Alone in this Bed

I've read heaps on Toma having to live without Mika fanfics. But what if the situation was reversed? How would Mika handle it? Songfic, my first Songfic. I'm not really sure how their done of if there is an actually way to do it. So I did it my way. Let me know what you think!

Thanks to spell-checker (), who pointed out the mistake I had made in the original story………So I've fixed it up!!!!!!!

Enjoy!

Disclaimer: Nope still own nothing………but one day *evil laugh*

Song: Alone in this Bed – Framing Hanley

Waking up without you
It doesn't feel right
To sleep with only memories
It's harder every night
Sometimes I think I can feel you breathing on my neck

Waking with a jolt Seguchi Mika sat up in bed. She'd had that dream again, the one in the hospital. It was the dream of when she'd found out her husband, Seguchi Toma, was dead. Looking to her right she saw the once occupied spot empty and once again she had to remind herself that it wasn't just a dream, it was real. Toma really had died. She really was alone.

Tonight I'm reaching out to the stars
I think that he owes me a favor
It doesn't matter where you are
I'll hold you again

Grabbing the packet of cigarettes that always seem to be at reach, she went and sat over at the bay window. Curse that dream, curse the fool who had killed her Toma. The stars seemed to shine down at her, just like Toma's smile had once shined at her and only her. Tears formed in her eyes as she conjured up an image of him. Why, why did he have to leave her? She'd never really been one to pray to Buddha, despite what her father was, but she was praying now; wishing for him to bring Toma back, if only for a day.

I wish I could hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed
Not tonight, not tomorrow

Extinguishing the cigarette she had just lit, Mika got up and walked over to the cd player. Sitting next to where a couple of Nittle Grasper's records. Sitting next to those though were a few cd's that only Mika knew existed. These were specially recorded by Toma for her, as an anniversary present. Each cd was a collection of piano pieces played by Toma. They were designed to help her sleep whenever he wasn't there beside her. Mika had long since abandoned the recordings but figured that tonight she would make an exception and placed one on. Pressing play she climbed back into bed.

How long had it been since Toma had died? Weeks? Months? Years? 5, 5 long years since she'd said her final goodbyes. 5 years since she'd had a decent night sleep. Sure when he'd work through the night before and leave her to sleep alone, she'd had trouble but always knew he'd be back. Now, however, she knew he wasn't coming back. He'd left her, left her alone in this bed with nothing more than memories of his touch and voice to keep her warm.

Finally Mika feel back asleep, an uneasy sleep full of memories and nightmares.

I wish I can hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed

Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in this bed
Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in this bed

Okay………let me know what you think in review. And check out the song, it's so sweet.