Hi! I've never written fanfiction before but hey, look at me on here. This is Cronkri with pale Porrim/Kankri and that's about it. Troll sex in later chapters (tentabulges/nooks etc) and heartbreak and stuffs. Enjoy and please don't hate because yeah first time writing this kind of thing!

Your name is Kankri Vantas, and you're alone in your hive. Again.

You're reading a book on social justice when you're alerted by your husktop that you have a new Trollian message, so you sit at your desk and allow a small smile to creep onto your face when you see who's trolling you.

- [CA] began trolling [CG] -

CA: hey kan. wvats going on?

CG: 9h, hell9 Cr9nus! N9t very much, actually. At the m9ment I am just sitting d9wn to relax f9r a while.

CA: oh. wvell i wvanted to know if i could come ovwer later, i wvanted to ask you something but i wanna do it in person.

CG: I supp9se that w9uld 6e alright, c9me 9n 9ver whenever y9u like.

CA: cool.

CA: see you later then.

- [CA] ceased trolling [CG] -

Well, that was unusual. Usually Cronus just talks to you over Trollian- or, rather, listens to what you have to say. Well actually, he's the only one that will actually listen to you talk, and even though he doesn't seem to really be listening half the time it's okay, because at least he doesn't avoid you like the other trolls usually do. After about two hours of the usual silence there's a knock at the door, and you go to answer it.

"Hey Kan," the familiar voice says.

"Hello Cronus," you reply. "Please, come in." You step aside and let the other enter your hive. You make note of his leather jacket, which looks worn down from sweeps of being worn. Usually you hate it when clothes look dirty or broken, but you have to admit, Cronus looks really good in that jacket. "So what brings you here?" you ask, trying to get the other talking so you don't have to focus on forming your own words, which you're sure would come out in broken sentences if you tried to speak.

"Haven't seen you in person in a while, thought it might be nice to say hi. Since you never leave your hive anymore, y'know?"

"Oh, well, yes, I guess I haven't left here in a while..." You shrug and look at the taller troll, eyeing his unlit cigarette. You wonder why he even bothered to have it if not to light it, but frankly you're glad because the smoke smell is very triggering to you.

"I actually did have somethin' I wanted to tell you though. Or, ask, I guess."

"Oh? Well please, go ahead then." You cross your arms and look up at the Aquarius, as he does stand several inches taller than you.

"Well ya see, Kan," he begins, stepping slightly closer. You get slightly uncomfortable due to your personal space trigger but try to stand your ground. "I think you're really great, and I like spendin' time with you, and I wanted to ask if you'd wanna be my matesprit."

To be perfectly honest, you're frozen. Your mouth hangs slightly open and you aren't sure what to think, after all, you've sworn off this type of thing, but you have to admit you feel red for him too. You know it couldn't work though; you'd be a terrible matesprit and you know it.

"I... Cronus..."

"I get it if you don't feel the same, I just wanted to know-"

"I'm flushed for you as well." Now his jaw hangs open, but his expression changes when he sees the look on your face as you stare at your feet.

"...Then why do you look so upset?"

"Because I- I can't be the kind of matesprit you want." He looks confused.

"What do you mean, what kind?"

"I can't be a good matesprit, and I'm fairly certain you know why," you say, still staring at your feet. His expression shifts to thought, then realization.

"... Kan, we don't have to do that right away.."

"But we would eventually, and I've taken a vow."

"I know you have, but I wouldn't make you do anything," he says calmly. "I just want you."

"I'm not sure. I really do want to be in a matespritship with you-"

"Then why don't you?"

"Because!" you say, your voice raising slightly. "I can't! I'll mess it up, I'm sure of it!"

"Kan," he says, taking a step closer. "You're flushed for me, right?" You nod hesitantly, noting how close he's getting to you. "And I'm flushed for you, right?" You nod again. "And I'm not making you uncomfortable if I can help it, right?" You want to nod, but the distance of about a foot between you is making it difficult. "Right?" he asks again. You try to formulate sentences but can only manage a few words.

"I- I feel triggered!" you squeak. He takes a step back and you breathe a sigh of relief.

"Sorry," he says. You have to admit, you like that he respects your comfort level.

"I just- I don't think you'd want to go as slowly as I'd need to."

"I'd go as slow as you want, Kan, I'd never push you into anything." You smile a little bit but think carefully.

"Alright." You glance up at him to see him grinning, which is odd, you've never seen him grin before.

"So- we're matesprits now?" he asks. You nod.

"I suppose so." He looks happier than you've ever seen him. Did you really make him that happy?

"So... How close do you want me to get?" he asks hesitantly. You think about it and step closer, taking his hand.

"This is a good place to start."

Yay I didn't totally fail I don't think! Thanks a lot, if you actually read. I'm gonna go write more stuff now. Hope you liked it! I'll upload more if people seem to like it.