Past
The last few days have left my feelings in a mess. I thought at one moment I had all the perfection one needed in life. Perfect grades, boyfriend, just all around perfection. Then Clark caught Jason and I, Jason was fired and Lex betrayed me. Like all the other times perfection doesn't exist long in the world of Lana Lang. Lex lied to me saying he based his actions on a genuine concern for Jason's authority over me and questioned if he was abusing it. When he said that statement he had the Alexander mask on. Don't get it confused with his Lex mask, the liar, the planner and the conqueror. This one was brokenhearted, sad and even vulnerable. It scares me that I name them and it scares me even more that I know his phases; I mean I'm sure it's perfectly natural for business partners to know these things, right?
So here I am walking slowly down the hall of Luthor mansion, like I'm being sent to the execution chair. I wonder all the time how Lex lives here the place seems to have a demonic form all its own, even in the bright sunlight of noon. Lex's bodyguard opens the study doors for me and Lex quickly turns his attention from the brandy cart to me. He has a smile on his face, a genuine one. I stand in the middle of the study like I'm presenting a proposal. "Lana, what a pleasant surprise." Did he really think I wouldn't come back, but not for same reason he thinks I did.
I wanted to know the truth why he did what he did. I gathered my thoughts and strength to say what I needed to. "I can't believe you Lex. You expect it all to go back to normal in a day." Lex took a minute to look at me then turned back to his cart. "Lana I already apologized. Besides I did you a favor." A favor you made my boyfriend leave town. I gave Lex a spiteful look he just filled a glass with his precious brandy. "You had him fired and then chased him out of town." I finally admitted to myself Jason was gone, he left me without so much as a good-bye. "It's for the best Lana. You don't want a relationship with someone who will leave you just like that. Like I keep saying I did you favor."
Liar I thought but didn't dare say it. He didn't even look at me this time just kept his eyes focused to the wall while taking a few sips from his glass. "What was this all really about Lex? And look at me please." I didn't want him to keep running me around the truth. "I thought it was obvious by now, Lana. I want to protect you." He finally glances my way. Protect me from what though?. "Ever other male in my life? Lex you can't do that." Lex finally looked towards me. "You can see yourself out, right?". Just like Lex to push away the real issues make them small so he didn't have to deal with them right away, if ever.
Funny thing is I knew the truth I just wanted him to admit it to me. But I've realized it's harder for him to say the truth rather than his web of lies. Lex looked at me after I stood there for another minute. He set his drink back down as he walked towards me. He gently placed his hands on both my arms , looking dead straight into my eyes and said. "There is something here Lana. Whether its lust's attraction or something deeper, I don't know. But it can never be in this town. You're the town's princess and I…I would be stoned to death." Lex Luthor lusted after me? The girl I always thought he considered a little sister figure. I was stunned he had admitted it finally, but he also said the truth that we could never be anything in Smallville.
"I should go." I say finally, aware of what has all happened in the sum of the last 20 minutes. "Good-bye, Lana" Lex says walking towards his desk. "I have to go to Metropolis for the whole week Friday." Why would he inform me of this, he said never in this town. Was it an open invitation or just a friend letting me know he wouldn't be home? The words are in my throat but I can't seem to get them out. "Bye Lex." I say as I turn towards the door to leave. I look back once I reach the glass study doors. His eyes haven't left me, I smirk and walk down the hall and out of Luthor mansion.