Alright this is my first fanfic so be nice please and tell me what you think :D

I rolled on my heels ready to jump, urning for Edwards sweet voice that I had not heard in so long. I could taste the salt of the ocean spray. Every bone in my body was telling me to jump.

I heard my name being called in the distance though, never registered who it was so I chose to ignore it. , I had not yet made up my mind of whether or not I was going to jump. My mind was yelling at me not to as it starred at the black waves ripping at the side of the cliff that I was staring down. But, my body needed to hear Edwards voice. I refused to forget like he wanted me to so badly. Memories of Edward flashed in my mind. A sharp pain scorched through my stomach like I was being punched, I doubled over trying to find my lungs again.

"bella!" I heard a fierce husky voice yell from being.

I was in to much pain to care. I could hear footsteps behind me. I hoped it was Victoria to come and eat me already, but it was Jacob.

"Bella!" you weren't about to jump were you? Do you have a death wish, normal people don't go jumping in to dark ominous waves unless they have one."

I sighed I should have jumped faster. "No, i-i-I just… thought it looked like a good place to relax." I lied horribly I might add.

"Bella, really?: he sighed letting it go but it wasn't over. I knew it.

"Come on, its about to get bad we can wait it out at my house."

I tried to find anger in his features but, there wasn't any, only worry. I already felt bad.

He didn't mention anything about the incident for the rest of the day . it made me uneasy the way he had a look of horror plastered on his face and held my hand protectively.

The sun went down and the rain poared outside never slacking once like usual. I wondered how I was suppose to drive in this, right on que billy rolled in "Charlie called, he said if you couldn't drive home you could stay put."

I could feel Jacob purk beside me. Sometimes I wonder if I could ever feel the same way he felt for me, I quickly pushed that thought out of my mind.

"Well if it wouldn't inconvenience you…" I trailed off unsure.

"course you can stay bells. We are always happy to here." He said smoothly while wheeling out.

"You can take the bed, I'll get the floor" I opened my mouth to argue but he shot me a look that told me I should just keep my mouth shut.

"Thanks jake" I muttered

"Sure sure" he replied not really paying attention to anything anymore.

I swept over his features he had dark circles under his eyes and they were puffy from lack of sleep he was slouched like he couldn't hold himself up. He had probably been running double shifts with Sam."

The bed was like lying on a giant pillow it was very comfortable. Joacobs smell drifted off of it pleasantly.

"Bells?" jacob whispered from the floor.

"Yes jake?" I answered

I could hear him shift uneasily on his homemade pallet.

"Were you really going to jump?"

I opened and closed my mouth not sure how to answer "I was thinking about it, not like suicide but for fun" I didn't like the word suicide.

"Theres nothing fun about dying bells. You mean a lot to me and when I saw you on that cliff about to jump. It scared me so bad. I didn't know what to do. I would do anything to make you happy like that leech.

He knew how uneasy I was with his name.

I heard him sit up he placed his scorching heavy hand over mine and smiled through the dark

"Love you bells" he whispered and kissed me softly on the cheek. The place where his lips touched burned pleasantly and I was surprised to find a smile dancing on my lips. I thought seriously for a moment, could I ever get over Edward? No of course not, but could I love someone else enough to dim the pain and try to tape my broken heart back together. My eyes grew heavier and heavier until I fell into a deep dreamless sleep.