I'm Surrounded By Idiots
Damon was sitting in the coffee shop by himself at a booth. He had just gotten into the city sometime early that morning and it was just kind of well…weird. It had been at least two years since he had been back and well things were different but at the same time they weren't. It wasn't hard for…
Blair moved to get in line to get her daily cup of coffee. She crossed her arms as she waited impatiently to order, silently glancing across the coffee shop when she saw him. She had read on Gossip Girl earlier that morning that he was back, but she did not imagine that she would be running into him so soon.
As she waited in line, she debated on whether or not she should approach him. The last time she saw him, things did not exactly end too well — at least in her mind.
After paying for her coffee, she went over to where Damon was sitting, deciding that it wouldn't hurt to drop a line. "You're back
That I am," Damon said raising his blue eyes up to meet with Blair's. He thought it was kind of funny. New York was a big city and yet it seemed easy for him to run into the people that he knew.
"You can sit down," he said motioning to the empty seat across from him, "unless you're leaving."
Blair hesitated for a second before nodding. Her class didn't start for an hour and she was sort of glad to see Damon too. They had been friends for the longest time and it would be good to catch up a little.
"You look good." she said, as she took a seat.
Damon grinned a little nodding, "Thank you. You do too." He didn't think Blair could really look anything less than beautiful but he didn't want to tell her that evne though he figured she already knew.
"Heard you got into Columbia? That's pretty impressive if I do say so myself," Damon paused to take a sip of his drink, "running that place just as well as you did high school?"
Blair shrugged. "Columbia is no Yale, but at least it's better than NYU." she said. She took a sip from her coffee before continuing, "A lot of things have changed. I'm not the same person as I was in high school, at least not entirely. I'm trying to focus on my future more, for now." she said, smiling at him.
"How about you? What have you been up to?" she asked. Ever since he left, she hadn't heard much about him. It was funny how she almost felt like they were strangers now.
Damon shrugged a little, "Just kind of been around I guess. Traveling around just…staying out of New York."
Damon looked down a bit when he said that. He wondered if anyone else found it odd that out of everyone he wanted to get out of New York the most and stay out. But while people knew Damon they didn't know everything.
"But my dad needed some help with a few business deals and called me so I figured I'd come for a little while and help out," Damon continued with a nod, "so here I am."
Blair nodded, her eyes focusing on her coffee. So he wasn't staying. He was just going to be here to help his father out, then he'd be gone again. She was still mad at him for leaving, mad that he didn't even call, that he didn't return any of her messages, that he didn't even make an effort to keep in touch. And now he was here, only to leave her once again.
Blair tried her best to muster up a smile. "I see. Well, you can always drop by the penthouse if you ever want to hang out." she said, trying to be polite. She was already regretting her decision to approach him. All her feelings from the past suddenly caught up with her and it was making her uncomfortable.
Damon took in a breath before letting it out, "I didn't expect to just leave like that Blair," he said knowing there was still a lot of unfinished business between them. "I was just going to leave and have it be that but I felt like I owed it to you. Like it wouldn't be fair if I just left and didn't tell you."
Damon leaned back in his seat as he ran his fingers through his hair, "You were with Chuck and it didn't seem like that was ending anytime soon so I didn't think it mattered. You seemed happy and in love. I figured it just wouldn't matter."
"And you thought that it was fair of you to throw that all out on me and just leave?" she said, her tone more hurt than mad. She avoided his gaze, knowing that looking him would only make things worse for her. "We were friends. You didn't even call. You just… disappeared."
"Why so we can make it harder?" Damon asked looking at her. "So maybe we'd stay caught for the first month or two but it would have died off. Then you would have been mad at me for not calling or I would have been mad at you for not calling and then we'd just be in a mess and I wanted to avoid that."
Damon took in a breath, "It's not like you asked me to stay either. I remember very clearly at the end of the conversation you told me to leave."
"I didn't know what I was supposed to say, Damon. You just sprung it out on me." she answered, a little frustrated. A part of her wished he didn't say anything to her in the first place. It just ruined their friendship. "When I asked you to leave, I didn't mean for you to go off to some place else and not talk to me for two years."
"Well next time I decide to spill my heart out I'll be sure not to," Damon said as he got up grabbing his coffee from the table. "It was nice seeing you Blair. I'll try not to wait two years before starting another conversation."
"Unbelievable." she muttered under her breath. "Fine. Just go, Damon. Go ahead, and leave me like you always do. You know, for someone who claims to have feelings for me, you sure do a great job at showing it." She looked at him, her eyes filled with hurt and resentment. She shifted her gaze back to her coffee, shaking her head. "Or maybe you've already moved on."
She felt so stupid to be still hung up on Damon after all these years. Serena was the only one who knew about her feelings for him. She made her promise not to tell anybody, especially Damon because she was too scared to lose what they already had. She had no idea that he felt the same way about her but by then it had already been too late. Not that it mattered anymore, it seemed.
Always leaving you?" Damon couldn't believe his ears. "I left once Blair. I graduated, I didn't know what the hell I was going to do with my life, and I sure as hell wasn't going to take the same road my father too."
Damon took in a breath as he shook his head, "If you felt the same way about me well then you should have said something about it before I left because that would have been the only reason why I stayed. You would have been the only reason why I would have stayed."
"Okay, first of all, I never said anything about feeling the same way. And hypothetically speaking, if I did have feelings for you, it wouldn't have made a difference anyway. I was already with Chuck." she said, careful not to admit her feelings for him. Not now, when things were going so great with Chuck. Besides, he said so himself — he wasn't staying and she wasn't even sure if he still felt the same way about her as he did two years ago.
"Fine," Damon said holding up one of his hands in surrender, "fine you don't care about me that's fine. I didn't expect you to really. I mean you have your knight in shining dickwad Chuck so I wouldn't expect anything less."
"Don't you dare say that I don't care about you Damon." she said, her voice rising. "You know that's not true."
"Really? Well you have a great way of showing it," Damon replied deciding to take a line from Blair. "I never wanted to hurt you and if I did I'm sorry. You're the last person I would ever want to hurt Blair and you know that. I didn't come back here to fight with you either."
"I know." You came back to help out your father. "I'm sorry, the past is the past. Can we just please forget about this and go back to the way we were?" she asked softly. She didn't want to fight with him either. All she wanted to do was just spend some time with him before he left again.
"I think we can do that," Damon said quietly before just pulling her into his arms for a hug kissing the top of her head. "I really have missed you though Blair. I know what I did might have been a dick move but….I did miss you."
"I really missed you too." she said softly. More than you know. Blair breathed deep as she hugged him back, holding onto him a little longer than she should have.
She glanced at the time and saw that it had almost been an hour since she arrived at the coffee shop. "Walk me to class?"