Kyouko's Shattered Heart
By TheBlackKid
Chapter 1 – After The Party
"You know, you guys didn't have to stay behind and help clean up. I could've done it myself."
"Come on, Akari. It's no big deal. After all, it is your birthday. Sorta." Yui said.
"Yeah, Yui's right." Chinastu agreed. "With Akane still feeling the effects of those 35 energy drinks and Sis taking care of her, that just leaves you to clean this mess."
"Geez, Chinastu. It's like you and Yui think that I can't do things because of my one-"
*BANG*
"Ow…" Akari whined as she rubbed her head of the pain she got from running into the wall.
"You okay, Akari?" Chinastu asked.
"Yeah. I'm fine. Stupid wall. That's the 5th time today."
"The 5th time?! When were the other four?!" Yui asked.
"Bathroom, kitchen, my room, and bathroom again. The last one left a pretty big bruise, too."
"Akari…" Both girls said.
"What? My eyesight dropped by half. I can't help it if I bumped into stuff repeatedly."
"That's why you got us. Right, guys?"
"Right!" Chinastu cheered.
"…"
"Kyouko?"
"…"
"Kyouko!"
"H-Huh? O-Oh. S-Sorry, guys. I was just…spacing out." I said.
"You sure you're okay, Kyouko?" Chinastu asked. "You were like that during the whole party."
"I-I'm fine. R-Really, I am. Probably just tired. I'm just gonna head home now."
"You sure?" Akari asked.
"Yeah. I'm sure. See you guys at school tomorrow. Oh, and happy belated birthday, Akari."
"Thanks. Bye, Kyouko."
I waved to everyone as I opened the front door and walked outside. After closing the door, I started walking home at 9:45 at night. The party went on for longer than I thought. Everyone looked like they had fun. I had fun, too. And I was really happy to see Akari again after so long.
…
…
B-But…there was a second emotion I had during that party. And no, it wasn't a second helping of happiness.
Let's just say…Akari's depression had passed on to me.
"I'm home." I said as I entered my house.
"Oh hey, dear. Had fun at the party?" My mom asked me as I was walking past the living room.
"Yeah. I guess."
"You don't sound like it."
"I'm just tired. I'm gonna go to bed now."
"I see. Well, goodnight then."
"Goodnight."
I went up to my room and changed into some pajamas (most of my clothes were dirty at this point. So I had to wear my tomato onesie) before heading to bed.
But instead of going to sleep, I just laid there. Not sure how long. Probably about 20 minutes. But after a while, I turned to lay on my stomach…
Buried my head deep inside my pillow…
And began crying.
"*sniff* Akari…"
The truth is…I may have said that I was okay with the fact that Akari and Rise are a couple. But…in secret…I wasn't. I wasn't at all. When I found out that Akari had someone else to love, I wanted to run out of the house crying in heavy tears. I was so devastated. I felt like all of my hopes and dreams were crushed in just a matter of seconds.
But…I didn't want to say it. Not in front of them. They'll probably think I'm faking it or something.
"But it's not fake! It's real! My love for Akari is 100% true! But it can never happen now! I was too late! Why couldn't I have realized these feelings earlier?! Why was I such an idiot back then?! Why?! Why?! Why?!"
I continued to cry these heavy tears of sadness and self-hatred until I finally cried myself to sleep. I kept getting horrible dreams of Akari rejecting my love, but in a darker tone.
I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night. As a dark void of sadness and despair floated over my head. My eyes were swollen from the excessive crying and barely holding up from how tired I was. I felt so weak. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. I was prepared to make this bed that I've had since I was a kid into my deathbed…
*BZZZT*
…when my phone started going off.
"*groan* Who's calling me at this hour?" I weakly asked myself as I reached my phone. I looked at the bright screen (that took me a while to get used to) to see that it was actually a message.
From Ayano.
Why is Ayano up this late? It's only…oh. It's 6:30 in the morning. I was up all night again. Like that's anything new.
I looked at the message that Ayano sent me.
"Hey, Kyouko. Can we talk a bit before school starts? It's really important?"
Really important, huh? Bet she's just here for an old handout I didn't turn in. No point avoiding that. It's either now, or at school. So I might as well get it over with.
"Sure, Ayano. I'll meet you up the road." I texted back.
*BZZZT*
"Oh, there's no need. I'm already at your front door."
"What?!" I shouted.
Persistent much?!
"Alright. I'll be down in a sec."
*BZZZT*
"Great. Thanks, Kyouko."
"Yeah, sure. Whatever." I didn't text that. But I close to doing so. I was so tired and grumpy from not sleeping all night. But I knew that I had to go to school. After missing a week for therapy sessions, one more day and I'm sure to get expelled.
Pretty sure my teachers wouldn't mind that, though. Thanks to my old self, they pretty much hate me right now.
*sigh* Why was I so horrible?
It took me a while to get dressed in my uniform due to how tired and weak I was. I felt like passing out at times. But I somehow managed to do it. And went downstairs to open the front door for Ayano.
"Morning *yawn* Ayano." I said. Trying to sound like my normal cheery self.
But it didn't work.
"K-Kyouko? What happened to you? You look horrible."
"Gee. Thanks." I got insulted. "I'm just a little tired, that's all."
"That doesn't look like "a little"."
"I'm *yawn* fine. Let's go *yawn* already." I tried walking out the door. But as soon as I took the first step, I collapsed and fell on the hard ground below.
"H-Hey! Kyouko! Are you okay?! D-Don't die out on me! T-Toshinio Kyouko!"
H-Have…Haven't heard…th-that in…a-a while…
"Ow…my head." I had woken up in my room back in my bed feeling less tired. But now my head is burning and it hurts like hell. Not to mention that I got the chills, too.
"What the? What am I doing back here? Wasn't I on my way to school?" I asked myself as I picked up my phone from my bed stand.
"Huh?! It's already noon?! How long was I asleep?!"
I got out of bed and stood up on my own two feet. That's when I noticed what I was currently wearing. A light-blue jacket and white shorts combo.
Now I was even more confused. And my head was getting worse from all this movement I'm doing.
As I reached for my bedroom door and tried to turn the knob, the door opened from the other side. And in came someone I least expected.
"Hey. Get back into bed, you."
"Wh-Wha? Ayano? What are you doing here?"
"I'll tell you later. Just get back into bed."
"Huh?!"
"Just do it!"
"Okay, sheesh! I'm going!"
Once I got into bed, my head started hurting more and more. It was burning hot while my body was freezing cold. I tried to think of what was going on right now, but the pain was too much for me to do it.
"Here. I went to the store and got you something." Ayano said as she handed me something from a shopping bag.
"Woah! You got me Rum Raisin?! Normally, Yui would get me this!"
"Just something to help you deal with your fever."
"My…fever?" I was confused.
"You were running a high fever when you suddenly collapsed in front of your house earlier. I had to carry you to your room and changed you out of your uniform before putting you to bed."
"I see. Wait, you undressed me?!" I started to blush once I repeated that one part in my head.
"D-Don't make it sound perverted! I was trying to help you out!"
"I know, but…y-you didn't see anything, did you?"
"No. I didn't. And why are you suddenly concerned about that?"
"W-Well…I-I have a sensitive side, you know."
"You? Sensitive? Since when?"
"Y-You know what? J-Just forget it." I said. Sounding insulted as I turned my back towards Ayano. "Thanks for bringing me up here. You can go now."
I was expecting to hear footsteps getting quieter as Ayano walked out of my room. But I didn't hear such a thing. In fact, I didn't a thing at all for a good 2 minutes or so. It was dead silent in here. And I don't know why, but I feel like Ayano…wants to say something.
"Kyouko. We need to talk."
*sigh* I knew it.
"About what?" I asked.
"When I first saw you this morning, your eyes were all swollen and red. And when I placed you in your bed earlier, your pillow was soaking wet."
"So?"
"So, tell me. Were you…up all night crying?"
I didn't answer. More like, I didn't want to answer. I just pouted and covered my head with my blanket.
"Hey. Don't try to avoid the question. Get back up here." Ayano yanked the blanket off me and left me exposed with my back still facing her.
"Kyouko."
I still didn't answer.
"Kyouko!"
Not one word came out of my mouth.
"Fine. I'm taking the Rum Raisin back."
"Okay, fine! I'll tell you!" I shouted as I shot up from the bed.
"See? Now was that so hard?"
"Shut up."
Damn my weakness to ice cream.
So then I told Ayano everything. How I lied when I said that I was okay with Akari and Rise being a couple. How I felt depressed during the party and on my way home. And how I did cry all night long. I even told her about the nightmares. And how they would make me even more depressed. Thus, I couldn't stop myself from crying in front of her.
"Kyouko…I had no idea you felt this way."
"No one did. I was hopefully trying to save it for my next therapy session, but you bribed it out of me. That was a mean thing to do, by the way."
"I know. I was wrong for that. But I was just so worried. Seeing you act like this isn't really like you."
"You mean my old self?"
"Well…"
"*sigh* I just want to forget that part of me ever existed. It nearly killed my one true love."
"Y…Yeah. Your one true love…" I noticed Ayano sounding sad as she said that. I felt like I just hurt her just now. I had no idea at first, but then I remembered what Ayano's real reason for coming here.
"Hey, Ayano. Did you say you wanted to talk to me about something?" I asked.
"Wh-What?! U-Uh…w-well…" Ayano started blushing extensively from me bringing this topic up. After a while, though…she calmed down enough to tell me what she had planned to tell me before all this happened.
"K-Kyouko. Th-This isn't easy for me to say this, but…last night. When you confessed your love for Akari. I-I kinda got…h-heartbroken."
"Heartbroken?"
"That confession. It just came out of nowhere. I mean, Sakurako's did too. But Himawari forced it out of her. But hearing that you love Akari, you could say that I…felt the same way you did when Akari rejected you."
I had to think about this for a second. Ayano saying that she felt the same way I did when I got rejected…could only mean one thing.
"A-Ayano. D-Do you…l-love me?" I asked.
Ayano didn't respond. At least, not verbally. She slowly shook her head as a way to confirm my guess. And after that, I had trouble saying anything. I had no idea that Ayano felt this way about me. To be honest, I thought she hated me because I kept bugging her a lot.
…
And, well…I kinda wish she did.
I don't want to say it to her, but I don't feel the same way for her. My love is and will forever be for Akari. Even though she's taken.
And besides, after all the times I've annoyed her to no end, I don't deserve her love. Not even sure what she saw in me in the first place.
But…if can take it, then maybe she can too.
"Ayano."
"Kyouko."
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…
"I-I'm…I'm sorry. B-But…"
"It's okay, Kyouko. I know you don't love me the same way."
"H-Huh?"
"When you confessed last night, it was made clear for me. I've had these feelings for you since the day we've met. But I took so damn long to confess to you. And now I've lost you."
"A-Ayano…" I tried to stop her.
"But, like I said…it's okay. I now know that I must let these feelings go. They've clouded my mind for so long that I've even had Chitose to try to help me confess. Granted, none of her ideas were even worth trying."
"Well, duh. This is Chitose you're asking."
"*giggle* Yeah, true." Ayano said with a smile.
"But…you're right, Ayano. About letting the feelings go. It's going to be hard. And even though I don't want to do it, I know that it's for the best for my sanity."
…
"K…Kyouko. I…I-I'm shocked." Ayano said after a moment of silence.
"I know. I am too. Never thought something that sentimental would come out of my mouth, huh?"
"If I say yes, will you get angry?"
"Hmm…probably."
"Then yes. It's unbelievable."
"Hey!" I got insulted.
"*giggle* Sorry, sorry."
We then enjoyed each other's company for a while before Ayano's phone began ringing. Once she answered it…
"AYANO HELP!"
"Huh?! Himawari?! Wh-What going on?!"
"IT'S CHITOSE! SHE'S TURNED INTO A BLOOD FOUNTAIN OVER HERE!"
"MY YURI SENSES ARE GOING CRAZY! MY MOST DESIRABLE FANTASY IS COMING TRUE! KEEP GOING, YOU TWO! SEND ME TO THE GREAT YURI HEAVEN IN THE SKY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
"CH-CHITOSE! CALM DOWN!" We heard Yui in the background.
"PL-PLEASE HURRY, AYANO! IT'S FILLING UP QUICKLY!" Himawari screamed in fear.
"Okay, okay! I'll be right there! Just hold on!" Ayano said before hanging up the phone and facepalming her face hard.
"What the hell?" I asked weakly. Not believing what was happening in the student council room.
"I know. Sometimes I wonder how the hell I got used to it."
"I feel so sorry for you, Ayano."
"Don't. It's what I deserve for accepting it when we first met."
"I-I see."
"Well, I better get going. If I don't, our friends are going to drown in Chitose's blood."
"Yeah, I get it. thanks for taking care of me, Ayano. And thanks for the talk, too. It kinda helped. A little."
"You're welcome, Kyouko. I feel the same way." Ayano said. Her smile getting bigger from the extra happiness she was receiving. I was in the middle of gaining a smile of my own…
When...out of nowhere…
"Oh, hey. One more thing. Do you have any handouts to turn in? I'm missing a few from you."
…
…
I didn't answer Ayano. Instead, I grabbed the container of Rum Raisin and threw it at her. Unfortunately, she closed the door in time for the ice cream to hit against it. And it fell to the ground.
"NOT FUNNY, JERK!" I shouted.
As I sat on my bed pouting, I saw that the container of Rum Raisin was still in-tact. And after staring at it for a while, I got up and grabbed it. Opening the lid and taking a scoop with a spoon.
Mmmm…so good.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Well, I did say I'll come back with a new story. And here it is. I've thought about writing a story that explores Kyouko's sensitive side (yes, even she can be sensitive. You just gotta make it work). Therefore, this story will be entirely in her POV. Hope you guys enjoy it. Feel free to review, favorite, and/or follow the story. Thanks for reading. Later.