"You care because of how much you love her. You accept all the bad and the reality of the situation because of how much you love her", said Hanna. All I could do was nod my head and grasp what my best friend had just said. Hanna's words smacked me right across my face because they were true, the love I have for Alison is a love that truly scares me. As the tears started swelling in my eyes, the lump in my throat was making it harder and harder for me to breathe. How could Alison have such a hold on me? All the hurt and pain she has caused… why do I still love her? Why can't I accept the fact that she doesn't love me in the way I want her to love me…what am I trying to prove….why is she playing these endless gam….

"Emily? Hellooooo... EARTH TO EMILY." Hanna said as she waived her right hand in front of Emily's eyes.

Emily suddenly snapped back into reality. She was sitting on her bed, legs positioned Indian style with a pillow resting in her lap. Hanna sat opposite looking into Emily's eyes, trying to read her mind. "Sorry Han, yours words struck a core; I was lost in my thoughts."

Hanna sighed, "I get it, I just don't want to see you hurt Em. I love both you and Alison."

They were silent for a couple more minutes, until finally Emily spoke. "You know the saying enough is enough. How does one know when they have had enough… do I even have a breaking point?"

Hanna crawled up beside Emily so they were side by side; they both laid their backs onto the endless piles of pillows.

After some deep thought Hanna replied, "Only you can determine that Em."

Emily knew she was right. She rested her head against Hanna's shoulder and let the tears roll down her cheeks. Hanna pulled her best friend into an embrace, rubbing her hand against Emily's shoulder. "You know you can always come to me about this Emily, I will never judge you on the decisions that you make."

Emily smiled with tears still coming down like water works, "This is why I love you Hanna banana." Hanna playfully pinched Emily's arm. "Please stop with that terrible nickname."

"Never."

Hanna chuckled. "I love you too Em."

Emily absolutely hated Mondays. The only thing that was going to get her through this long day was knowing that this was the final week of school before summer break. Lost in her thoughts, Emily walked into Rosewood High headed straight for her locker. She had ten minutes to kill before first period began. Yes, Emily thought to herself, summer was finally here. Emily was just bursting with excitement, the thought of her no longer being a junior after this school week brought a huge smile to her face. She knew this summer was going to be one to remember. Full of memories, laughs, and boundless slumber parties with her friends. She couldn't wait for the mornings where she could sleep in and the nights where she could stay up all night. She was ready for the tanned skin and endless days at the community swimming pool. She made it to her locker. Right to eleven, scrolling left two times until she landed on five and back one final time to the right as she made it towards seven. She pulled up the handle and opened her locker. As she started looking for the books she would need for her English class Alison popped into her mind… what was this summer going to be like for the two of them? But before she could even think on the thought, she caught a glimpse of a blonde in her peripheral. As she turned her head slightly to her left she saw the blonde walking right up to her. It was Alison. Emily immediately felt herself growing weak; it was as if she was walking in complete slow motion. Alison was wearing some tight ripped jeans, black sandal shoes and a flowy black tank top. Why is she so beautiful Emily thought to herself? As Alison approached Emily, she leaned against the wall of lockers, standing just inches away from Emily. Emily could practically feel Alison's body heat. They both smiled as their eyes made contact.

"Hey killer." As Alison met Emily's eyes she could feel her knees give in. The hair on the back of her neck started rising, nobody but Emily could make her feel this way. "Snap out of it Alison" said the voice inside her head. But she couldn't... she couldn't break away from Emily's dark chocolate eyes.

"Hey you." Emily felt her cheeks get hot, she knew she was blushing. Those eyes, ugh they were so blue.

They both just stood there. Eyes locked. It was like they were in a trance.

Emily was the one who had the courage to look away, she went back into her locker looking for her books. But she couldn't remember what books she was looking for…. What is my first period again she said to herself, or so she thought.

"English."

Emily looked back into those baby blue eyes, "Huh?"

"You just asked yourself what's my first period, so I answered for you. You have English dummy."

Emily laughed, "Was I talking to myself again?"

Alison started laughing but before she could answer she felt someone come up behind, pulling her into a bear hug. She felt this mysterious person nuzzle their head into her shoulder.

"Hey beautiful."

Alison turned to see who it was, although she instantly knew by the sound of his voice. It was her boyfriend Tyler. No wait, he wasn't her boyfriend. Those were his words not hers. Tyler was one who was afraid of commitment. He repeatedly told Alison that he loved her but still wanted to do his own thing… focus on "wrestling" he says. Alison knew better though, Tyler saying he wants to continue to do his own thing is his way of saying he still wants to talk to other people. Alison had been talking to Tyler for over a year now, on and off. Is she tired of his bullshit? Yes. Does she love him? Yes. But is it the can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence, world series kind of love? No. Only one person could ever make her feel that way and that person is Emily Fields. Alison would give anything to be with Emily but she just can't. She can't because she depends on her father's approval. Alison's father would disown her if he ever found out about the feelings Alison has for Emily…. the things that they do. He holds her back from what she really wants, but Alison can't….

Alison is a daddy's girl. After her mother died, her father stepped up to the plate. Alison missed her mother every day, but her father promised he would always be there for her and he has. Growing up he made it to all her recitals and plays, helped her with her homework, packed her lunches, taught her how to drive; HE DID EVERYTHING. She would do anything for her father. He is the one she goes to for advice, he is her shoulder to lean on. Being with Emily would hurt her father and that is something she will never do. He already lost the love of his life… loosing Alison would destroy him.

Alison is facing Tyler now, "What's up handsome?" Tyler reminds her of Stefan Salvatore from The Vampire Diaries. He's got the killer eyes, brooding stare and dark hair but his body is strong due to his wrestling critique. He kisses her lightly on her nose, and then steps back. "I just wanted to see you real quick before class.. later babe." Then he's gone, as if he was never even there in the first place. Alison rolls her eyes, her mind wandering...yeah a quick hi so none of your other girls will notice us speaking. She sighs and then she remembers Emily is right behind her. She slowly turns around, afraid of what is about to happen. She doesn't like hurting Emily but she already knows that she has. She hates the fact that she has to walk on egg shells around her…. don't be selfish Ali says to herself.

She completely turns around, face to face with Emily again.

Emily can feel her eyes swelling with tears but she blinks them back. She doesn't want Alison to see her like this, jealous. No she feels hurt. She is in love with a girl who is clearly in love with somebody else. It sickens her, she can feel her heart cracking.

They both cannot utter a word, neither can speak. The bell rings. People start hustling, running towards homeroom.

Alison sees the tears in Emily's eyes. She doesn't know what to do. Wait she does know what to do.. tell Emily how she really feels. Come on Ali, she says to herself.. trying to round up the courage. She opens her mouth to speak but nothing comes out.

A tear escapes running down Emily's cheek, she quickly wipes it away turns around and leaves. Alison is left all alone.

Alison eyes follow Emily as she walks down the hall, they continue to follow her until she makes her way around the corner…. disappearing.

"I love you." she says quietly. Great timing Alison, says the voice inside her head.

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