Tonight I Wanna Cry, a my so called life fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own anything…

A/N: I'm a little tipsy right now as I'm writing this…me and my friend were drink and listening to some country(you know good ole drinking songs)…the result was this song-fic and another…hope you enjoy…once again…I'm tipsy…so if it sucks I'm sorry.

"Tonight I Wanna Cry" Song by Keith Urban

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

Jordan wasn't much of a drinker anymore. Not since that incident with Rayanne. But tonight was different. You see, about a week ago, Angela decided that it just wasn't going to work out anymore. As she walked away, he realized that he was loosing the best part of himself. However, it wasn't until today that the whole situation came crashing down on him. Today Jordan saw Angela walking hand in hand with some guy. This hit him like a bolt of lightening striking his heart. Now here he sits, staring at the few pictures he had of the two of them, as he chugged bottle after bottle of beer.

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Silent tears fell down Jordan's face. Slowly wiping them away with the back of his hand, Jordan couldn't remember the last time he cried. He didn't care though. Angela had always told him that real men cried. Chuckling at the thought, he let the tears flow freely down his face.

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

Opening an old letter, Jordan started to read it as his tears fell onto the crinkled paper. As he continued to read he realized that it was the first letter that Angela had ever written to him. The five page one that she never intended to give to him. She never knew that he kept it and eventually read it in its entirety. Jordan read the letter over and over, the pages becoming wet from his tears. He knew that the hurt wouldn't go away so soon, but in time he knew that he could eventually get over her.