Title: Can't Live A Day
Author: SGater926
Email: spiritual/religious, romance (eventually), hopefully some humor
Status: In Progress
Rating: G
Content warnings: none
Pairings: Sam & Jack (eventually), maybe more
Season/sequel info: Season Eight
Spoilers: A lot of small stuff like background information, but to be safe, anything is up for grabs
Archive: anyone, just ask
Summary: Sam finds herself searching for something, and soon, the rest of SG-1 joins her on that search aided by a new friend.
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters and places are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended. Previously unrecognized characters and places, and this story, are copyrighted to the author. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead is coincidental and not intended by the author. Also, the songs and books mentioned herein are also not property of the author and no copyright infringement is intended there either.
Feedback: Bring it on! ...but be gentle please.
Author's Note: I wrote this before Amanda Tapping said in an interview that Carter believes in God and in the power of prayer. I have been trying to find a way to incorporate my faith into a fic for a long time. This took forever to write and I hope everyone likes it, and, even more, I hope that it helps people to discover the Truth, Jesus Christ. (The title is taken from a song of the same name by Avalon.)
Copyright (c) SGater926, July 2005.
Key:
'Prayer'
/Thoughts/
/Lyrics/
"Dialogue"
Sam flicked on her radio on the way to work and started scanning through the stations. No, no, no, hmmm...what's this? She didn't recognize this song and the music didn't immediately annoy her like so many of the stations she had passed over.
/I could live life alone
And never fill the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms/
/Hmph. Yeah right, just try it./
/And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on/
/Yeah? What's the catch/
/But I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You/
/I knew it! Another sappy love song./ She was about to flip the radio off when she caught the next lyrics.
/Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You/
/I wonder what it's like to be so dependent on someone else; to rely so much on one person. I mean I care about my teammates a lot, and I obviously care about Jack...a lot more than I should.../ She had decided long ago not to try and fight herself when she called him Jack in her thoughts. /...But as hard as it would be, I think could go on if I lost them./
/I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful and new
They'd only make me think of You/
/We sure have seen a lot. Trees remind me of the General, ruins remind me of Daniel, and I guess mountains remind me of Teal'c. Silent and noble.../
/And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my every wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything, oh yes
But if You weren't in it all/
/Wow, this chick is really pouring her heart out. I wonder who she's singing to; a lover, a husband/
/I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
I wonder why she says 'hope' and not 'love'. Weird.
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You/
/Sometimes I feel this way about the General...Jack, but I just don't know.../
/Jesus, I live because You live
You're like the air I breathe
Oh Jesus, oh, I have because You give
You're everything to me/
/Jesus? Oh, must be one of those Gospel songs. I thought the 'Lord' was just an exclamation, and that's why she says 'hope.' Hmmm...it's actually not bad./
/I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You/
Sam changed the channel after the song was over and turned her thoughts to the mountain and what the day would bring. SG-1 didn't have a mission scheduled for another week, no team did. All of the teams had brought back a lot of stuff lately, artifacts, technology, and intel, and the General had decided that it all needed to be translated, analyzed, and studied before the backlog got any bigger. There was also more training in the Jaffa arts to be done, so Teal'c had his work cut out for him as well.
Sam pulled up to the gate and flashed her ID. The guard saluted and waved her through. As she signed in, she began to hum. She continued humming as she waited for the elevator.
"Hey, Sam! Having a good morning?"
"Hi, Daniel. I guess. Why?"
"You were humming."
"I was?"
"Yep. Something you want to share?"
"No, just heard a catchy song on the radio on my way here I guess." It certainly wasn't Pete this time. He had gone to Denver for the weekend to hang out with his buddies.
"Well, I gotta get going. I'm translating that piece of the temple wall for SG-7. They think it has something to do with that small device they found. I'll let you know if I find anything."
"Thanks, Daniel. Have a good day."
"You too, Sam."
She made her way to her lab and flicked on the light. /Hmm. I think coffee is in order. Darn my machine is still broken./ She turned the light back off and headed to the commissary.
/I can't get that song out of my head! How can someone put so much of themselves into someone they can't even prove exists/
Suddenly a word came to her mind. 'Faith.' It was like someone whispered it in her ear.
/Faith/
'It's like when one of your teammates has faith that you can do something and trusts you with their life. They may have never seen you do it before but they know enough about what you've done in the past and about what you are capable of that they believe in you, and they know you care about them enough that you'll risk your life for them. That's the way I am. I gave My life as a sacrifice, not just so people could live physically, but spiritually for eternity, if they just accept My gift.'
/Whoa, where did that come from? Sam thought. Maybe I should pay a visit to the base chaplain... It sure would be better than McKenzie./