One Twirl, One Chance

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter obviously and only own the unrecognizable characters and the plot if any

Summary: Oneshot. Lily has liked James for quite some time now and can't find the courage to ask him out. Told in Lily POV while at their seventh year ball. Actually is from events that happened in my life today and I felt like putting all my thoughts down.

Its a bit more serious from my usual stories, but I'm sad now.

ONWARD!

School dance? I love dancing and I love parties, but who would I go with? Well, I guess I could go with my friends as a little "girls night" kinda thing. But one day I want to dance with a guy. Is it sad that I've never been on a date before and I'm seventeen? Don't answer that. I get super nervous around guys and all, but still.

And don't get me wrong. I LOVE guys! They are so nice and sweet (and not to mention good looking), but I just haven't gone out with anyone or had my first kiss. Good things come to those who wait, I guess. And in fact, I am in love right now. Well, maybe I shouldn't call it love because I don't really know the guy. Okay well I've gone to school with him for a few years. He is talented and smart and funny and good looking, with great hair and those gorgeous eyes. I love the face he makes when he concentrates really hard, or when he messes around with his friends. Oh, did I mention he was popular? He has everything guys want and I can't have him just because, well, because I'm shy around guys I like. Guys in general.

But he would never talk to me. The only time he talked to me was when we had a long conversation about a girl getting pregnant fifth year. That was so long ago, back when I only had lukewarm feelings for him. That has changed since then.

Oh yeah, the dance. I always go out with just my girl friends and its a lot of fun, but one of these days I want to dance a slow song with a guy, and not just have a bunch of girls with arms drapped around each other's shoulders, slowly singing to the song like drunken fools. I want that feeling people get on movies all the time where they look up into thier partner's eyes and realize that it is such a wonderful night and nothing could possibly end the paradise they share. Oh and that kiss. Kiss, how you tempt me.

Usually I'd yell at James, or just have a small conversation. But since the beginning of this year, I avoid talking to him all together, turning red when I actually do have to talk to him. I don't care how horrible classes get. I look forward to them just so I can take a quick glance at James, and realize he isn't just in my dreams. I do everything I can to try and get him to ask me out, or at least look at me.

It seems he has moved on, but I still want A guy. No, just kidding. The only guy I want right now is James Potter. There is that one problem where he is kind of super popular and I? I am the nerd with acne still, living under my friends shadows. Just because Jeneese and Kathleen are prettier doesn't mean they should get all the guys.

I'm going to try extra hard tonight. I'm going to look drop dead gorgeous under my five layers of make up. I'm going to dance with my girlfriends and get James' attention. I am going to win his heart.

I was spinning with my friends, making the stupidest dance moves ever, and, of course, slow dancing in a huge circle, singing along with my frineds. The party actually ended up being incredibly awesome. Poor Alice, in the hospital wing with the flu! This has been the best night all year. The music is excellent, the company awesome. And here I am again, finding James in the crowd of people as he jumps up and down like a nut case. A lovely nut case of course. I should ask him to dance. I'm wearing baby blue, his favorite shade. I'm sure if I could just march over there with courage I could...

I definatly can't do it. No, it's not even nerves. There he was, right as the slow song comes on, entwined with a short Ravenclaw. Definatly a slut. I... I can't breathe. It's been how long since I started liking him? I didn't even know...I'm...I'm not going to let it get to me. This is supposed to be a fun dance and I can't let some Ravenclaw slut ruin my...happiness.

He didn't even look at me once tonight. I feel so stupid. Trying to get someone I know I will never be able to get, what with my "charming" good looks and my "witty" sense of humor. I...I need to sit.

"Hey Kathleen, want to come get water with me?" I had to get out of the center of the dancefloor. I had to leave before he saw me. Luckily, Kathleen knows about my little relationship with dear James Potter and did see the little Ravenclaw slut. Marching one after the other through the maze of chair, we made it to a table of hundreds of little glasses of water, waiting to be consumed by me.

"Lily, is everything okay?" Kathleen is such a sweet girl. Why did I ever show spite against her. "Maybe he isn't going out with her. Maybe they just came to the dance. I'm sure James wouldn't go out with someone like her after he's been chasing you for five years."

"Really? Do you think so?" I asked hopefully, turning to the dancefloor to find him again. Although Kathleen may have been trying to cheer me up, it was useless. At that moment, as the song began to quicken, there was Ravenclaw slut with James, grinding away, practically having sex on the dance floor. Occasionally, they would spin or makeout, but either way, I was heart broken. Being that in love with someone and then you just realize that they are with some other girl. Believe me, I'm an expert at this type of moment because well, it's happened to me with three other guys before this. I can't take it. I want out.

How was that for such little planning? It was actually inspired by my dance I just got back from. I really like this guy at school and then I saw him tonight at the dance with some other girl and this is baisically all that happened. Actually I was going to add more but I'm so tired and I want to go to bed.

3 ish

ALLIE