AN: Sorry but I have drifted in angst… I was listening to Paulo Nutini's "Last Request" yesterday… and I had it going around in my head most of the night and ended up thinking about Jack and Ianto… and this is what I came up with. I've put the lyrics at the end… just for those of you that don't know the song. Buy it on iTunes… play it whilst you read… and don't blame me if you end up crying as much as our Mr Jones. Please review… and I promise to write more happy fiction x
Disclaimer: I don't own the song (though it is beautiful and I wish I did) and I don't own Torchwood, Jack or Ianto (thought if I had the option… I'd take Ianto suited and booted with or without the coffee… never liked coffee much… but always been a lover of Ianto… and I apologise for what I'm about to do to him.)
"What?" Ianto gasped looking at Jack confused, hoping he'd somehow misheard what Jack had just said.
The hub was empty save from Jack and Ianto. Ianto had finished tidying up after Gwen had left and then made his usual nightly trip to Jack's office with two steaming mugs of fresh coffee. He'd placed them on Jack's desk as normal, and then things had started to go a little strange.
"I'm sorry Ianto… but I can't go on like this. It's not fair on either of us." Jack said softly.
"You're breaking up with me… why… I don't understand… what did I do wrong?" Ianto said, his voice raising slightly as the inevitably tears formed in his eyes.
"Hey, you didn't do anything wrong. It was me… it was all me. I should never have let things get this… get this far. We always knew that we'd have to end it like this… before we both got hurt. I'm immortal Ianto… and you're not. We could never go anywhere… any further than this." Jack said trying to calm the Welshman down.
"But… I love you." Ianto stated confusing running across his face as tears slid down his cheeks.
Jack closed his eyes and sighed.
"Well I'm sorry if that's a problem for you Jack… but nobody warned me that you were going to do this to me… I know you're immortal… and I know I'm going to die… I just… I never thought you'd be the one breaking my heart." Ianto said angrily at first, whimpering at the end.
"I'm sorry." Jack whispered.
"Can I… can I stay here tonight… just one last time…" Ianto started.
Jack
shrugged his shoulders as he answered. "I don't know if that's
a good idea Ianto."
"Please Jack… just… just let me hold
you… one last night… I just… I'm not ready to let go yet."
Ianto said softly.
Jack nodded at the young man infront of him, who'd never looked so young and lost as he did then.
"Okay Ianto. Just one night." He said opening the door to his private quarters.
Ianto went inside, stripping his clothes as he crossed the room, climbing into the far side of the bed as he watched Jack undress for the last time, before climbing in beside him. Ianto rolled onto his side and pulled Jack towards him, so his back was pressed firmly against his chest, and wrapped both his arms around Jack's torso, resting his chin on Jack's shoulders, crying softly as he spoke.
"I'm gonna miss you Jack." He sobbed.
"I'll miss you too Ianto." Jack said sombrely as he placed his hand on top of Ianto's and squeezed it gently.
"So why end this… this… this feels so right Jack… this… holding you… feeling you… I don't understand why this has to end… how can you turn away from this?" Ianto wept into Jack's back.
"I'm sorry Ianto… that's just the way it has to be… I'm so sorry." Jack said softly.
"Just… just let me hold you. Just for a while… then I'll go." Ianto said cradling Jack as close as he could and holding him silently for the last time.
Slow down, lie down,
Remember it's just you and me.
Don't sell out, bow out,
Remember how this used to be.
I just want you closer,
Is that all right?
Baby let's get closer tonight
Grant my last request,
And just let me hold you.
Don't shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere,
But one last time let's go there,
Lay down beside me
Oh, I've found, that I'm bound
To wander down that one way road.
And I realise all about your lies
But I'm no wiser than the fool I was before.
I just want you closer,
Is that all right?
Baby let's get closer tonight
Grant my last request,
And just let me hold you.
Don't shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere,
But one last time let's go there,
Lay down beside me
Oh, baby, baby, baby,
Tell me how can, how can this be wrong?
Grant my last request,
And just let me hold you.
Don't shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere,
But one last time let's go there,
Lay down beside me
Grant my last request,
And just let me hold you.
Don't shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere,
But one last time let's go there,
Lay down beside me
Yeah, lay down beside me.
One last time let's go there,
Lay down beside me
"Last Request" Paulo Nutini ©