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Regret

After I returned from all the hell that the Authority had caused in mine and Sookie's life I longed to give her the peaceful existence that she dreamed of.

Once I begged for her forgiveness for handing the final death to that worthless vampire King Bill.

I knew my lover had held on to feelings she had for him for such a long time.

However once I took the time to explain to her that he had in the end sided with Russell and the Authority and I had no other choice but to end him my little fairy was more than forgiving.

If I live to be another 1000 years old I will never forget that night.

My lover gave herself to me whole heartedly without reservation until the dawn pulled me under into my death until the sun set once more.

I am the happiest I have ever been even when I was a human.

Pam is constantly teasing my Sookie and me that we are so touchy feelley that she wants to barf.

But through our maker child bond I know that she is pleased I have finally gotten the only woman I have ever loved.

In the beginning my Sookie was worried that I would quickly grow tired of her but time has proven her theory wrong where I am concerned.

Although I constantly assured her that would not be the case she in her infinite wisdom decided to make sure that never happened.

My Sookie was an exceptional lover from the first time she gave herself to me but over time she has come out of her shell and surprised me with some of her requests during our love making.

Not only has she become very open in our love making but she has also talked dirty to me a few times during our passionate romps.

Don't get me wrong being with me has not changed her because she is still a southern lady and wouldn't dare utter her sweet dirty requests in my ear where others could hear her.

And her face and chest still turn that lovely shade of pink when certain words come out of that beautiful mouth.

But my Sookie knows what I like and she aims to please.

Now here we are 6 months into our relationship having completed bonding with her she realizes that my love for her is genuine with no other motives.

She seems to enjoy being able to feel my emotions just as much as I do hers.

That's why a mere two weeks ago we had a pledging ceremony at Fangtasia and yes this time my lover understood what was happening and was willing to spend her life with me…as her husband and she my wife.

If I had only known that our happiness would have been so short I might have made different decisions.

Not that I don't love her with every thing in me but I am sure it would have saved us both a lot of pain.

But I'm getting ahead of myself…let me digress then all who hear my tale of how love went wrong will know why I Eric Northman, King of Louisiana, 1000 year old vampire, was brought to his knees and met his final death at the feet of one tiny human female.

My Sookie had finally accepted her heritage and with the help of my 1000 year old blood taken on a regular basis she began showing signs of her faeiness.

Like all things that just happened to my lover in her life she took this in stride.

When I suggested that she allow me to find someone to help her learn more control over her light fingers she assured me that she had already met some fairy's and had been told that the more she used her powers the closer to human she would become.

She said that although she had always wanted and prayed to be human now that she could accomplish that she was no longer sure it's what she truly wanted.

And if she practiced with someone she might run out of light all together so for now she would hold off on practicing until she had made a decision about her otherness.

Looking back if I had only known then what I know now to be fact my life could have been so much better because I once held it all in the palm of my hand.

For the third night in a row I awoke finding my Sookie was not in my arms but in the bathroom which adjoined my light tight space brushing her teeth.

A soon as my keen sense of smell picked up the odor of her sickness I grabbed my cell phone from the nightstand on my side of the bed and dial Dr. Ludwick's number.

Not giving my lover time to argue with me about this I requested the hobbit doctor's presence in my home within a half hour.

Something was wrong with my lover and I intended to find out what although she insisted it was probably just a virus common for humans to contract occasionally.

However I suspected differently considering the amount of my blood she had been consuming over the last 8 months during our nightly love making.

Shortly after the hobbit doctor left our home having given us her diagnosis of Sookie's illness my world ended.

"Little girl you are as healthy as a horse except for being 10 weeks pregnant. Vampire my bill will be in the mail…congratulations." All this was said seconds before popping out of my chambers.

The last thing I clearly remember of that night was shaking my head trying to clear it of the horrible thoughts of my Sookie, my beautiful wife being unfaithful with another.

I became enraged with anger and blood lust that she would allow another to touch what was mine and mine alone.

I recall one moment of clarity in the madness of that night…my Sookie trying to proclaim her innocence to the charge of being unfaithful to me and the fear in her eyes when she realized I didn't believe her.

The next evening when I arose from my day death I was met with the mass destruction of my day chambers, blood soaked sheets which smelled of my lover, an emptiness in my soul where our bond once was, and my lover gone from my life.

I roared, I raged, I rampaged in my anger and pain yet nothing seemed to ease what I felt inside.

I utilized all my resources as a King to coordinate a massive search thinking that if I could extract my revenge on the one responsible for my pain…my wife I could once again become the cold heartless vampire and push these hurtful emotions aside that I use to be.

Time slowly moved forward for me and my progeny Pam.

Being the loyal child that she is my Pam in the beginning took over my duties as King behind the scenes until I became more stable.

Gradually she pushed and prodded me into accepting blood and then sex from various fang bangers once again.

But what she didn't know was that no matter how many others I had after Sookie none could ever fill that empty place inside of me.

Over the years my anger at Sookie began to abate and I realized how young she was when she came into my undead life. I thought she had understood and accepted that making a life with me meant giving up the dream of having children.

But I came to realize that like her beloved Gran that desire had been to strong for her to let go of no matter how strong her love for me.

Yet did she not realize that I was a vampire Viking so unlike that weak human Adele had loved and easily fooled into believing Sookie's father and Aunt Linda were the off spring created from his seed.