hello everybody ! i'm a new writter here. this is my first japaneses fanfiction based on naruto after chapter 700 (in another words after shippunden) my first warning is do not read this if you're a sasusaku front line shipper and hate gaara or you're a gaasaku shipper but hate sasuke. i'm deciding to equally put them two in this story. (because i'm a big fan of them hahaha) and i'm really sorry for my grammar please understand this is my first english language fanfiction. anyway i won't let you know sakura will end up with who. i'll just make you confused hahaha *evil laugh* PLEASE RnR for this new writter *puppy eyes*
oh anyway if anyone wiling to be my beta reader please review me or just e-mail me at hhyewoo .
enjoy~!
Sakura P.O.V
I stare at the sky as konohagakure reflected the clear air sky. The blue colour is really overwhelming myself. Somehow the sky like giving my some encouragement 'don't cry sakura'. I don't even know why am I want to cry from the first place. I always do it anyways it was like breathing oxygen now. Its just my daily life. Why am I complaining now ? I mentally kick myself. As my feet straight through the busiest street among konoha. I saw the people seems smile genuinely to me as I walking pass by. Sometimes some people will make more effort to greet me and give their hands to have a simple handshake to me. 'so this is how it felt to be the next sanin representative ?' I smiled to myself. But not long enough before I feel that gloomy feels again.
*Flashback*
I swing my hands and feels so light as I heading out from my house today. The feels really common and become familiar within this one and a half year. I walk to the strets that finally become my usual track before I'm heading to the hospital. The Uchiha gang. As I walk by the streets is deadly quiet reminds about there's no one live there again this past few years. I walk straight to the biggest house in the gangs. I stepped in as I open up the door. And saw the sandals rack. And no one occupied it 'so he already gone ? this early ? he's maybe need more time..' I silently think to myself. As I walk in, I know where the spare key was and take it to open up the main door. As I walk in, I start to think what am I going to do first ? should I make his bed first ? make him breakfast ? or clean up the garden ? then without realizing I do it all within 2 hour and when it comes to my sense I just realize how big this house was. Uchiha is seriously no joke about earning money. As far as u look in this gangs, mansion is everywhere ur eyes could go. But this mansion is the biggest and also become my favorite. suddenly my imagination filled my self as my head suddenly full of clouds. He come home from mission while I'm cooking at the kitchen he embrace me from behind and kiss my neck and said "tadaima" while caressing my bumping belly….
I fell the heat around my cheeks as that clouds set off my head. I need to clear out my mind. We can't go that far yet. Constant. That's the best words to describe my relationship with my raven hair boyfriend (or he let me call him so) now. He still deep in thoughts and still demanding himself to not open his heart for me. He said that he can't be further and he's not going to treat me like any other lovey dovey couple. He just can't. yet. He can be so hostile by fetch me up at the hospital every Tuesday at 7pm and walk me home but that's it. Nothing ever happened. As the return I always come by his home everytime I got a free time. To make up his bed, clean up his room or make him some food just like every good wife does. but then again I feel slightly gap between us. As if he dig some hole to keep me away from him. And he always add 'yet' to every condition that I want him to be. As if he giving me hope. I feel something heat my eyes and feel something streams down my eyes. As fast as I could reality slaps me back. That is he. He was always like that all this time. And that's the only way he could proof his "love" to me. I stand up and walk to the fish pond as I want to feed the fish when I heard someone come in. from the sound of his feet I know who is this and I know he's tired from crying his heart out again. I stop my activity to fetch him up at the front door. "tadaima" he said. He sees me as he took of one of his training shoes. From his foot condition he walk way too far again he's pushing too much effort to his feet as I saw many bruishes when I help him out to open his other shoes. I can feel his stare at the back of my head as I heal his bruishes again for I don't know how many million times I do it for him.
"you should have not push yourself this far again, but since you will never hear me I'll just come over every day and heal this wounds" my heads up and facing his cold stare to my face. I search something in his onyx eyes. Search a proof than he's sorry for making me always waiting for him. Sorry for making me do all this things eventhough he didn't repay me equally. I feel so drawned by those deep onyx as I leaned closer. I don't even know why am I really have the courage to do this first. Mere of an inch I could feel his dry lips. As I lick my self as a self consciousness to moist his lips with mine. In the seconds before our lips touching he deflect his head to the side. I feel another punch to my heart. As I heard my self screaming 'IDIOT.' I drop my head an stare again to his feet. "you're way too kind to do all this things… I've haired a new maid to clean this mansion up… no need to do it again" I feel his hands caressing my cheek and pull my chin up to face his face. Unconsciously I step back as I pretend to arranging his shoes to the shoe rack. "I'm happy to do it sasuke-kun…I'm gladly do it everyday" as my training to be a good uchiha's wife like your mom. I add it silently. "sakura… I know this things between us… not as much as your preferation and you can't hide it from your face. I simply know. And I can't never live up to your expectation" he said with a cold glance from those onyx. Like a knife was stabbed to my chest I silently cry but I hold it up so it won't forming a tear on my eyes. "sasuke-kun… you don't have to live up to my expectation… I know this scars need more time to heal" I'm kneeling in front of him and try to catch his hand when he simply dodge his hands from mine. I felt my mouth hangin open. Is it that much ? is it that hurt until he won't let me heal him ? as I think and I could feel my eyes get moist even after long time of holding it up. "you can dodge me like that you already did that zillion times as far as I remember and where am I now ? I'm right in front of you… please bear in your mind. That even when you slap me away to get out from your life you know I can't" I said as I standing up I get inside to fetch my purse and my scraf "I've made you breakfast, lunch and your dinner you can heat it up if it necessary… and I've wash all your clothes… please eat regulary… at least for your own sake. Thanks for let me come everyday…." I bow slightly and getting out from his house full of tears as he sit stonedly.
*flashback ends*
And that was happened everyday I come to his house. Everyday he will dodge me. I know that was not because he's not loving me enough. He is just have a hard time and I know I should have been there understand him instead running away with full of tears on my eyes. That's why am I asking my self why were you crying like a baby ? you know he is like that.
'but it hurts…'
A rejection always as hurt as it heard. But well we always manage to get through it everyday aren't we ? as I giving myself encouragement.
'but I need him… I need him to reassurance me that he did love me. He don't want me to go away. He simply need time. I need him to say don't go… instead of do all of that' this time. I can't even find a smart answer for that. I never realize that I stop my tracks and saw the light blue sky again. But this time I'm stopped. As my tears freely streams down my face.
"Oi ! sakura-chan !" I heard a whiskered voice behind me. As fast as lightning I rub my cheek off tears and smiling to the blond behind me. He didn't say anything at first there's a pregnant pause before he start again "you're really bad on hiding tears. Haven't I told you that ?" he said offer me a broken smile as if he try to be strong as well. 'zillion times' I answerd it silently. I offer the same smile just more fakeness on it. "whats that teme said today ? about you two should stop dragging you two each other ?" naruto put his hands on my shoulder. And with that I close my face with my hands. And I could feel he put an arms around my shoulder. "its ok sakura… you don't have to pretend in front of me… at least I'm not trying to staying away from you even if I know I should have to…" his voice whisper his sadness as well.
Naruto, he was my best second man. He always be there. When I need him the most, he'll be there in count to pentosecond. He'll put back my smile with his idiotic behavior or simply by his words (he's really the man of wisdom ever since) since his name was up on next hokage selection he's being really famous around the village and he really grown up a lot from the last war. Eventhough he's being famous and all of the things he still always have the time to take care of me. He always have the time to said 'its ok' to me after I'm visiting sasuke. And he always there… he pick me up from Monday, Wednesday and the rest of weekdays when sasuke is too busy tidy up his mind. And he always there to remind me about having lunch while sasuke forget it. It might be easier if I fall for him too.
Naruto. He never stop falling for me. As he claimed after that war. "I finally manage my promise sakura… now I can present myself… i can… I can finally feeling deserve to be with you" he smiled genuinely to me. With all of his heart with all those wounds when I heal him. I heard the words that I always want to hear… but not from the man I've always dream of. But from the man that always there for me. He never change his feeling for me even after this far… after those long journey I face my back to him… he keeps following me as if I finally will show my face to him instead my back. While I'm busy catching up sasuke's shadow naruto always there doing the same to my shadow. I feel my breath ragging as he tightening his embrace. I could feel his embrace tells me something about 'look at u broken like this, broke my self aswell with double damage… because I know that you can't return anything to heal me' I stirred in his embrace. "want to go somewhere else ? before everyone make an asupmtion that you cheating on me behind sasuke's back ? eventhough that teme probably won't take bullshits like that" he put his arm around my shoulder friendly. I nod simply as the answer.