Summary: Sonny's life changed when Brian raped him instead of stopping. Now he tries to cope while wanting Will back and hiding the truth of what happened. Weeks pass with no one seeing the damage inflicted on him until an encounter with Will who sees right through him. They say that sticks and stones can only break bones but can Sonny's soul mate help heal him and protect him from Brian?

This goes AU at the February 1st, 2013 episode of Days of Our Lives. Basically Brian rapes Sonny instead of stopping and Sonny doesn't tell anyone but deteriorates.

One

Sonny looked at himself in the mirror and what he saw disgusted him. His dark eyes had dark circles under them from lack of sleep and even though he had already taken a shower he still felt dirty. He looked down at his hands and saw the fading bruises on them making him flinch. He had been wearing long sleeve shirts to hide them and he no longer felt hungry anymore. He had expected somebody to ask what was wrong but nobody did because they all suspected that he was just upset from the fiasco with Will. They couldn't be more wrong because the problem wasn't Will but instead Brian a man everybody was charmed by. Sonny knew better now though just like he knew that he had been too weak to fight back leaving him damaged completely.

February 1, 2013

Sonny was putting everything into the kiss with Brian but it didn't feel right. He just kept flashing back to his time with Will and he knew that despite being hurt by the blonde he was still in love with Will. He felt Brian's hands went to his belt and he knew that he had to stop this before it went too far. Sonny pushed the hands away and sat up trying to catch his breath so he could explain to Brian what was going on.

"I can't," Sonny finally got out going to move off the bed only to be grabbed from behind and pulled down.

"Yes you can," he said with a smirk and a look of determination.

"No Brian," the brunette said trying to fight he way out.

Sonny was finally able to get free and flew off the bed landing on the floor but he didn't get far before Brian had jumped on him wrapping his hands around his throat and slamming his head down on the floor. Sonny felt dazed by the way his head had hit and the lack of oxygen making him go limp. Brian used the opportunity to pick him up and throw him on the bed. Dark eyes went wide when he his hands being tied and he started fighting back but the other man was too strong. He kicked out when Brian started to remove his jeans but it was useless and he felt himself start to cry.

"Everything will be alright once this happens. You will forget about Will Horton. This will be good for you so stop fighting it," Brian told him smoothly like he was trying to excuse what he was going to do to him.

Sonny opened his mouth to scream out only to have a hand cover it giving him a dark look. He kept fighting even as he felt himself being turned on his stomach but it was useless. The moment that Sonny felt Brian about to enter him he closed his eyes and tried to let his mind disappear knowing he couldn't stop this no matter how much he wanted to. His mind went to a place where Will and he were happy and he wasn't being hurt by someone he was supposed to call a friend.

Sonny shook his head trying not to think of that night and they way his world was crumbling down around him but nothing worked. He felt bile rise in his throat and he hurried to the toilet as he got sick despite not having that much food in his stomach. He let the sobs escape him as he leaned his head against the lid of the toilet and tried to stop the memories from overwhelming him wishing that he could feel Will's arms wrapping around him once more but that was a pipe dream. Will would no longer want him once he found out the truth and he was too afraid to tell him.

~Sticks and Stones~

Will walked into the coffee shop for the first time in weeks after having gotten the present from Sonny but he also didn't want to get his hopes up. The present could have been sent before their breakup and so he didn't want to pressure his ex but he also needed to know for sure. The blonde frowned when he saw Sonny and was concerned. Sonny had dark circles under his eyes from lack of sleep and he looked like he lost a lot of weight. Will watched his ex flinch when he was startled from behind by one of the baristas.

"The stress must be getting to him," a voice said and the blonde turned to see his friend T standing there looking concerned as well.

"Yeah it's the stress," Will told him thinking this was his fault.

Will saw the look that T was giving him but ignored it as he walked back out of the shop not wanting to add more stress into Sonny's life considering everything that had happened between them because of his lies. The blonde stopped outside the door trying to process the pain that he had caused the man he loved and he wanted to cry. He had broken Sonny and he refused to break him even more by asking for a second chance. Will left not knowing that he was not the reason that Sonny was broken.

~Sticks and Stones~

Sonny hated the way he flinched when Laura had bumped into him from behind but he hadn't been able to help it. It felt like he was fighting a losing battle and wished somebody would save him from the pain; make it stop so he didn't have to deal with it anymore. He heard a throat clear and was able to hold back from flinching but he tensed trying not to freak out. Sonny turned to see the concerned eyes of T and he sighed relaxing slightly but not completely.

"Hey are you alright?" he asked surprising Sonny.

"I'm fine," the brunette tried to say putting on a mask but he was shocked to see that T was not buying it and was going to call him out on it making him the first person to do so.

"No you aren't Sonny," T said angry that he was acting like he was, "You look like you haven't slept in weeks and you look like you haven't eaten in the same amount of time. I thought it was stress and even told Will when he was here a minute ago but I'm not stupid despite what many say. You are flinching away from pretty much everybody's touch."

"Will was here?" Sonny asked trying to ignore the fact that someone was starting to figure out what was wrong with him.

"Yeah he left though probably thinking it was his fault you were like this," T answered sounding concerned.

Sonny tightened his grip on the counter wanting to cry because it was not Will's fault and all he wanted was the man he loved to wrap him in his arms and make everything better. He couldn't deal with the look that T was giving him and so he turned to Laura asking her to watch the place for a little while. He left in a hurry grabbing his coat as he became desperate to find Will wanting to see what he wanted. He needed to be in his presence even if they weren't together knowing that the blonde wouldn't want him because of what happened to him. He didn't even look where he was going so he bumped into somebody flinching back but hands caught him making him freeze. Sonny looked up to find himself in a secluded spot with his worst nightmare not seeing a way to escape.