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Shuichi pastメラニー長期で修一過去の話
The knife felt so good against his skin and as he look down at his arm where he out a cut in place it was Yuki it had no over lapsing, but his arm had cuts everywhere but on that word. There where cuts everywhere on our young and hyper boy singer was a cutter and had been since a week five months ago nobody knew that he covered his wrist that because he was hiding a deep dark secret, a shame, he didn't have to show them to Yuki because they have not make love yet since he and Yuki came back from New York although they did sleep in the same bed Yuki wanted to wait for Shuichi and after a week of being back he didn't ask "why" anymore because of the cuts he put on his arm. Shuichi was happy because Eiri and Shuichi relationship had been going great.
Everything was going great but then the voices came back again the voices in his head were traumatic from when he was younger, the doctors had said they would help him by giving him pills they worked for a little while, but the pills couldn't suppress his manic personality but then he started blanking out and not remembering what he had did to either make his mother or father happy or sad or angry. The doctors had told him that the pills he was on were used to stop the voices in his head and blanking out weren't going to help so I had to be careful with my emotions. I did get use to them talking one said he names had been Kohaku.
But lately everyone was getting angry at him for blanking out. Or for things he didn't remember Hiro had tell him to stop being so mean but I don't remembering any of it. Then Shuichi could tell Tohma was angry to but the voices had gotten worst and he started blanking out more. He didn't know what to do so he started cutting and everyone thought that he was still the same Shuichi. They all knew and loved well he wasn't he tried to act the same but inside he knew he never would be the same again.
End it he heard a voice but this voice was not Kohaku it wasn't even like him where he sounded so close and real, were as this one sounded so distant. He looked in the mirror and saw his reflection frown at himself and he thought." I will end it no point in going on like this Hiro I have trouble enough and Yuki doesn't need it either".
As Shuichi picked up that blade he did not know that people where be coming to see him Like K who worried for him with Hiro and Surguu as well as Ryuichi, who knew that Shuichi was troubled by something just know what do. No one was listen that the person that is in Shuichi that makes them mad is not Shuichi, then Tohma he is just angry that Shuichi has been mocking him and has only put up with it because he was his best band singer, then Mika came because she too was worried for the Pink hair singer. That had wormed his way into her heart and she thought even though he had tried to act the same she saw what he was really do and that was ACTING.
None of them knew the site that would befall them and change all them. For good or bad nobody knew what awaited them as they, where heading up, a pink hair singer had just slit his wrist he fell to the floor in the kitchen thinking with tears of despair and pain and relief. As he could see the blood slip for the injury he caused himself out of emotional pain and disperse he didn't have to act anymore, as he fell and hit the floor as everything went black, he smiled in pain and bitter relief.
As the group neared the door all they l heard was a SLAM! Hiro Mika as well and Ryuichi ran in well everyone walk quickly. Then they hear a screamed and the worst thing about this was not the scream but who did it was Mika, no one had heard that women scream in such pain and panic and even agony not even Tohma who had gone through a lot with her.
That got everyone running. The site brought them to tears Mika, was holding a limb Shuichi while screaming still and wouldn't let anyone take him and Ryuichi was on his cell phone with 911 coming for him, Hiro just looked frozen no one knew what had happen to the singer but these three when Ryuichi said a word that echo in everyone mind even himself knowing it was true but wanting it not to be.
Attempted suicide! Suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide echo in everyone thoughts wondering what they had not noticed about this singer who was so full of lifethat he would chose suicide one simple word that meant everything.
Then K and Tohma snapped out it getting a plan in their minds K went over to Mika and spoke soothing but firmly, "you have to let him go or we can't help him". Tohma went to Ryuichi who had said there were more than the slits wrist cut, "his arms are littered with them Tohma he been doing it for a while" Ryuichi spoke in an unusual voice, filled with sadness with guilt with angry and despair.
Tohma sighed heavily praying to Kami-Sama that Shuichi would let them help, and not have to go to a hospital. Tohma knew if he was willing then he would not be out of anyone site EVER and Eiri, oh Eiri he would have to call him and explain to him Tohma sighed once more then turned to Ryuichi, the normally childish face that was now looking to serious for Ryuichi. He looks in his eyes and nodded "I also need to call Eiri and tell him what going on". He walk out of the kitchen to call him.
Hiro had gone over to K to help with Mika and Shuichi Surguu felt shocked that the guy that also coming and smile and laugh and hyper could be this same one on the floor. Limp and now in K's arms insteaded of Mika's after Tohma had called Eiri who was on his way and Tohma had no doubt he would be here soon, it was silent as they waited not only for Eiri but the ambulance to come and on Shuichi life, everyone felt cold and scared for the pure and happy, Shuichi that it would not make it but no one would said that aloud because it would make all this to real.
But one guy was feeling all his bad thoughts about Shucichi, Shindou melt away slowly and that scared Tohma because he was so used to be right about things. That he couldn't understand why he was wrong about Shuichi and had misread this all without a thought. He did not hate Shuichi, just thought he was annoying selfish person. But as he thought back all that was turning out not true. Then something snap them out of their thoughts a sigh of relief from one blond crazy gun manger.
Mika voice what they all were thinking. "WHY THE HELL ALL YOU FUCKING SIGHING IN RELIEF WHEN SHUICHI IS DIEDING IN YOUR ARMS YOU JERK!" Mika a screamed in an angry tone, At K for self-relief. He looks at them and spoke something that made everyone thoughts turn to hope. "He won't die in less he bleeds to death which I managed to stop the bleeding, so count that out, he didn't hit the right point in which he would need to kill himself from something more than blood loss."
Everyone sighed in a sort of relief knowing this was going to be tough. It went silent again as everyone thoughts went astray as K held the kid and kept his gun belt tightly wrapped around the singers wrist, and as he got up to move him from the floor to the couch. The door burst open and not only did Eiri Yuki come in but the paramedics as well, K went to them and told what he knew as the paramedics got Shuichi on a stretcher and in the ambulance everyone got in groups and fallowed it.
While Tohma fill Eiri in on what happen and all they knew on the way to the hospital. When they got to the hospital and saw Shuichi unloaded to be looked at. They all sat in chairs but Mika who had started to feel like a second mother to Shuichi. Was pacing in front of the chairs, then she relished then need to called Shuichi mother and family. She walks over to Tohma who had their number for who knows what reason. Tohma had been the one to call them and she knew why, she was jealous of Mrs. Shindou for being the mother to one Shuichi Shindou. 'But she knew she deserved to know about her son had' just a shiver ran though her spine as she thought of that word suicide, and how Shucihi had tried to do it.
Tears slipped out of Mika eyes as she thought of Shuichi and what he had done. When she looked over she saw Tohma was off the phone from Shuichi Mother, she also noticed he was talking to K now and then she walked over and sat down heavily sighing and slumping in her sit. She heard bits from Tohma and his talk with K Shuichi will need everyone's help and I don't want to put him in the hospital because he knows Shuichi loves to sing even now and other plans for Shuichi and them all and how to help him, made with K.
As the doors slide opened and in walk a women who look a lot like Shuichi and with his pink hair. So it isn't bleached everyone though. The women spotted them and walk to them as she walk over to them with her husband. Mika got the sense they did not want to be here and dread settled into her stomach. But as they finally got to where they were, the doctor came out calling for Shuichi Shindou the women looked grim and sad but looked very kind had short blond hair with crystal blue eyes.
When she walked over she looked at me for some reason; and even spoke while looking at Mika who wondered if she could read her soul with that tense look the doctor gave her; "Hello I am Doctor Kamji I am Mr. Shindou Doctor; and he should be fine but he has cuts everywhere on his arms and I was wondering if I should make him an in-patient, in the mental ward, or if you want to try and help him yourself because of who he is and the press and stuff but, know that choice would be a full time job plus hard". Mika was about to speak when Mr. Shindou spoke first, what he said stop her heart and made it go cold then boiled her blood at what he said.
"Keep him and don't send him home to us we don't care what you do". Mika couldn't believe Shuichi father would say that. Then he turned around with his wife following not caring either for their son or what the matter with him was or if he lived, or what even put him in here. Which made her heart crake and freeze over in ice "wait" the doctor called out to them and Mr. Shindou turned around looking annoyed and angry from being stopped from leaving. But the doctor went on away. "Wait you are his parents and I have to talk to you about him then you can leave your son's life for good"! The doctor spat the last part, offended by the way a parent could not even care about their son. He huffed angrily with his wife looking annoyed and angry at the doctor then the doctor turned around to everyone "come with me".
They all followed even Shuichi so called family. They all were lead to an empty hall, knowing what was going to be said was not good, no one was in sight, she turned looked at me with that intensity gaze again then to Shuichi parents, if you can call them that? Speaking something no one knew about and once again made everyone worry but also knowing it would make things even more complex to help Shuich. "Young Mr. shinou's file shows he went thought a mental test and came out with MPD and that his case was too bad to fix it, that he had no idea he had but he had to go on learning to deal with".
Everyone was shocked knowing what MPD was and that it explained a whole a lot. Mrs. Shindou spoke with a cold and harsh air around her but what she said made everyone mad, mainly Hiro but he was used to it, but Eiri and Mika could not see how a mother could have that coldness and harshness. "He is nothing but a freak has been since he went crazy we didn't want him to tell anyone what was wrong so we didn't tell him ourselves. Just said it was a false alarm and that he was fine the little brat was different to handle and I got tired of it, so when he moved in with him" she pointed at Hiro with disgust not only in her voice but the way she had pointed at him "we were happy the freak was gone". She sniffed at the end as though her son had just committed a crime.
Then before Mika could say anything Eiri beat her to it. " He not a freak and it not his fault you should be ashamed of yourselves for not only what you have and said but thought as well, he is your son and a good pure guy; and you don't deserved him that for sure". Yuki had spoken in a cold voice he had not used in many months. The doctor turned to them and said" it's a disorder that he is not to be blamed for and now I think I know what lead to the scars and cutting not knowing what was going on and confusion and hurt and sacredness and worried to tell anyone what was happened so he started to cut then he got more scared not knowing what was happening to him, then finally it got to be too much so he tried to kill himself". She looked at them coldly feeling very sorry the young man who she look over today. She was shock and offend even more by how they treated there son; and said about him. then spoke in a harsh voice "do you want to stay and see your son and help or leave and I will handle him myself if need be"?
They just turned and walked away. When they were out of sight then heard K and his gun be pulled out but for the first time, his crazy self, most have seen that playfulness that he always had when waving it at someone, but that was not there now.
Then the doctor looked at Tohma and said in a grim voice "since the want nothing to do with him what do you want me to make him in-patient or help him yourself? Because it won't be easy" she stress out the "easy" part to make sure we all understood; and everyone look at each other and everyone nodded then Tohma turned to the doctor "we will look after him ourselves and won't let him out of are sight in be on twenty four hour watch by one of us at all times". He reassured the doctor that he would be looked out for her patient.
She nodded "physical he is fine and can go home tomorrow after you sigh some forms and I will give you a few books and plantlets on How to deal with MPD some of the books I will give you will be real books and not just paper books but I will also give you a list of some you can buy and stuff. I also have a request that might sound odd but I think it would be best."
She fell silent and waited till we nodded we were listening to go on "I think those that are going to help need to find a big house and move in together I also might add to make an extra room for Mr. Shindou to have for him one of you will go in but he can re-create and do whatever he wants to the room and it's his space your be there to make sure he doesn't harm himself as long as it not against the rules you set. Because their will have to be some but other than that".
she fell silent as they thought about the request and what it would mean K knew he would do it and so did Eiri and Mika as well as Hiro but Tohma knew that Mika would go so he would to and Ryuichi knew he would have to choose better times to act childish but it was for his best friend so he would do it. Where Surguu knew he would have headache when this was all done he would do it for his band mate and friends that he wouldn't say out loud. They all nodded to the doctor and then she told them what room he was in and to be quite so not to disturb him and went to get the stuff of MPD for them to read tonight and keep but she brought to Mika and silent left as everyone grabbed a book and not something easy to read which shock some people.
Around three in the morning everyone was doing different things to keep busy, hiro was telling Mika about all the good and funny times he had with Shuich, "he used to call records 'those big black CD's" He started laughing softly with Mika. Eiri was sitting on a chair near Shuichi bed holding his hand lightly but his face was staring out the window just thinking about all the good and bad time him and Shuichi had together. Which made him smile bitterly thinking about all Shuichi had done and still did to show him love.
Tohma and Ryuichi were looking outside as well. While Tohma's whole body stood in front of the window with his arms clasped together, in front of him. Thinking about how the hell they were going to fit seven people some of which don't get along, he sighed deeply. In one house he could afford the buying the house that would have eight bedroom one that would be Shuichi space room but he actually had a house in mind. With nine bedroom and he could afford very, very easily. It was the not getting along thing that worried him, he just hope this all works out. Plus he was worried for Shuichi and for once he had no worry in him for Eiri but sadness instead. He knew everyone thought he was just doing this for Eiri but he was not, it was purely for Shuichi as a sorry even if it wasn't spoken he knew he would say it out loud one day.
The other person standing was not in front of the window but on the side with his arm folded. Frowning with his head turn and arms folded in front of his chest. While his face was turned to the window overlooking the city of Tokyo and its lights, while he too thought about things like how he needed to be more serious. Then he pretended to be. As he looks at the lights with pink in them tears started to run down his face as he thought of Shuichi.
Then the door opened and in walks Shuichi Doctor Kamji "you can start the paper work and that way by ten o'clock you guys can leave". Ryuichi look at his watch and realized time went by, as all of them where thinking it was nine already. He looked around the room and saw Surguu was a asleep with his head on Shuichi bed near Eiri and K was in a corner in the back of the room and he look to be in deep thought about something.
That indeed what one manger of the band bad luck was in deep thought about how he could not noticed his singer and the one he thinks as of as a little brother, was in so much pain as he pinched the bridge of his nose. He felt wetness fall on his fingers. He looks at his finger when he felt tears fall down then he squeezed his eyes and blinked them away. He looks up and went over with Tohma. After wiping his tears, to help fill out the forms and start making a list of rules it was pretty basic for now. bBecause they didn't known the personality or their needs so there list is just.
List of rules
1. No violence (Hitting, smacking, or self-harm etc…)
2. No missing meals.
3. No miss behaving the watcher
4. No being alone
5. NO DOING SOMETHING THAT CAN HURT YOU
As K wrote out the list Tohma look over the paper work before signing, then looked over the list and Had K and Hiro be two cosigners, as it said to put in case they can't reach him. Then Mika came over and took the list and added one think to it.
6. Go to someone when you feel the urge to cut mostly your watcher
Then they made a list of people who would most likely get along the best with each other. The first one would be on the bottom floor of the house, while the second list would be on the second floor.
The first list
1. Surguu (for Yuki)
2. Yuki (can't stay in the same bedroom because of watcher)
3. Shuichi (won't want to stay in same bedroom because being mad at everyone)
4. Hiro (for Shuichi)
The Second list
1. Tohma and Mika
2. Ryuichi
3. K
Then Tohma got up and gave the paper work to the doctor. While they thought Ryuichi should be the one to wake up Shuichi. Ryuichi smiled but it was strained as he walked over to Shuichi bed and Eiri moved away so he could wake him.
Ryuichi gentle shook his shoulder, with a sad look on his face. When Shuichi eyes opened he looked up at Ryuichi's strained smiling face with tears glistening in his eyes. Shuichi looked puzzled because he should be dead. Then he noticed he was in a hospital; and he looks around and noticed them all, with sad grim smiles, but with relief which was destroyed when he said one word but they knew what it meant "why"? And he looked angry at everyone before screaming "WHY"?
Mika Hiro and Ryuichi, Eiri all had tears in their eyes while K had just woke up Surguu, when Shuichi had asked "why". And Tohma knew this was not going to be easy since the beginning of talking to the doctor. He stayed clam while Surguu was just sad. K started walking over to Shuichi with a gentle stern face.
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