GRAB THE MOMENT
Cute ? Check.
Fun ? Check.
Drugs addict cheating on me with a junkie ? Check.
Seize the moment. That's what they say. Oddly enough, when it comes to me, the seizing tends to look more like a desperate grabbing.
Why did I throw myself into that relationship without any back up anyway? Thinking of it, I suppose it was all about Duncan. It seems so wise to pay him back. To wander around, hanging on his friend's arm. Just checking how he'd react. Why, I did get an answer to that. Execpt I didn't thought it would come in the shape of Duncan throwing himself over a bleacher. That's my boy, always doing the stupid thing. And that's me, always doing the wise thing.
But who do I think I'm fooling? It's not about Duncan. It's about me. Me following troubles, just in case troubles would forget about me for a while.
Veronica Mars. Storms chaser. Any naughty secret in your life you can't stand anymore? Grab a ticket and wait for your turn. I'll handle it for you.
I know I shouldn't have look into his record at first. But what if I hadn't? It would have ended up just as he planned. And when he'd thought about me, between two joints and a good time with high Shauna, what would've he remembered? Naïve Veronica Mars. Think she knows it all. Well she doesn't. Well, I do, suckass. That just doesn't make me any less lonely.
Guess that's what I do. Seeking for some psycho freak and trying to make their lifes better because I can't do it for mine.
I can fool my friends –well, the few ones who remain- I can fool the teachers, the clients, the police and the whole Neptune community. I can even fool my dad. But I can't fool myself. I heart others pain because it helps to forget. I heart losers, makes me feel like the hero.
Duncan Kane? Check.
Troy Vandergraff? Check.
Logan Echolls. In hand.