WHAT GRIEF DOES TO A LUTHOR

Author's Note- Hi guys, so after piecing together some stuff from clips and things I've read on the internet, my faith in Supercorp (which i admit was wavering a little) has been restored! Yay! So here's my new one for you guys, hope you enjoy!

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Summary- Lena is beginning to feel things again, things she'd considered long since dead, and the object of her new-found affection? A certain Danvers sister with a penchant for saving the people of National City.

1

Kara breezed into Lena Luthor's office, a big smile on her face and a skip in her step.

Lena rolled her eyes as her friend smiled at her.

"I really should've revoked that whole 'Miss Danvers is to be shown in whenever possible' thing." She drawled.

Kara's smile remained in place.

"Oh, don't be like that. I said I was going to cheer you up and this is what I'm here to do."

Lena sighed and sat back in her chair.

"Yes, which you have been doing every day now for the past two weeks."

"And we have fun, right?" Kara said enthustiastically.

The tiniest of smiles tugged at the corner of Lena's lips.

"There you go!" Kara cheered as Lena tried her best to bite back the smile.

Kara went over to Lena's coat rack and grabbed her coat, tossing it to the Luthor woman.

"Come on, let's go cheer you up."

"Again." Lena muttered as she put her coat on.

Kara pouted a little.

She knew Lena was always a little moody before they went out but still, it sounded like she was getting tired of all this.

"Look, I'm doing this to cheer you up but if it's getting too much, I'll back off, it's not a problem."

Lena walked around her desk and smiled into her friend's eyes.

"It's not too much, Kara. It's just...how I feel, but you're right, as soon as we do...whatever it is we're doing, I'll be fine." She said awkwardly, because to be honest, she never knew what Kara had planned. The girl seemed to have a different activity for them to do each day!

Kara had taken some time off to do this for Lena and the Luthor woman was eternally grateful. As much as she moaned about it, she was relieved that she didn't have to deal with this on her own, it was comforting to have a friend in a city where she felt like an alien.

Once they were outside L Corp and in Lena's chauffeur driven car, Kara told the driver where they were going and Lena was still oblivious to what was going on. So she sat back and waited to see where they were going.

Lena was naturally curious, so she couldn't help asking questions but Kara didn't give in and tell her. She kept saying that she would just have to be patient, something that Lena wasn't.

Eventually, the car stopped and Kara got out, turning to look up at the building.

Lena looked too and then looked back at the Danvers sister.

"A zoo?"

Kara nodded.

"Pretty cool, huh?"

Lena looked back at it again.

"We've already been here before, you know that, right?"

Kara nodded and walked around to Lena's side, looping her arm through the Luthor woman's own.

"Yes, but last time they didn't close it to the public just so the famous Lena Luthor could walk around it." Kara said with a smile.

Lena's eyes widened.

"You're not serious?"

Kara nodded happily.

It hadn't been difficult; all she had to do was to drop Lena's name and that was it, instant access.

"Kara...that's amazing!"

Kara smiled even brighter than before.

"I'm glad you like it. They also said that they are going to let you into the enclosure with the monkeys!"

God, she was like a child. Lena thought but the warm feeling in her chest surprised her and she smiled a little at it. It was probably only gratitude at having someone do something nice for her.

Lena walked with Kara into the zoo and they looked around at all the animals without Lena having to worry about photographers and the press following her every move.

Yes, they had seen the animals before but Lena was more relaxed now and her mood was gradually lifting.

Kara watched as the lions walked around, even they seemed more relaxed.

Lena commented on the snakes and the wolves and how beautiful they looked even if they were in cages.

They then reached the monkey enclosure and two keepers came out and told them that they would be in with a few marmosets.

"The little black and white squeaky ones?!" Kara squealed excitedly and Lena rolled her eyes good naturedly.

The keeper nodded and then both of them took them in to the enclosure.

They both took a seat on the little boulders that were placed there purely for decoration.

A few of the little ones came down, a little curious to having people in their enclosure and one was brave enough to jump on up Kara's knee.

Kara smiled and talked to the little guy in that strange baby voice that some people make when talking to babies and animals.

Lena watched as Kara held her hand out and the monkey held onto it with his tiny paw.

The Luthor watched Kara's expression, she saw how happy she was and Lena felt that warm feeling in her chest again. This time it wasn't gratitude. She was happy because Kara was happy. Lena liked it when Kara smiled and she suddenly wanted to do everything in her power to make sure that that smile never left her face. That was normal to want that for a friend, right? To be reason that Kara was happy?

Lena straightened and looked around the enclosure to distract herself, suspecting that these 'feelings' were not all she had told herself they were.

"Lena, isn't this amazing?" Kara whispered, afraid that anything loud might scare the monkey away.

Lena turned her head, nodded and her smile mirrored Kara's.

"You have such a nice smile." Lena said softly and without thinking.

Kara looked at her and the smile faltered but only a little before she turned her attention back to the monkey.

Lena turned her head away and her green eyes widened.

Did I really say that out loud? I need to watch that. Lena thought worriedly.

The keeper said that they seemed to like Kara, and Kara's smile brightened even more than it had done before, if that was possible.

After Lena had thanked the staff and everyone at the zoo, they left and went to get lunch at one of those posh places that Lena loved so much.

They took their seats at the back of the restaurant.

"So did you enjoy today?" Kara asked Lena while they waited for their food.

Lena nodded as she sipped at her wine.

"I really did. Thank you, Kara."

"You're welcome. At least it cheered you up."

Lena nodded.

"It really did."

"Did you want to talk about anything?"

"You mean Jack?" Lena guessed.

Kara nodded but the smile had slipped from her face.

This was how it was though, every day. Kara would take Lena to some place to take her mind off of it and then she would ask the Luthor if she wanted to talk about it, just to clear her mind of anything that still might be plaguing her, which it usually was. She would sometimes ask questions about it, depending on how Lena seemed.

"I loved Jack but I had to make a choice. Him or Supergirl."

Kara frowned slightly.

"Why did you choose Supergirl?"

Lena shrugged and her eyes took on that faraway look.

"I don't know...just something told me to, I guess. Jack couldn't be saved and maybe on some level, I knew that."

"Maybe, but Jack's death? It wasn't your fault, you know that."

"I chose Supergirl, Kara. It doesn't matter now." Lena said and her tone was a little harsh.

"You're right, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have brought it up."

Lena sighed.

"No, I'm sorry. You're only trying to help, I understand that. I suppose the reason I didn't think I could save Jack is because the technology was too advanced. I wouldn't have known where to start."

Lena thought back.

That hadn't been the only reason she'd chosen Supergirl.

Supergirl was important to Kara, and Kara was important to Lena. It was as simple as that, but Lena wasn't ready to admit that to the woman sitting across from her and she didn't know if she'd ever be ready.

Kara wanted to tell Lena that she would've thought of something eventually but she knew that would only hurt her, instead of helping her to see things in a more positive light.

"So...what's new at L Corp?" Kara asked, unsure of what to say next.

Lena raised an eyebrow in Kara's direction.

"You ask me this everyday, Kara. It's the same as always."

"So nothing new." Kara said, confirming what Lena had been telling her every day for the past two weeks.

"You know, Kara, today has been great and I've really enjoyed myself but-"

Kara looked down at the table.

"-This is the part where you bail." She said slowly, trying to keep a somewhat kind smile on her face but she couldn't help put feel disappointed.

Lena bit her lip.

"Yeah...I'm sorry."

"It's OK. I suppose you want to go back to your office and look at old pictures of you and Jack, and mope about how you might've been able to save him if only you hadn't chosen Supergirl."

Lena blinked.

She didn't expect that kind of tone or talk from Kara, the most caring, sweet-natured woman she knew.

Kara stood, throwing a few bills onto the table even though their lunch hadn't even arrived yet.

"Kara-"

"It's fine, Lena. I have some stuff to do too."

But Lena knew it was anything but fine.

Kara was probably feeling as though her efforts to cheer her friend up were not working because every day ended up the same; Lena would go back to L Corp or home.

Lena stood as Kara grabbed her bag.

"Kara, wait-"

"No, it's fine. Honestly. This is what you do. I get it."

Lena frowned slightly.

"Kara, I can't help the way I'm feeling."

"Look, I'm not saying to get over it somehow but what I am saying is to stop torturing yourself. What happened to Jack wasn't your fault and there was probably no way that you could've saved him."

Lena looked down. How could she explain to Kara that it wasn't Jack that was making her unhappy? That the real reason she had started bailing at first had been because of her guilt over Jack, but now it was something different and there was no way that she could tell Kara that she was confused about her new-found feelings.

Lena Luthor had been taught that feelings didn't come into anything if she wanted to be successful, so she had locked those feelings away.

Even when she was with Jack, she hadn't given him her all. She had kept some things back, afraid that if she threw herself completely into the relationship and it broke down, her heart would be even more broken that it was when she had left him to come to National City.

But now, Kara had shown her that she didn't have to be afraid, she'd told her that she could trust her and that she wasn't going anywhere, and little by little, Lena had begun to feel things and it scared her.

Now she didn't know what to do.

Kara stood there, waiting to see if Lena looked up. She didn't.

Kara sighed and left with Lena still deep in thought, She hadn't even noticed the blonde leave.

Author's Note- Hope you liked this first chapter. Feel free to review. It helps to keep me motivated! :) X