleep. I know he felt the same way about me. The others didn't notice, but to me it was so obvious. The secret was hurting him, I wanted to take the hurt away. Instead, because I made one stupid false move and got sucked into a goddam portal, he'll hurt forever. But where there's a will there's a way, right? I'm gonna find a way back to the Digiworld. Funny... we were searching for the real world, and now I've found it I just want to leave again. So I'm running, and searching, and running, and searching...

So many words for the broken heart

It's hard to see in a crimson love

So hard to breathe

I have so much to say to him when I see him. I keep playing the scene where we meet up again in my head, so lost in my own imagination that I don't know if I've passed a portal or not and I have to go back and check. My chest is so tight from all this running, but I can't stop. I have to keep going until I find my Yamato again. And until then, I'll dream -

Walk with me, and maybe

Nights of life so soon become

Wild and free, I can feel the sun

Happier times, in the future. My future with Yamato. I'll make him a promise now - that I'll find him, and make him happy. Whatever it takes.

Your every wish will be done

They tell me

I'll grant any request.

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with?

That's how I avoid feeling bad, see. I concentrate on good things to come. But from time to time, the tears slip through, and I just want to sit down and bawl like a baby, until somebody gives me what I want. But life doesn't work like that, so I have to dry my eyes, fix a picture of Matt in my mind and keep going.

Tell me why I can't be there where you are

There's something missing in my heart

But hours have slipped by, and no portal. Why should there be? They aren't exactly common occurences. There's a black hole inside me, and it's sucking my hope away. And that picture of Matt is only a picture, it can't replace the hope fast enough. It's just a matter of time.

Life goes on, as it never ends

Eyes of stone observe a trend

So I turn off the picture, and play memories instead. Yamato, dull and lifeless, only really showing any emotion when he's fighting with me. And he could see the vicious circle too, I'll bet. Fight, hate, fight more, hate more... and no excuse to love. A pattern that will stretch away into eternity if one of us doesn't break it soon. I'm going to break it the minute I get back.

They never say

Forever gazing for me

So if he's always fighting and hating, how do you know he loves you? I hear you ask. Oh, I know. He watches me, you know. He thinks I don't realise, but I do. And the way he watches me - protective, caring - communicates more than words could ever say.

Beauty rose through an endless love

There's no control, are you with me now

At first I was shocked by how I was feeling, but I got over it fast. Love is never hideous, though it seemed so in the beginning. It was like the ugly duckling turning into a beautiful swan... and then the swan taking flight. And once that elegant and majestic bird took to the air, there was no stopping it. It watches over us both, that swan... when my Yamato lookes up to the sky, it is there, even if he cannot see it. If I follow our swan, it will lead me to my love.

Your every wish will be done

They tell me

I wonder how he's acting in front of the others now. Is he being the same old Yamato, pretending he just doesn't give a damn? Probably. But I know he wants me back inside, he misses me as much as I miss him. I know so much about Matt that he tries to hide, and don't think I don't know exactly how he's feeling. Well, he needn't worry - I will get back. I promise.

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with?

Maybe there is a purpose to how rotten we're feeling though... after all, if this had never happened then I would never have realised how much Yamato means to me. I already knew he was fairly important to me, but now I know that my Matt is more important than anything else in the world. Either world. And that's what I have to remember as I'm searching, searching.

Tell me why I can't be there where you are

There's something missing in my heart

In case you couldn't tell, I'm a natural born optimist. But sometimes it gets hard to keep your chin up, especially when there's a very real possibility that you may never see the very person who keeps you going ever again. I try not to think about that, but I have to mix optimism with reality - I mean, come on! What are my chances? Big fat zero. And I miss my Yamato so much...

There's nowhere to run, I have no place to go

Surrender my heart, body and soul

Right, that's it. I'm exhausted. I slump down, gasping for oxygen, and give up. It's hopeless, I've been running all night and I just want to sleep. Best to get Matt out of my head... I'm never gonna see him again. I slam my fist into the concrete floor, and watch my scraped knuckles as they ooze blood. To hell with Yamato anyway. I scrunch up my eyes and concentrate on that thought. TO HELL WITH YAMATO. I'm not convinced. Man, if it wasn't for Yamato I'd be happy to be home! Who is he to make me miserable? To hell with him!

How can it be you're asking me

To feel the things you never show

He obviously didn't care that much about me anyway. If he had, he would have told me so, or at least dropped some hints. But no. And he honestly expects me to love him when he's never so much as given a damn about me? I think not.

You are missing in my heart

Tell me why can't I be there where you are

And for a moment I almost convince myself. I want Yamato to hate me, because then at least I can move on. But I spent all that time studying him oh so carefully, and now it's working against me. Because I know him much better than to think he hates me... he loves me. And I love him.

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with?

So, dammit, I'm gonna find him! No matter what it takes, whatever I have to do. I climb wearily back to my feet, but my legs don't feel much like supporting me. Sleep, I decide. I need sleep. I close my eyes and begin to dream...

Tell me why I can't be there where you are

There's something missing in my heart

I can see him, I can see my Yamato. He's standing at the end of a long tunnel, stretching out his arms to me. I run towards him. I half expect him to get further and further away as I run, but he doesnt. Light pours in behind him, almost blinding me. Just a few more steps...

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with?

And he turns, and steps away into the light. The light swallows him whole and he is gone. I try to follow him, I step into the light, it blinds me, and - I wake up. It is dark. I am alone. I cry.

Tell me why I can't be there where you are

There's something missing in my heart