Inappropriate Desires

Prologue:

Kagome stared up from her World History final exam only to meet her teacher's two magnificent golden orbs. Professor Sesshoumaru, She thought to herself. I can't believe this is my last class with you. After this exam everything will change. I will be starting in a whole new grade level in the fall and I will be taking all new class with new teachers. I don't know if I can bare that. I don't know if I can bare not seeing you every day.

"Miss Higurashi is everything all right? You have been staring in my general direction for some time now, do you have a question about your exam?" Sesshoumaru asked as he slowly made his way in front of Kagome's desk.

Kagome's eyes widened and she felt her cheeks burn with embarrassment. She couldn't believe that he had caught her staring at him. "N-no Professor." She stuttered. "Gomen."

Sesshoumaru smiled softly. Something he was hardly ever caught doing, but Kagome had that kind of effect on him. When she was around he felt unusually happy, and he would definitely miss her when she left his class to move on to Mr. Sakuraba's World History II. "Are you sure you have no questions? I can help you to some extent." He said with a sigh.

Great he is annoyed with me! She said to herself. "I'm sure." she said in a soft whisper.

Sesshoumaru nodded softly. "Alright then." He said just before he continued to make his way across the class room to check up on his other students.

Kagome stared down at her paper once again. She only had one question to answer but she knew if she had answered it right away then she would have been forced to leave and frankly she wasn't ready to say goodbye yet. "Kami, this is silly." She said softly as she began to wipe away the tears that were now beginning to shimmer in her eyes. He will never feel anything for me besides the student/teacher relationship that we have, and I can't expect anything more than that. She told herself as she jotted down the last answer and looked over her exam for the last time. Fully content with her answers she raised her exam paper in the air to be collected.

"First one done as always Miss Higurashi." Sesshoumaru said as he removed the papers from her hands. "I know you did well for you have done so all year in my class. You are excused now. Have a good summer and good luck next year. You were an absolute joy."

Kagome stood. "Arigato Professor." She said bowing in attempt to hide her flushed cheeks than to be respectful. "Goodbye."

Sesshoumaru's smile quickly faded away as he watched Kagome walk out of his classroom. A wave of hate and despair ran over him and he felt as if he could never feel happy again. He felt like a little kid and his double scoop chocolate ice cream fell to the ground. Why does this girl affect me like this? He asked himself frowning. I don't understand.

Kagome closed the classroom door and ran down the hallway to the exit of the school. "I hate this!" She cried. "I hate this all. It's not fare!"

Sesshoumaru sighed as the last student walked out of his classroom. Placing the last exam on top of all the rest on his desk he sat down on his roller chair and glared at the stack with a sigh. "This is going to be fun." He said out loud. Leaning back in his chair he sighed again as he slowly began to rock his chair.

"Professor Sesshoumaru." Came a soft voice and knock at the door.

Sesshoumaru's eyes darted open and he turned his attention to his classroom door. "Miss Higurashi?" He said slightly confused as he got to his feet. "What are you doing back here?"

"Umm... Well, I don't really know." She said softly. "I-I just... never mind I should leave. I'm sorry to have bothered you."

"No please stay." Sesshoumaru said grabbing Kagome's hand and holding it tightly in his. Her hand is so small.

Kagome 's face flushed brightly as Sesshoumaru led her across the classroom hand in hand. What's going on?

Kagome glanced down at her hand that was still securely wrapped in her former social study teacher's ,noting that all of this had to be a dream. Kami ,she knew he was only holding her hand and the fact she was more than likely over exaggerating the whole hand holding situation but it all just seemed unreal. All school year she had daydreamed of them both walking across the starlight beach hand in hand talking about anything and everything with the occasional pause in regular civil conversation to exchange three special words 'I love you' and later in the evening while cuddling close to one another to keep warm ,while they admired the beauty of the ocean with the moon light glistening on it's water, they would share sweet candy like kisses. And now he was holding her hand! Well, it wasn't exactly the way her daydreams were. For one they were in school in an empty classroom.

Kagome and her mind crashed back to reality when she felt her hand softly hit the side of her hip, and Sesshoumaru's sprawled across her forehead.

"Are you feeling well Miss Higurashi?" Sesshoumaru asked. He glared down at her, his eyes shining with concern.

"Y-yes," She stuttered. "I feel fine. Why?"

"Your face is extremely red." He said point blank.

"Oh." Kagome said softly feeling her cheeks burn with embarrassment. Great so I blush more... If that's possible.

Sesshoumaru stared down at her, eyebrow raised. "Oh, I see." He chuckled. "I didn't realize I made you so uncomfortable."

He watched her gasped. "You don't make me uncomfortable!" She said quickly causing him to chuckle again.

"Are you sure? Your body language is telling me that I do." He paused and said while laughing softly, "I have never seen anyone turn so red before."

"G- gomen," She said almost inaudible.

Sesshoumaru placed his hand on the side of her cheek and smiled. "Gomen? Why? I think it's kind of cute."

Cute? Did he just say that she was cute? She had to be hearing things. No one has ever said that to her. Hell, she didn't even think she was cute! Was he joking with her, or joking her period. Kagome forced a small chuckle figuring that he had to be joking her.

"Funny," She said taking in a deep breathe willing herself not to cry. "Maybe I should go now. I have wasted too much of your time and I'm sure you have a lot to do. " She said eyeing the stack of final exam papers. "I just wanted to tell you I had a lot of fun in your class this year and thank you for teaching me so much." And putting up with having to see my uncuteness all year, She wanted to add in ,but instead she bowed and quickly left the room.

Sesshoumaru dropped his hand to his side and cocked an eye brow in confusion. Funny? He questioned. Did she think that he was joking around with her when he told her she looked cute? Was it possible that she herself didn't see her own beauty?

Well obviously she didn't take it the way it was intended. He growled at himself for his ignorance.

"Damn it!" Sesshoumaru spat. My stupidity and carelessness in my choice of words just caused me to hurt my Kagome. My Kagome? Where did that come from? She is not mine and never will be. She is just a former student of mine and that is all she ever will be.

Angrily, Sesshoumaru sat down in his roller chair in front of his computer and glared at the screen. Maybe it was a good thing he wouldn't be seeing her again next year, except from the occasional passes in the hallway because he doubted that she would ever come visit him before and/or after classes after what had just happened, but that wasn't the point. The point was the feeling that stirred up in him every time she was around him. Feelings he didn't understand , feelings that he never knew existed, but he did knew he didn't want to find out what those feelings were about. He knew for a fact that if he did he'd be in big trouble with a capital 'T.'

Author's note:

This is my second Kag/Sess fan fiction... The first one was Fate Of Awaking love...which I apologize to everyone who has read it and is and has been waiting for updates on that... ;; My computer got toasted in a thunder storm because my crack head step dad didn't turn it of or unplug it --;; so I lost all my story files... TT and I had like 3 chapters for that I was going to put up before my computer died... so I decided to take a break from that story for awhile... gomen ;; I promise to eventually update that when I figure out how to pass the writers block on that one... In the mean time enjoy this one.. ? ;; Please? Okay I'm done rambling now. Please review... Tell me what you liked or what you hated ( just don't be mean about it). Until next time!

-SakuraNeko15/ Anna/Sesshoumaruslover4ever