This fanfiction started with IchigoBLEACHcake's welcome to my life. If you haven't read it I suggest you do or this could get confusing. The link it it the parenthesis here, just remove the spaces - (http:/ichigo bleachcake. /gallery/714577 ?offset=48#/d15ixyw)

Note: This is sorta AU. Takes place after the fullbringer arc, but Rukia is a substitute like Ichigo instead of a lutenent and Renji patrols Kurakura town.

Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach

Chapter 1: The Good, Bad, and the Suicidal

Ichigo woke up and turned off his alarm clock. He got up, got dressed, and started to walk over to the closet to wake up Rukia when Hichigo started in with his pervy thoughts again,

"You know, since she is asleep she wouldn't know if we snuck a peek" he said before laughing a little. Instead of talking out loud he decided to try thinking the words he wanted to say,

"Will you ever stop with that pervy talk of yours?"

"Why should I? Its not like she can read minds. Come on, just one quike peek. She'll never know"

"No, I would know and if she ever found out she would kill us" he said. Hichigo was silent a minute before continuing,

"I know you want to. We both liked it when you saw up her skirt yesterday" he said grining.

"So what if I did? Its not a crime for a guy to like it when he sees something like that by accident"

"Your right, but what if it wasn't an accident?"

"What do you mean?" Ichigo thought wondering what the hell his hollow meant.

"Oh come on. Getting a small top, taking off her pants and sweater when you were conviently walking in, and seeing her panties when she 'accidently' gave us a view of them yesterday" he explained. As much as Ichigo hatted to admit it it made sense, but still didn't want to think yesterday was nothing more but Rukia's ignorance and coinsidince.

"It was all an accident seeing Rukia's panties. Rukia would never do something like that"

"So now you can read minds? Tell me what I'm thinking of" he mocked at Ichigo.

"You have been thinking of the same thing all the time lately"

"And whats that?"

"Doing 'things' with Rukia and I want you to stop"

"Why?"

"Because when you think of something I think of it a little bit too"

"Don't try to say you've never thought about it ether"

"Just shut up" he thought before going over to the closet and knocking,

"Rukia its time to wake up" he said with no response. He opened the closet door before wishing he had just knocked harder. Rukia was sound asleep with her skirt pushed up, panties in plain sight. Ichigo just shut the door and pretended he never opened it and knocked louder,

"Come on Rukia. Its time to wake up" he said before Rukia answered,

"I'm up, just let me get dressed" she said.

"I'll bring breakfast up in a minute" he said before turning to leave, but before had even taken a step Hichigo taunted him again,

"If your careful we can see her change without her noticing"

"No, and I've had it with you. One more perverted thought and I'll come in there and beat you up bare handed" he thought before going downstairs. When he came back up Rukia was waiting for him. He handed her her breakfast and they ate in silence for a couple minutes before Ichigo spoke,

"Rukia are you still mad at me?"

"No, but why did you yell at me last night?"

"I didn't yell at you. I yelled at myself"

"Trouble with your hallow?"

"He wont shut up"

"About what?"

"I don't want to tell you"

"How cute, your worried how I'll react"

"I am not"

"Then why won't you tell me?"

"You really want to know that bad?"

"Yeah, whats the worst he could have said. Something perverted towards me" she said. Ichigo turned bright red, which Rukia took notice of,

"He didn't, did he?" she said starting to wonder if he did,

"Now you lost her completely" Hichigo said. Everyone stayed quite, including Hichigo. Rukia hurried and finished her breakfast,

"I'll see you at school" she said before jumping out the window.

"Just admit you want to be more then friends" Hichigo said right after Rukia jumped.

"Fine, your right. I want to be more then friends with Rukia" he said. What Ichigo or Hichigo didn't know was that Rukia heard the last thing Ichigo said,

"I want to more then friends with Rukia", these word repeated themselves in her mind over and over. She stood there until she heard Ichigo,

"I'm off to school" he said. She ran so Ichigo didn't notice she was still there. The whole time she was running she was still thinking about what he said. Wondering herself what Ichigo ment by more then friends.

"Does he have a crush on me? Does he want to be my boyfriend? Does he want to kiss me?" she wondered blushing at the last part as she walked into the class room. After she sat down Orihime walked up to her,

"Good morning Rukia"

"Morning Orihime" Rukia said. Just then Orihime noticed Rukia's face was red,

"Are you okay Rukia? Your face is red."

"Yeah I'm fine. I just ran to school so I wouldn't be late" she said trying to make herself calm down. Only Orihime knew Rukia was lying. Rukia was a great actor, but terrible when really lying.

"Rukia I know your lying. What is it?"

"Promise this will be a secrete and you won't get mad"

"I promise" she said. Rukia took a deep breath,

"Ichigo has been arguing with his hallow. This morning after I jumped out the window I guess the hollow said something because I heard Ichigo say-" she stopped talking.

"Say what?"

"Say he wanted to be more then friends with me" she finished blushing.

"You must be happy Rukia. I always thought you liked Ichigo and its great he likes you back" she said smiling until she saw Rukia look a sad.

"Rukia whats the matter? I would've thought you would be happy that Ichigo likes you"

"I just don't know if I feel the same way. I'm afraid that if I don't I'll break his heart telling him that" she said thinking about Ichigo crying from pain she could cause him. Before she realized it she started to cry a little just thinking about him crying.

"Rukia are you okay? Your crying."

"I'm fine" she said wiping her eyes.

"Rukia I think you feel the same way he does. Otherwise you wouldn't get this upset about that possibility" she said. Now that Rukia thought about it she did have feelings for Ichigo. They had been through so much together. The night they met, Ichigo saving Rukia from being executed, fighting the bounts, fighting the aracanars, and working to defeat Aizen. She had missed him so much after he lost his powers, but she told herself to forget about him. As hard as she tried she never came close to forgeting him. She hadn't really thought about all the signs pointing to them possibly having a relationship until now.

"How should I let him know I feel the same?"

"Try telling him what you heard this morning and how you feel."

"It would be weird if I just suddenly told him that"

"Then give him some hints you like him"

"Like what?"

"Well you could try flirting with him a little bit"

"You think Ichigo will get the hint if I flirt with him?"

"No harm in trying, but if your lucky he might make the first move. He might ask you to join him to do something, become interested in something your doing, or something else"

"It would be great if he made the first move. I want to go out with Ichigo, but I don't have any experiance flirting"

"Nether do I. I was hoping you would have experience since your age"

"Thats another thing I'm unsure of. Is it okay for me to date him since I'm over 140 years old?" she said. Rukia was old enough to be Ichigo's great great grandmother.

"Well your just like a woman the same age as you pretend to be while in school. I don't see how you and Ichigo couldn't date. Plus love doesn't worry about age"

"Who said anything about love?" she said.

"Rukia I know Ichigo loves you. When he couldn't see you anymore he got so depressed I thought he was suicidal"

"I didn't know he missed me that much. That explains why he cried when he saw me. They were tears of joy" she said feeling touched that Ichigo cared that deeply for her.

"Exactly, thats why he hasn't told you yet. He is worried you don't feel the same and would leave him if you knew" she said.

"How could that idiot think I would leave him. Orihime do you know why I became a substitute soul reaper?"

"You did it because you love Ichigo and missed him, didn't you"

"Everyday I was gone I thought about Ichigo, no matter how hard I tried to forget him I couldn't. I thought about running away to be here with him more then once"

"Now you can be with him, tell him how you feel" Orihime said as Ichigo came into the classroom. He was always unintentionaly eyecandy for the usual girls as he sat down next to Rukia, causing a couple of them she didn't know to glare at her as always. Ichigo was unusually quiet and seemed to hide from her during lunch. After school he left before Rukia could follow him. After consentrating she followed his spirit ribbon and found him on his knees in front of his mother's grave crying,

"Mom I don't know what I should do. I heard Orihime talk to Rukia about how she should tell some guy how she feels about him, that she can be with him" he said as he continued to cry, "If only she knew how much I care about her, how much I love her. If only she knew I couldn't stand it if she left again" he fell onto his arms before Hichigo spoke,

"Damn it Ichigo your making it pour like hell in here"

"Leave me alone"

"If it will get you to stop crying faster" he said before shutting up. Rukia heard him say everything, but couldn't make out the words. She walked back home to wait for Ichigo so she could talk to him about what she had seen, but she waited for a hour and he still wasn't home. She decided to go find him, but she couldn't sense any of his spiritual pressure. There was only one place she thought he could go where she wouldn't sense him here.

"Why would that idiot come here?" she said as she entered the soul society. Just then she seen Ukitaki coming towards her,

"Rukia, Ichigo has gone insane! He wants Zaraki to kill him!"

"What!"

"Right now hes searching for Zaraki!"

"Its all my fault!" she said as she ran off to find Ichigo.

I know I said I wouldn't start another fanfic while writing Rukia and Ichigo, but I can across IchigoBLEACHcakes dojin and it seemed to perfect of a chance to miss. I'm still working on Rukia and Ichigo and should post it soon. Also don't forget about my poll at my author's page. Its been changed from a full out chapter story to a one-shot, sorry :(