I can't believe it! I am hearing my own people deciding to send Elena away because she is half-faerie. Why do they always act controlled by fear before thinking?! Magnus spoke the truth. After all it was rancor that caused the faeries to ally with Sebastian, but The Clave doesn't seem to see it. Or maybe they do, but prefer to turn a blind eye. Because of the guilt that consumes them, because they aren't brave enough to admit their mistakes.
I looked around me and felt sad to see so many trying to speak up, to change the decision made... but none did. My gaze wandered towards Aline's mother and my heart ached at the pain she was feeling for her daughter. However, what made me question myself if staying quite was right, was the look on my father's eyes. If you didn't know him, you wouldn't notice a change. But I knew him, so I was able to see the doubt in his eyes. Do I want to end up like him? Hurting people, like he hurt me, because I am worried of how I would be seen?... Oh for Raziel's fucking sake, I'm already seen as a freak for my sexuality! Let's fuel the fire a little bit more.
You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody's lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing's gonna hurt you the way that words do
When they settle 'neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you
"Enough!" I exclaimed as I stood up, gaining everyone's attentions. The majority of them watching me surprised, some intrigued and a few groups with disgust. It's good to see that the great part of the Shadow World population stopped hating me because I am gay... even though it has to do with the fact that I killed Meliron the right hand of the deceased Fearie Queen and known as the strongest fey "Can we all stop acting as if we are angry at them?!" I asked pointing at the new Queen, whose facial indifferent faked cracked for a split second letting me see her shock but composed herself so fast that I couldn't be sure of anything "Because if anyone here really believes that they must be all punished, I have to say that I am ashamed of they and would like to never see their faces again... ever" my voice resonated firm and strong through the Clave's Accord Hall, with a determination I never thought possible of achieving. When I was sure that no one was speaking or wanted to interrupt me, because if I had the right to express myself they did as well, I continued my little speech "Not all the fearies were involved in this war, there still innocent children and half-breed that didn't know a thing. Also, when in history had we seen that punishing an entire country, religion or specie was the best solution. Let's take one of the most famous mundane's global problem: Germany in the First World War. Germany was not the one that began it or the only one involved in it, but what decided the biggest potencies of the worlds at that moment? To punish Germany with the wish of destroying it enough so they could never be a great potencies again. All of that because they were jealous, angry and, the most important of them, scared" a lot of people flinch at my words, even Magnus. They probably were present during that war... Which really makes me question, how old is Magnus? Why can't he tell me that kind of stuff?! I shook my head, trying to get rid of those thoughts, before speaking up again "What ended up happening? They rose up again but with the double of force plus the rancor and hater, Germany almost conquered whole Europe and a huge number of people were killed, raped, tortured and a lot of things more. Of course you might be thinking, what does the mundanes have to do with us 'that are so over them and more powerful'?" there was a common chuckle at my imitation of the snobby people of our society, and the laughter of the bravest ones. Which of course were Jace, Izzy, Clary, Aline, Helen, Jordan, Maia and some other ones that I didn't know "If we would just slip away from that blindfold and truly see mundanes by what they are, we would learn a lot of things from them. As well, now I am speaking only to Shadow Hunters, have forgotten the truly purpose of our existence... it isn't killing demons" I raised my hand at seeing so many of my kind ready to shout at me, even my siblings "Our job it is to kill them but our purpose is to protect those who cannot protect themselves*" I locked gazes with my father who didn't even bother to hide his emotions, he looked at me with pride and surprise shinning brightly in his eyes. That gave me the strength and the courage to keep on going "Getting back to the topic, if we tried to punish all the fearies we wouldn't only be starting a Second Black War, we would be hypocrites! Do I have to remind the werewolves about how many slaughters they did back when the Praetor Lupus didn't exist? Also, I would like to high-light that this slaughter involved mundanes as much as vampires, Nephilims, warlocks, witches and fearies" some vampires chuckled and murmured 'busted' in a mockingly way, which angered me. Is that they don't learn?! "Vampires weren't saints either. They used to hypnotize anyone in reach to get them to one of those big parties, were they were treated as animals and just a source of food. Even sometimes they would keep them as a pat or a personal slave- that shut the vampires up and they had the decency of looking ashamed "Warlocks and witches..." I started landing my gaze on Magnus to flash him an apologizing small smile "You are the ones with the most self-control and the wisest behavior, but what happens when someone hurts your ego or your honor? Villages burn or a whole society id cursed out of the mistake of one man or woman or creature. Fearies... well I won't speak about it, we all just lived through one of their revenges" a dark look passed through all of us but I tried to shake it off so I could continue "Last but not least Shadow Hunters, we all think so much of ourselves because we have angel blood in us and the Downworlders are 'infected with demon's blood'. But that's not true! What makes us all..." I pointed at the whole Accords Hall "...better or good is what we do with our abilities. Being a werewolf doesn't mean that you must be a beast that loses control and kills everything and everyone in their sight when the full moon is out. Being a vampire doesn't mean that they are blood starved monsters. Being a warlock or a witch doesn't mean that they are like their demon parent. Being a fearie doesn't mean that you are creatures that only live for tricking and ruining other people's life. Being a Shadow Hunter doesn't mean that we are angels and can't ever be wrong. Look at what happened this year! See what Valentine and Sebastian, who are Shadow Hunters, did in just a few months. All the pain that they caused and all the blood they had shed. And a few years ago what the circle did. But have we ever punished any of this four communities by their mistakes? No, we didn't. Why should we start now? And begin with two Shadow Hunters that fought by our side during this war, and are going to be exiled because their mother was a fearie" when I stopped talking everything was dead quite. But I wasn't nervous or regretted anything, the complete opposite I was the freest I had ever been.
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
"Are we really going to let a faggot like him to speak like that to us?! He should be punished for such disrespectful behavior. If I tell you the truth, he should have been bereft of his runes as soon as he kissed that warlock!" Edward Rosethorn exclaimed furiously, jumping off his seat. He is one of the most powerful men of this generation, the principle reason why a lot of shadow hunters began agreeing with him. However, he gained that power by abusing of his position and blackmailing other Nephilims.
"You piece of..." I raised my hand silencing my parabatai, who was very furious at Rosethorn. Jace wasn't the only one, Izzy, mom, dad, Aline, Helen, Aline's mother, Jordan, Maia, even Magnus was trying to control his magic from how angry he is! It is good to know that he still cares about me, even after everything I made him go through. But what surprised me the most was the dark glare that the new Fearie Queen was throwing to Edward.
"I might be a faggot Mister Rosethorn but at least I am honest and rightful, that's more than I could say from you" I told Edward with a poker face, not showing how much I enjoyed how his eyes were about to pop out of his skull and how his jaw hit the floor "Or is it that I have to remind you of all the dirty secrets you have? Like all the blackmailing that you did or the way you imposed your whishes over the rights of other Nephilims by abusing your powers" He glared at me with so much hater that if looks could kill I would be six feet underground by now. However, when my father and Jia Penhallow gave him a look he shut up and sat down obediently.
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
Everybody's been there,
Everybody's been stared down by the enemy
Fallen for the fear
And done some disappearing,
Bow down to the mighty
Don't run, just stop holding your tongue
"So what do you propose to do Alexander?" asked me Jia firmly, but I could hear fondness behind it as well. Is that no one knows how much I hate people calling me by my full name? I only let my mother and my father call me by it "How can we punish the feairies by their betrayal without provoking another war?"
Good question... I haven't thought that far away yet. I looked around the Accords Hall until my gaze landed on the Blackthorns that had lost everything but themselves. That's it! "First of all they must talk to the Wild Hunt and demand them to return Mark Antony Blackthorn back to the shadow hunter and to never bother him or his family again" my heart ached when I received the looks full of gratitude and hope from the Blackthorn family.
Maybe there's a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
"Fair choice" said Jia to me before turning to the new Fearie Queen "Do you think that you'll be capable of that?".
"The Wild Hunt doesn't obey me and it will bring us a lot of problems... but I'll see what I can do to help" she answered "What else?" she asked me with a small smile. Maybe because I am helping her and her kind?
"If the fearies can't pay for every destruction that caused this war or it will cause them to fall into poverty, they could always pay for half of it and work for the rest. What I mean is that they can rebuilt the houses or whatever that was destroyed with their hands" I explained once I saw the confused gazes of the rest "Also, I know thanks to a source that the Morgenstern still have money saved. Valentine and Sebastian have as much fault here as the fearies, it is only fair that we use that money to help with the reparations" I took a deep breath trying to calm down my nerves and to buy me some time till an idea occurs to me.
And since your history of silence
Won't do you any good,
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don't you tell them the truth?
Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
"As well we must don't punish anyone that has fearie blood in them, because the only thing that Helen and Mark had done was fight for us during this war. And what are we doing?! Exiling them because of something that they couldn't stop" I said firmly daring anyone to tell me wrong "Also, taking all their weapons won't do any good. Who of us would like that our only way to defend ourselves from the exterior was taken away from us?"
"Then we just let them rebuilt their army so they can attack us again?!" a Nephilim from the crowd, that I didn't know, asked me.
"Of course not! Their army and weapons must be reduced but not disappear" I answered her staring at her, reusing to be intimidated ever again. I won't bit my tongue ever again, I will speak what I believe in freely.
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave
I waited patiently until Aline's mother finally spoke up "Thank you for speaking Alexander Gideon Lightwood. Now we will discuss your ideas in private and when we have a final decision we will be back" just like that every ambassador and high positioned member of each species, except fearies, stood up and left the Accords Hall.
"Mister Lightwood thank you for your help" the voice of the new Fearie Queen brought me back from my trance. I looked up at her and saw her smiling at me "Even though your ideas won't be accepted shall you know that we, fearies, don't forget. We will remember the way you defended us and tried to help us out"
"Don't even mentioned it Queen Whitewillow, I already had enough of this attitude" I told her, making her laugh.
"I just wanted to tell you that if thinks doesn't go as we both expect, I'll make my best effort to bring Mark Antony Blackthorn back from the Wild Hunt" I looked at her surprised by her preposition. I must have made a great impression right now "Already said everything I had to, I'll leave you to your family" she told me before walking away, just in time that I was tackled down by all the Blackthorns.
"Thank you Alec!" they all chanted together as they hugged the life out of me.
"Well done Alec! You put them in their places" Jace said to me once I was free from the dead grip of the Blackthorn family. He extended a hand to help me up, which I gratefully accepted.
"Who knew that you had it in you brother" joked Izzy, but I still could see the pride in her eyes.
"Let's just hope that they'll listen to reason and make the right choices" commented Clary.
Soon the mood turn sour but I knew that I had already done everything I could, and I was satisfied because of it. The only thing left was to wait for the results of my effort.
I just wanna see you (yeah)
I just wanna see you (oh ooh)
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you