A\N: This was inspired from "Echos" by Chaotic Rei. Lovely story, btw.

Disclaimer:Don't own it.

Summary:Vincent regresses and regrets..and thinks of what could have been.

Sometimes she was annoying. Sometimes she was ignorant. She would destroy moments with her rude remarks, her naive nature was sometimes frustrating. She was loud. She was arrogant and sometimes she was sloppy. She always complained about the weather, her shortcomings, the people around her or just in general. Sometimes she was fickle. Sometimes she was clumsy, and she always stuck her nose where it didn't belong.

But I loved her. I still love her.

There were times where I caught myself staring at her. I couldn't figure out why I was attracted to her, but I was.

We had our moments together, the flutters in my heart and the butterflies in my stomach was what got me through the day. The promise that I'd see her tomorrow with that grin on her face to greet me in the morning.

I miss the lovestruck feeling...

I didn't want to remember the last time I felt like this.

That was the past. I don't want to relive it, but it seems I just can't let it go.

But then I heard the news...and I knew that promise was broken.

She was getting married. To Cloud.

I remember that day like it was yesterday. My heart knotted up into a ball and I felt like I was suffocating. My head felt tight and my hands felt numb. I knew I was retreating back into my shell..the one she broke...the one she selfishly pushed herself through. My whole world shattered. Didn't she know what she was doing to me? What she's still doing to me?

I regret that I didn't do something sooner. It could have been me that was spending the life I wanted with her. I could have been happy. Maybe she gave up on me. Maybe she saw how horrible I really was. Maybe she wanted someone better, someone whose hands weren't tainted with blood of those he'd killed. I wished this were some nightmare where I could wake myself up from, but it was the cold hard reality. She didn't see me the way I saw her..and that was what hurt the most.

The harder I try to distant myself from the past..the more it pushes it's ugly memory back into my head.

I accept my fate. It's what monsters like me deserve.

To live alone and think of what could have been.

But...as long as she's happy..

Then I don't mind.

End