I loved him. He was so beautiful. An angel even there was no way to describe him. The emotion. He saved me so many times and I couldn't save him. I had to keep my promise though I loved him. I loved him. He never said it back but how could he when he was taking his last breaths. No, I will not begrudge him for not saying he loved me as he sacrificed his life for me. The bastard. My bastard. My angel. I love him so much and he will never understand.