While We Wait.
Summary: Their conversation has never been of the easiest. Now it may be all they have left.
"Oh my God, I just
keep thinking – oh my God. So this is it. This is how I'm going
to die. Here. Like this. Which is stupid, because it's not helping
anything, and anyway there's no reason to imagine we're
definitely gonna die here. I mean, we've gotten out of worse. It's
not as though Jim Kirk is exactly the type to leave crewmembers
stranded, if he has any choice about it. There's every chance we
could be out of here in an hour."
"I would estimate our
chances of survival at approximately fourteen point seven percent."
Pause.
"Thanks."
"You are welcome."
"I was being sarcastic"
Pause.
"I do not understand."
Sigh.
"Look. When a human
is stuck in a situation he or she is very probably not gonna be
getting out of, a human doesn't always want to hear the exact grim
probability of imminent death. Okay?"
Pause.
"Of all the
irrational fears of humankind, I believe the fear of death to be one
of the most irrational."
"Oh yeah?"
"Indeed. One of
your own Terran philosophers phrased it aptly. There is little to be
done to prevent one's death until the moment of it's actuation.
After which, there is no purpose in worrying."
"Well, pity we don't
all possess those perfect mental disciplines of yours, Spock. It
might make this go a lot easier."
"Undoubtedly."
Time passes
"You know what's
dumb?"
"Elaborate."
"I would feel so much better if I
could see you right now."
"The absence of light is something
of an…inconvenience."
"I was thinking more downright
scary."
"Are you not a psychologist, doctor? Can you not
recognize this reaction as a primitive fear-threat response to the
unknown?"
"Of course I can."
"And considering that we
are trapped in here, it is only logical to surmise the vast
majority of threatening lifeforms to be trapped out."
"God help me, but
that actually made me feel a little better. We should talk more."
"We are using air."
"Air well spent."
"Irrational."
"Humour me."
"Very well. What do you
wish to converse about?"
Long pause.
"What did Sarek say
when you told him you were joining Starfleet?"
"I beg your
pardon?"
"I always wanted to
know."
"And you ask such a question now?"
"It's
something we fallible humans do. At times like this."
Pause. "Sarek is a
Vulcan. He accepts what is."
"Figures."
Time passes.
"….So then I got a
hamster for my next birthday, cos my mother figured there was no way
that could run away. She was wrong. Funny I was never any good at
keeping animals safe and well. That's probably why I went into
medicine – some kind of repressed-inferiority thing. Did you ever
have pets as a kid?"
"You are already aware I owned a
selat."
"Damn, I was hoping you'd forgotten. What
was its name? Oh wait, I bet Vulcan children don't name their pets.
Too sentimental, right?"
Pause.
"Her name was I-Chaya."
"What does that
mean?"
"I don't believe there is an appropriate
translation."
"O-kay…."
"I do not intend to
be intransigent, doctor. Names mean rather more in my culture than
they do in yours."
"Sure. I understand."
Pause.
"Hey Spock, do you
think there's any way…you could sort of – contact the
captain? Mentally, I mean. You've mind-melded several times…"
"I
am a touch-telepath only doctor. You know this."
"Yeah, I
just thought…never mind. Act of desperation."
Pause.
"I assure you I can
think of no solution to our current predicament. If I could I would
attempt it."
"Alright, sorry, I don't mean I consider you
responsible or anything. Hey – you don't think this is
your fault, do you? I'm just as much to blame…"
Long pause.
"To assign
blame….would presently be illogical."
"For once, we're in
total agreement."
Pause.
"So I guess I was
wrong about getting out of here in an hour, right?"
"It has
certainly been longer than that."
"Of course I have total
faith in Jim. He'll go right to HQ if necessary."
"I
believe the captain will do everything within his power to rescue
us."
Time Passes.
"Oh my God, I'm so
thirsty."
"I am also beginning to experience the symptoms
associated with dehydration."
"Reminds me of the time my
cousin and I got lost in the swamp back in Georgia. Jack was six.
Couldn't have been more than nine or ten years old myself. All that
water – and we couldn't drink squat. Had a hell of time trying to
stop him…"
"I associate the
sensation with the vigil at Vulcan's Forge."
"Seriously?
You've done that?"
"I would not be an adult had I not
achieved the desert crossing and vigil at the sacred place."
"Sounds like hell."
"It is a sacred ritual."
"Sorry.
Didn't mean to insult your culture or anything."
"Understandable."
Time passes.
"The crossing of Vulcan's Forge in fact bears more semblances to your Terran myths of Purgatory."
"What?"
"I have been considering your earlier comparison."
"I've
been considering water. And how much air we have left."
"Without a chronometer or accurate impression of space it is
difficult to estimate."
"Do you think we're gonna die
here?"
"I have already given you the odds."
"Yeah but
do you think we're going to?"
Pause.
"I prefer not to speculate."
"You want to check
the walls again? In case we missed a crack, an updraft, anything?"
"We have already-"
"I know. But it might help. It might
help me, at least."
"As you wish, doctor."
Time passes.
"I…admire you."
"Doctor. Further speech is really…not advisable."
"Shut
up I'm gonna say this. I know…we've had our differences. I
won't pretend…we understand eachother. But…I do think…you are
a great first officer…and a very good person."
"Once again
you….insist on applying your race's…moral values to…to
other….."
"Spock!"
"…yes…."
"Hey, you stay with me!"
"I am here. If….we
are to speak again….I would say….that in many ways I admire
you."
Pause.
"Always thought
so."
Hoarse laughter.
"Well….I'm glad
we covered that…before….the end."
"To give up all
hope….is illogical."
"Yeah….always a chance, right
Spock?"
"Fourteen point seven percent."
Finis.
