Hey guys. I'm here with a new story or sorted of adopted one. I adopted this story from KheyliLoveNeverDies. I will quickly post the first few chapters. They would be similar but I will be editing them. I would like to thank her for allowing me to adopt her story.
I would also like to wish my beta THEDIVAISHERE to get well soon.
Disclaimer: The song belongs to the singer Sia, most of the plot belongs the acs family's cyberbu/y, and all the characters belong to the very talented Richelle Mead.
This takes place after Dimitri is turned back to a dhampir, Mason is still dead, and Rose still doesn't know that Abe is her father. They met in blood promise but Janine didn't tell her the truth and neither did Abe. The relationship between them is sort of same like in blood promise.
I recommend listening to this song if you haven't heard it before.
Chapter 1: No one needs me.
Breathe Me
Help. I have done it again
I have done it many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to see who I am
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
And needy, warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself, and I am nowhere to be found
I think that I might break
Lost myself again, and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Enfold me, I am small
And needy, warm me up
And breathe me
Rose's POV
Love fades. Mine has.
Four words broke Rose Hathaway. I never felt this broken not when we left Dimitri in the cave, not when we didn't find him there, not when he turned strigoi and not when he wanted me to turn strigoi out of the need not love. Those words echoed through my head as I ran from the church to my room at guest housing. I started to bawl my eyes out. Even my best friend, Lissa has turned on me. She's on Dimitri's side, not mine. She was supposed to help me, comfort me. I never thought that my supposed sister/best friend would turn her back on me. Everyone's turned on me. Lissa, Dimitri, Christian, Eddie, even Adrian.
Christian was Lissa's boyfriend so he naturally chose her.
Adrian who was supposed to be so in love with me cheated on me with some random moroi.
Eddie, my big brother, blames me for mason's death. He thinks I'm selfish.
I have no one left.
Nobody loves or cares about me. Everyone's turned their backs on me. My own father didn't love or want me growing up. He never came out to me once in my 18 years of life. He abandoned me and so did my mom. She didn't want me ever, so she left me in academy. Never came to visit me or called me. She occasionally sent me a message not out of love but just to remind me to behave. I was a stain to her guardian career. She was ashamed of me.
I suddenly felt numb inside. No anger, no sadness, no hurt and not even betrayal. All I can feel was numbness. I heard someone say-
That's right. NO one cares for you. No one loves you. Not anymore. In fact, they never did. Nobody wants you around. You betrayed everyone. You are a bloodwhore. They are ashamed of being associated with you. Even your own parents are ashamed to call you their daughter. That's the reason they left you. Dimitri left you. Even mason left you. Why don't you do them a favor and leave? Permanently. Forever.
The voice was right. If they wanted me gone and out of their lives, then I would make sure that they never see me again. I ran a hand through my hair and wiped my face. Yeah, I should just leave them all alone. At least then they can be happy. They don't have to be ashamed then. Yes, yes I will go away. I will leave. I grabbed my laptop and set it up to record. It faced me as I hit record and sat on my bed.
I sighed heavily and shakily. "I don't know why everybody's pushing me away. I don't know what I did, or said wrong. But I get the hint. You don't want me in any of your lives, and that's okay." I was crying heavily now.
At least do this right. You want them happy right or are you so selfish for that. Do this. They will be happy without you.
The voice urged me to go on. I took a few more breaths and continued. "I don't know why everybody hates me so much right now. So I'll make you happy by making your wishes come true. So all I can say is, goodbye." I shrugged and leaned over to hit stop recording. I clicked on all the people who should see this. Lissa, Christian, Eddie, Adrian, my mom, and Dimitri, I emailed the video and closed my laptop. The voice in my head was telling me that it was time. Nobody cared. Nobody will stop me. But the words that really got me to actually pick up the bottle of pills were- Love fades. Mine has.
Lissa's POV
I was just sitting with Dimitri and his family in Dimitri's room. They rushed here from Russia when Dimitri called them saying he was no longer strigoi. He told them he will visit soon but they insisted on coming here. Dimitri was explaining everything while I was there to fill up the gaps when I got an email from Rose. I looked over at Dimitri who must have gotten the same alert. I had currently been filling out college applications while Dimitri and his family hugged and got caught up. I went over to sit by Dimitri and opened up the email. It was a video of Rose. And she had been crying. Her face was tear-streaked and her hair was all over place. All the Belikovs and I watched and listened as Rose began to talk. Her first two sentences broke my heart. She thought I was pushing her away? I don't need her? How could I not? She is me sister, my best friend.
As soon as the video was done, everyone had tears running down their faces as we sprang into action and ran to Rose's room.
I ran faster following Dimitri. Rose is my only family. I can't lose her.
Rose's POV
I was in my bathroom, getting ready to swallow the pills that would release me from my pain. That will make everyone happy and take me out of their lives.
Do it, rose. They don't need you. Make them happy
The voice urged. But I couldn't get the damn cap off. I had to get the cap off. Suddenly pair of hands was fighting for the bottle. I hadn't realized someone was there until they fought to get the bottle away from me. That someone was Lissa. But I sure as hell refused to give up the bottle. But the bottle slipped from both of her hands and broke and the pills went sailing all over the floor. She ruined them! I got in her face and backed her into a wall screaming, "Look what you did! This is your entire fault!" I sobbed and screamed some more. I wanted to die! Why couldn't they let me die!? It's what they wanted. The least they could do was let me die peacefully.
Lissa's POV
While the Belikovs went for help, I ran to Rose's room. I ran in and Rose grunted, "The damn cap is stuck!" I tried to take the bottle from her but it slipped and broke sending the pills all over the place. She got in my face and backed me into a corner screaming. She said this was my entire fault. I cried knowing it was true. Just then, everyone was there and Janine grabbed her daughter and pulled Rose to her. Janine dragged a screaming and crying Rose to the ground and ran her hand through Rose's hair, saying that "it's alright, everything is okay, you don't really want to die, shh," to sooth her. This was the first time I saw Janine comforting her. Rose was still sobbing but kept repeatedly saying, "I want to die. Let me die." I can't believe this. My sister, my best friend wants to die. This was my fault.
Dimitri's POV
My family and I were shocked at the scene before us. My family cried silently for Rose. I caused this, I thought. I should never have lied and told Rose that I didn't love her. I still did. I just can't forgive myself for what I did to her in Russia. And now, my Roza wanted to die. The strong willed, enjoying every moment of life, the girl I fell in love with, my Roza wanted to die. She thought everyone wanted her to die. My heart broke and shattered into a million pieces at the scene before me. This is all my fault. And I needed to fix it.
Janine's POV
I can't believe that my daughter, my little girl, just attempted suicide. The girl who wanted to live life to its fullest, just attempted suicide. Why on earth did she think that everyone turned their backs on her? She had Lissa and Eddie. Plus, I thought she was dating the Ivashkov boy. Why would she even think of harming herself and giving up on her life so easily? Especially when Lissa cut herself and Rose was furious. What happened that made her decide this. I know I left her but she never once thought about destroying her life for that. Can it be possible that I'm the reason my little girl wanted to die ?
Abe's POV
Janine called me and said that Rose just attempted suicide. I was furious. I'll kill each and every person who drove my baby girl to attempt suicide. She probably thinks that I never loved her. Hell, I'm sure she doesn't even know that I exist. She probably thinks that I never wanted her, let alone try to be in her life. I did. But Janine said it was for the best if I stayed away. Any other woman and I would have fought back, but Janine was a force to be reckoned with. A force that I didn't want to go up against. My job was threatening and for me, safety of my child comes first. So I agreed on staying away from Rose. Especially, since I knew that Janine would get her way on this one whether I liked it or not. But I'm done staying away. The reason I was staying was safety of Rose, my little girl. But now, she just attempted suicide. I can't stay away now. I will have to tell her that I love her, my baby girl. She is so much like me. When I saw her in Russia, I just wanted to hold her and tell her but I couldn't. But now, I will tell her. I grabbed my passport and headed to the airport. I need my baby girl. And she needs me.
Eddie's POV
Oh shit. How could Rose do that. This all my fault. I should have spent more time with her. At least after knowing what happened with Belikov. Mason will never forgive me for leaving Rose alone. Hell, I couldn't forgive myself. She is like a little sister. A girl like Rose could never attempt suicide but she did and its all my fault. I broke my promise to Mason. He told me to take care of her but I didn't. I ignored her after we broke Victor from Tarasov. I was upset because she loved Dimitri and never gave mason a chance. I know its not her fault with who she falls in love with. But I left like I was betraying Mason by helping in saving Dimitri while I couldn't save him.
Mason had made me promised to take care of rose, if anything happens to him. Enough about past, now I will keep my promise to mason. I will protect Rose. I will protect my sister, my best friend.
Author's Note: I hope you guys like it. I made few changes and added few more words. If you want anyone else pov on this like Christian, Adrian or Belikovs', then tell me. Let me know what you think about this. Suggestions on anyone of my stories are always welcome.
Thank you for reading.
Love-Isa..!