A/N: This sort of falls before 'Seven Minutes Dead, and How Jack Harkness Spends Them' This is a fic about what goes through Ianto's head after he dies and acends to heaven, Enjoy~
Pairing; JackxIanto
Warnings; Character Death.
Spoilers; Children of the Earth day 4. (If you haven't seen CoE)
Minute 1
Why me? Why did I have to die? Why not Gwen bloody Cooper or Rhys bloody Williams? This makes me angry. I had a good life ahead of me, but Torchwood Operatives never live past their 20's it's been a proven fact. Look at me! I'm 26 years old and I've died. Jack...what will become of Jack? Oh dear god, this is gonna crush Jack...Jack, Please die, please, I need you. Jack, My Jack.
Minute 2
Jack. Jack. Jack. Why couldn't Jack have just died with me, this'd be easier on both of us. Jack I love you. I really love you. I need you, I can't be apart from you...Jack come back to me, please...I'm broken...Broken is all I am, It's all I ever will be. We all have to be broken in order to really heal our selves. But, I'll remain broken.
Minute 3
I'm broken...I'm really broken. Why do I have to be the broken one? I always end up broken, first with Lisa, then with Jack, then with Owen, then with Owen and Tosh, now with my own death...Death is cruel...I once heard this thing that was like...'Life asked death, "Why do people love me, but hate you?" and Death replied; "Because you are a beautiful lie, and I am a painful truth."...' That was true though, Death is a painful truth, thank you death.
Minute 4
Death. Why is there death? Death is just a painful truth...The truth does hurt...I understand people say about lying being easier...I mean...It's not like the truth ever makes it easier...The truth just sucks. Jack dies all the time. But he comes back, why can't I be immortal? I could come back with Jack, we could be together for ever, but then I'd have to lie, and even if I prefer to lie, I'd still tell the truth...
Minute 5
The truth...I told Jack I loved him...That made telling the truth a little easier. But He said "Don't" What does that mean? I mean he's made his mistakes...Mistakes, we all make them...I made a mistake with Lisa...Lisa...Oh Lisa. I'm so sorry, but Jack has my heart. Jack, I'll be waiting for you.
Minute 6
Waiting...We wait forever for something to happen, but does anything really happen? I mean some people fall in love...I fell in love with Jack.
Captain Jack Harkness, of the 51st Century, I love you, and I'll always be waiting.