He isn't dead.
He will always be alive. He is in my thoughts, in my desires, my dream but mostly in my heart. Most people may think that he has die but he hasn't. He is still alive. He will always be. 3 years exactly have gone by, since he died. Many things have changed, but not my love for him. I will always love him.
''Lucy…It's time to go'', Natsu said with a slow voice.
It is 1st April. The day, he died. Today is the anniversary day of his death. It is moody, like my mood. I had woken up from early the morning to go to his grave. Every Fairy Tail member went there. They left some flowers and then they went home. I was still there. Natsu was there too. I am really glad that he is there. He is the most important person to me. If he wasn't there, I don't know what I would do.
''Can we stay for a while?'', I asked.
It was afternoon. I was tired, but I didn't care. Today was his day. I would stay with him till the end.
''Ok'', he whispered.
Why can people die so easy? Why innocent people should die? It is not fair. I should have died instead of him. Why did he protect me? Why did he put his life in danger? Why? Why?
''Please, don't cry'', Natsu said and weep my tears with his hand.
From the day he died, I always dream about him. In my dreams, he doesn't leave me like in reality. He kisses me, he hugs me, he is with me all the time. Sometimes, I wish not to wake up. To sleep for the eternity.
''He won't return, right?'', I asked like a child that doesn't know what death means.
I don't remember my mother's death. I was too young. I don't remember my feelings. When he died, I thought, I would die too. His death was painful. Like someone had taken my heart and I couldn't live anymore.
''No'', Natsu answered and looked me with a sad face.
His death would have killed me. But that didn't happen. My friends helped me, especially Natsu. I own to him. I have already given him my half heart. The other piece is missing. It was destroyed together with him.
''Do you promise that you won't leave me too?'', I asked.
Natsu and I are a couple. I love him. I really love him. He has done so much for me. I thought that I would never love for someone else. I thought that I wouldn't be able to love someone. I wasn't wrong or right. I love Natsu but not like him.
''I would never leave you. No matter what. I love you Lucy.'', he said and hug me.
I know that I should go on. Continue my life. Forget him. Everyone did the same thing. It's my turn. But I can't. He is haunting me. He has become a part of me. The truth is that I want to continue. I would do whatever it takes to forget him. That way I would forget the pain too. I would be free to love with all my heart. I would be happy like the old days, when he was alive.
''Let's go'', I said, after a big breath, I had taken before.
I hope that with my marriage, I will forget him. I guess, that's the only solution. I will go on. He will just be a memory. A bad memory. I will finally stop crying in my sleep. I will stop these nightmares. I will become the old Lucy. I gazed for a while his grave before Natsu and me leave.
R.I.P.
GRAY FULLBUSTER
X766-x785
A MAGE AND A GOOD FRIEND
If only, I could change the name. If only, I could bring him back to life.
Who I am kidding? He won't return.
I don't like thinking of him being dead. I would like to think that he is just sleeping, but he won't return.
Gray….
''Did you say something?'', Natsu asked me.
''No….Come on'', I said while I took his hand to make him move.
I didn't want to stay. Because I would burst into tears and I wouldn't stop.
20 days have left until Natsu and me get married. 20 days have left till I move on.
EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED….

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