..::Broken Hearts Repaired::..
-x-
A person who says
they know the unknown
is as foolish as
a man who believes
they can see what lies
beyond the dead.
-x-
..::xXx::..
Hmm.. being unconscience can really bring out the real you huh? I've been unconscience for who knows when. The last thing I ever remember is this bear youkai coming at me and Inuyasha's angry and worried face. Then I just blacked out. I have no idea what the damn youkai did to me but hey. It's not the first time I've been unconscience.
Inuyasha...
I can't say I hate him. He's always saving me from deaths grasp and he is always there for me when I need him... most of the times. Sometimes when I need to see him he's with his dead bitch. Kinky-hoe. Excuse my language. Wait. I'm in my own mind right? I can speak any goddamned way I can. Who is there to critize me?
Funny... how I love him so much even though he keeps running off to Kikyo. And it's also funny how I hate him for being a selfish jerk at the same time. He never understands how I feel when he runs off with her. Everytime I see him with her it just breaks my heart. Some people would've just moved on but I can't. I love him too much. How many times has he broken my heart you ask? Probably a million times. But hey, I'll take the torture. Besides... I can fix it. Even though I know it'll just be broken again.
I know I shouldn't be hanging over Inuyasha like this. But he just won't stop leading me on! Every time I think I'll let go he just comes by and pulls me back. It's frustrating really. The selfish jerk.
But then again he isn't selfish at all. I feel bad for thinking about him like that. He's not selfish, I am. I want him to stop seeing Kikyo, his first love. I very well know they love each other but I'm too damn stubborn to realize that and I always get in their way. Inuyasha can't be blamed if I refused to let him go. Hell, he didn't even want me to love him. I'm sure of that. He just saw a little detector in me. Crap. I'm feeling pity for myself now...
Sigh... I bet you're wondering why did we see that bear youkai in the first place. Well how ironic it sounds I followed Inuyasha into the forest only to see him with Kikyo. Wow! What a surprise! Once again my heart broke as he was with her and funny enough I just stood there watching them. It was night just to let you know. Inuyasha said he needed a walk. Yeah. Right.
I didn't know what they said but I knew it was with love. Well from Inuyasha anyway. Kikyo never felt any emotions when she was revived from the dead. I'm sure of that. She only showed anger and rage which isn't really good. Never once have I seen her smile. Maybe an evil laugh here and there but that doesn't count. I bet she was happy and warm when she was actually alive. Heck, maybe I would've been friends with her if she would smile more and not try to constantly kill Inuyasha. snort Yeah.. right.
I don't hate her. just sort of... envy her. She is strong, beautiful and smart. She not a klutz like me. I'm not as strong or as pretty. I could clearly see why Inuyasha cose her over me. Hmm. Who would chose a klutzy, weak, ugly little girl over a beautiful, strong, stable woman? No one. That's who.
Anyway as I saw them I watched. And as usual tears feel from my eyes. And as if on cue Inuyasha looked around and found me staring at them crying. Kami I must of looked like a fool. I bet in his mind he was thinking this: 'Oh my fucking god woman! Why can't you just leave us alone for once?! I don't love you! I never loved you and I never will so just get lost!' Yeah. Probably. Kami it still stings. I feels like a fool! The most foolish fool of all fools. He can never love me!
Anyway when he saw me naturally I ran. Who wouldn't? I was running from the agony I was suffering when I saw them. Kami knew why I didn't just die on the spot. Save me from the endless pain they kept inflicting on me. And as soon as I ran Inuyasha gave chase. He's always running after me even though he wants to be with his dead bitch. And as I ran I bumped into a bear youkai. And as upset I was I was also mad. The bear youkai came at me and I tried to fight back. Neverminding to scream for Inuyasha. He did enough already.
And curse it. I always leave my bow and arrows in the camp. I really need to get out of that habbit. It seems like when I most need it they are always away. Me and my dumb luck. And so the bear youkai attacked me and I fell unconscience. I was always weak. Never any good to my friends.
You're probably wondering: Why is she still thinking thoughts even though she's unconscience? I have no idea actually. Most of the times I'm just blank. Like a dreamless sleep. Don't know why it's different now... maybe it's always like this and I always forget it when I wake up. Probably. Maybe it's like a dream. Experience it and then forget as soon as your eyes open. This really is a strange world with even stranger people in it.
Okay. I've been talking for way to long now. I'm sure you'd like to get on with the present and stop reading in this annoying font. Well I can feel my grip on this world slipping away. Must be soon for me to gain conscienceness. Hm. I don't know how to spell that word. Anyway time to get back.
Back to my endless world of pain...
-x-
The worst thing about
getting lied to,
is knowing that
you weren't worth
the truth.
-x-
..::xXx::..
Inuyasha ran after her as she ran away. One side of him wanted to let her run whilst the other side wanted to chase after her and plead for forgiveness. He wouldn't do either. He was just going to chase after her. Kami knows why. Inuyasha thought he loved Kikyo. But then that feeling was slipping away ever since he met Kagome. Kagome. She was always so warm and fuzzy. She would make anyone laugh and smile. She was like the sun that brightens up peoples days. But Kikyo on the other hand was like the moon. The dark side with no light. To Inuyasha she was cold and unfeeling. You can never get in touch with her an you can hardly open her up.
Even when she was alive she was hard to get. She would never let emotions get in the way. She claimed to have loved him but that was only it. She just claimed. She never showed nor did she feel. Inuyasha constantly thought if she ever meant it at all.
Kagome was the love of his life even though he wouldn't say that to anyone. But he admitted it. And going to Kikyo tonigh was just because of one reason. He was going to tell her who he really loved, and that was her reincarnation. He was going to tell her he will still keep his vow and kill Naraku but that didn't mean that he had to love her. He loved Kagome and he knew that ever since that day when she stood up for him when no one else would. She was always there but he just took her for granted. He cursed himself for that.
As he chased after her he could smell the strong scent of salt but even though he could still smell the burning anger that emitted from her aura. How was he going to explain this one to her?
He then saw her run into a bear youkai. Damn it was ugly.He saw how Kagome tried to fight it but the youkai just hit her and at once Inuyasha knew she was unconscience. His eyes narrowed at the youkai. Full intent of killing the ugly creature and that he did. As soon as Kagome was knocked out he had sliced the damn youkai's head off.
He then ran to her side. He inspected her wounds. They were only minor scratches and a few bumps but that still made Inuyasha's blood boil to no limit. Some damned youkai just hurt HIS woman! Inuyasha regretted killing the youkai so quickly. He should've mafe it suffer for hurting her.
Quickly and carefully lifted Kagome up bridal style and started his way to camp.
'Shit. How am I supposed to explain this to the gang?'
-x-
Boyfriends stab you
in the heart.
Best friends stab you
in the back
But true friends
don't carry knives.
-x-
..::xXx::..
"Inuyasha! What happened to Kagome?!" An angry tajiya cried as she saw Inuyasha carefully lay Kagome down on her sleeping bag. They were at their camp and they were making it back to Kaede's villiage. They just fought off a serpant youkai who was possessing a Shikon shard.
Inuyasha didn't reply. What was he supposed to say? She got hit and fell unconscience? He was supposed to be her protecter! But no, he didn't even protect her from a weak ugly bear youkai!
Sango, Miroku and Shippo crowded Kagome as she slept. Sango noticed the tiny bumps on her. Miroku noticed her scratches. And Shippo noticed the smell of salt. "You made her cry again didn't you?!" He yelled, pointing an accussing finger at Inuyasha. "You ran off with Kikyo!"
Inuyasha immediately recived icy cold glares. He knew he was going to get yelled at and he knew who was going to be the first. Sango fumed. "You've been with her again?! Do you realize how much pain you cause her Inuyasha?!" She yelled angrily at him. "Well if you don't then you're pretty much blind!"
Inuyasha couldn't help but defend himself. "It's not like she cares that much anyway!"
Miroku also seemed angry. "Inuyasha, do you know how many times this poor girl had to suffer whenever you saw Kikyo?" He hissed. "Why can't you just say it to her in the face instead of making her suffer like she is?"
"Say what in her face monk?" Inuyasha glared.
"That you'd rather live the rest of your life with your dead woman in hell!" Miroku snapped. He was repied by a punch from the hanyou. He fell down backwards. His cheek rubbing his sore cheek.
Inuyasha glared at him. "I don't want that." Inuyasha stated lowly.
Miroku stood up. "Then why cause Lady Kagome all this suffering Inuyasha? If I were in her shoes then I would've given up on you ages ago." Miroku said lowly. "She has been strong and has put up with you're desicions but I fear one day you would've gone too far and her spirit would break."
"I would never allow that monk!"
Sango stepped in. "Then why continue to hurt her then? You know very well what you do to her when you run off with Kikyo."
Inuyasha couldn't deny it. Every time he ran off to Kikyo he knew how she would feel. He even forgot why he came running to Kikyo in the first place. But this time was different. He had a good reason to go to her and he wouldn't let them feel like shit about it. "Yeah, you're right. I did know how she felt. But this time was different. I had a damn good reason to see her!"
Miroku and Sango gave him a glare. "And what was that Inuyasha?" Asked Miroku.
Inuyasha just 'feh'd' He didn't feel like explaining him to them anyway. Why would he?
Before any of them could continue the argue Kagome stirred at her place. Everyone's eyes fell onto her. Shippo, who has stayed silent for long enough, called out to her. "Kagome?" He spoke softly. Kagome stirred again. She opened her eyes a little and got greeted by green worried orbs. She smiled as did he. "Kagome!" He yelled as he hugged her.
Kagome hugged him back as she sat up. Her head was hurting slightly but that didn't matter. She hugged the little kit and then let go. She looked up and saw Sango looking at her sadly. As did Miroku and Shippo. She already knew why they were looking at her like that. Kagome could feel tears forming but she didn't let them fall. No. She would not let them fall. Especially in front of her adoptive son. Kagome tried to avoid the gaze of Inuyasha but she found it impossible. A second later she founf herself staring in his deep amber orbs and sh couldn't look away.
Why was that? She didn't know. But she couldn't help but make her eyes sting from the unshed tears. As she looked into his eyes she could see deep saddness but there was no regret. Her stomache churned. Then this means he actually wanted Kikyo over her? The thought made her sick.
Inuyasha could see the deep saddness in her usually light eyes. But now they were dull and glazed over. He also saw great anger. Being sad and angry at the same time doesn't mix very well. Inuyasha gulped. He was going to be in hell, he knew it.
Kagome then tore her eyes away from Inuyasha's and stared at Sango's. She plastered on her infamous fake smile. "Hey Sango. What's going on?" She asked quietly as she saw the anger inside Sango reflect on her eyes.
"What's going on? What going on?!" She yelled. But then Miroku rested a hand on her shoulder. She gave him a -What the heck are you doing?- look before he answered in a -Don't say or do something that will hurt her- look. She instantly understood and smiled sadly at Kagome. "You want to take a trip to the hot springs? It will do you good since your a little dirty." Sango said quietly.
Inside Kagome's mind she thought about the rage that Sango didn't release. Why didn't she do it? 'Hm. Sango and Miroku must be getting closer than I thought...' She thought as she grinned. "Yeah. That sounds like a good idea..." Kagome replied in a some what raspy voice.
She got up and got all the things she needed before both woman disappeared leaving two and a half men alone.
As soon as they left Shippo went to play with Kirara in a safe distance, knowing that Miroku and Inuyasha were going to have a 'man to man' talk.
As soon as Shippo was gone, Miroku stood in front of Inuyasha with a serious look on his face. "Inuyasha. How long will Lady Kagome have to suffer before you tell her?"
"Feh! I don't want to be with Kikyo anymore monk." Inuyasha scowled as he crossed his arms over his chest.
"You say that alot of times Inuyasha." Miroku stated, shaking his head slightly. "And all those times were just lies. After you said that, every time you had an oppurtunity to see Kikyo, you would go to her and Kagome would come back heart broken."
"Feh! It's different this time monk! I've finally told Kikyo that I didn't want to be with her anymore."
Miroku arched an eyebrow. "How is that? What about your promise to her?"
"Just because I promised her something doesn't mean I have to love her." He said. "I just need to kill that bastard Naraku and she would rest in peace."
"But then... Who will you devote yourself to if she is gone and you no longer feel for her in that way?"
Inuyasha gave him a -Are you stupid or just plain clueless- look before he answered. "Kagome you baka!"
Miroku nodded his head. "But are you sure that Kagome would forgive you? You have hurt her countless times and you're just expecting her to welcome you back into her heart again?"
Inuyasha growled. Of course she would forgive him! He loves her and she loves him! ... Doesn't she? Inuyasha never thought about it. He always assumed she did in the way she reacts when he sees Kikyo. But now he really has to wonder. 'Does she really love me?'
-x-
The sky is not
the limit.
They proved that when
poeple set foot on
the moon.
-x-
..::xXx::..
As Kagome walked with Sango to the hot springs she could already feel her legs begin to weaken. Her eyes were filled with unshed tears as they begged to be let out. Kagome didn't though. It would make her look more like a fool. As they reached the hot springs they both stripped and dunk themselves into the warm water. Kagome founf it funny how warm water can just make you relax. Even now, when she submerged her body into the warm welcoming water, she felt relaxed and it seemed nothing else in the world mattered.
But that all was just a fanatsy.
As soon as both Kagome and Sango got settled in the water a lone tear escaped from Kagome's eyes. Sango knew it was coming and gently wrapped her arms around the girl as she sobbed silently.
Kagome couldn't hold it back any longer. She let her unshed tears spill from her eyes. She could feel Sango's arms around her and she could hear her words of comfort. Kagome let the tears drop freely from her eyes and into the warm water. She loved Sango. She was so much like a big sister to her. She didn't know hat she would do if she wasn't there. She continued to sob quietly as she listened to her words of comfort.
"There, there. Everythings going to be alright okay? They always did." Sango whispered silently into Kagome's ear. She hated it when she cried. Everyone hated it when she cried. (Well probably everyone but Naraku). Whenever she cried it felt like the whole entire mood was torn to nothing but saddness. No one could smile nor laugh until she did. She was the life of this little group. If she was sad then they were all sad. "It's okay..."
A couple of minutes went by before Kagome stopped crying. There were more tears but she held them back. She didn't want Sango to put up with her crying anymore than needed. Kagome sat up straight and locked eyes with Sango. "He left me again..." She almost strained to use her voice.
"Yeah. We know."
Kagome could feel her tears pile up again. "Why is that Sango? Why is it that he always choses her over me? Is she better than me?" Kagome asked so softly that Sango only heard some of the words.
Sango then hugged her again as she began to let tears fall from her eyes again. "No she isn't Kagome. You are one of the kindest people I ever met and you are more happy then she is." She said. "I don't know why Inuyasha always goes to a dead woman but maybe it's because he's just a baka that suffered brain-damage."
Kagome giggled a little. She wiped away her tears. "Yeah." She managed to say before they both went completely silent.
Sango decided to change the atmosphere though. She began to talk about her adventures before she met her and she started telling her stories about what Miroku did when they weren't around. Most of the time Kagome giggled but sometimes she and Sango would cry a little as Sango told them about her dad and Kohaku.
"Do you miss them Sango?" Kagome asked quietly.
Sango looked at her with her eyes glazed over. "I miss them alot." She managed to say before another tear slid down her face. She missed them very much. Every night she would think about them. About Kohaku as he whined whenever he missed the youkai entirely and how her father cooked them oden. Kami she missed his oden...
Kagome then smiled sadly. "Come on. We better hurry or the guys may think we turned into prunes and come looking for us." She warned playfully.
Sango got the message and nodded weakly. When she was about to get up she heard a sound in a bush. Followed by a grunt. Sango already knew who it was and her viens kept popping out of her head. "Miroku..."
Miroku then emerged from the bush and laughed nervously. "Well, well. What a coincidence running into you two lad-" But he was interrupted as random objects flew to his direction.
"Hentai!" Both Kagome and Sango yelled as they continued to throw rocks and sticks and anythint that they could throw at him. Miroku quickly retreated and left the two alone. As soon as he was gone they both erupted in laughter. Sango wiped a tear that formed from the corner of her eyes. "Haha! Will that monk ever learn?" She said through giggles.
Kagome's laughs died slowly as she smiled at her best friend. "I guess he won't Sango. I don't think he'll ever learn..."
-x-
Anger is like a balloon.
Keep it in for too
long and it
pops.
Then it leaves you to clean
up all the mess.
-x-
..::xXx::..
As they continued their journey back to Kaede's villiage the tension around them was thick. Kagome and Inuyasha has't exchanged any words that morning. The entire atmosphere was awkward and yet Kagome still had a little smile on her face whenever Sango, Miroku or Shippo talked to her. As they walked the finally reached the villiage. Kagome said her good byes to all her friends.
"See you guys! I'll be back soon okay!" Kagome said, trying her hardest to sound happy.
Shippo hugged her. "Can you get more candy for me Kagome?"
Kagome smiled. "Yeah. Okay Shippo." She said as she hugged him back and let him go. She then turned to go. "'Kay! See ya guys!" She said to all of them as she ran away from them and into the forest where the well resides.
After she ran off Inuyasha turned to the others. "I need to go. You humans can handle yourselves for a short while right?" He watched them all nod slowly. "Good. See you guys later." He then turned to go before a certain monk asked him where is he going. Inuyasha just glanced back. "Some where. Mind your own damn business." He said before he ran in the direction Kagome went.
-x-
People say love
is magic.
But isn't magic
just an illusion?
-x-
..::xXx::..
Kagome ran towards then well. She couldn't wait to get away from Inuyasha. She just wanted to go home where there was no Inuyasha or Kikyo or any damned bear youkai. She wanted to go home to her mother. She liked talking things to her mother. She would always understand. She reached the well. She hasn't brought her bike for quite a while now. She always walked or rid on Inuyasha's back. She never founf the need to use it anymore. Plus it always got damaged by random youkai.
She then flung her now almost empty yellow back pack on her back as she was about to jump. But then a voice stopped her. Kagome looked around and saw Inuyasha standing a few metres away from him. She could feel her eyes sting but she ignored it. "What is it Inuyasha?" She asked quietly. Some how her rage was slowly approaching.
Inuyasha stared at her for a few moments before he finally answered. "Kagome... Do you know the reason I'm here?"
Kagome looked at him like he was stupid. Well... stupider anyway. "If I knew then why would I asked you?!" She yelled at him.
Inuyasha glared at her. "Why are so mad wench?"
Kagome glared back. Why was she so mad? Duh! She just caught him with Kikyo! Why wouldn't she be mad? And here he is struting up to her acting like nothing happened! 'He thinks he can just walk off with Kikyo like that and expect me to forgive him like nothing ever happened?!' She thought as she finally replied his question with a scowl. "I'm mad at YOU Inuyasha! Why did you go to her this time? You know, maybe you should actually say that you don't want to be with me in my face instead of just running off with her!" She yelled.
Inuyasha could feel his own anger creep towards him. "I was not running off with her!"
"Then why did you go?!" She asked fiercly. Tears forming in her eyes. "I don't want you to hurt me again Inuyasha! Why do you always do this to me? Is it because you hate me and want to see me suffer? Well congratulations mister! You suceeded!" She yelled as a tear ran down her face. She could feel her heart aching as it couldn't accept the fact that the one she loves couldn't return her feelings.
Inuyasha was hurt by her words. He didn't want her to suffer. If he ever did want to do that then he would surely kill himself. "I-I don't want you to be hurt Kagome..." He said quietly.
"Then why do you continue to do it?" Asked Kagome with tears making her sight a blur.
"Because... 'I love you' ...I didn't mean to hurt you Kagome. Honest I didn't." He said quietly as he watched her cry slowly. That's when a question inside his head made it's way into his mind. Did he really diserve her? Inuyasha knew of course not. He has hurt her countless times. Sure he has protected her against being hurt physically but he failed to protect her from hurting emotionly. His thoughts saddened at that thought.
Kagome could see his suffering in his eyes. Her own eyes softened. Maybe he had a good reason in seeing Kikyo this time. Maybe he hasn't chosen Kikyo over her. Yet. Kagome then walked slowly up to the hanyou. Reaching out to him with one hand. "Inuya-" She said but she was cut off as she sensed an arrow come at her heart. She quickly tried to dodge it but she did just barely. The arrow hit her shoulder instead.
Kagome droppped to her knees as the arrow drew blood from her shoulders. She winced at the pain. Dark red blood began to pour freely from her left shoulder. Kagome tried to yank the arrow off but every time she tried it would even hurt just to move it.
Inuyasha saw the arrow struck Kagome. He knelt down with her and inspected the wound. A low growl eminated from his throat. He has seen this arrow before. It was one of her arrows. One of Kikyo's. He then made another growling sound as he heard Kagome's pain. He tried to yank the arrow off but there was some sort of enchantment on it. Every time he would just touch it Kagome would scream in pain. Inuyasha then grabbed her uninjured arm and help her stand up.
Another arrow came at them but this time it was aiming for Inuyasha. Kagome, knowing it's path, quickly ran in front of Inuyasha and the arrow struck her instead. The arrow hit her upper chest. She then fell to the ground, on her knees, clutching the arrow on her chest forcfully.
Inuyasha watched in horror as Kagome jumped in front of him and took the arrow herself. The arrow was going to pierce his heart but pierced Kagome's chest instead. He watched in utter shock as she fell on her knees and clutched the arrow. Inuyash knelt with her and yanked the arrow out of her chest. It was bleeding fluently now and the blood covered most of the front of her school T-shirt.
Kagome felt a burning rage inside her. She knew who this was without even having a second thought. Kikyo. But why? Why is she shooting arrows at her? And why the heck was she shottong arrows at Inuyasha? What did they talk about yesterday? But all her thoughts ceased as Inuyasha roughly pulled out the arrow in her shoulder. She screamed in pain.
Inuyasha's inner demon was screaming at him to stop her pain but eh couldn't do anything to stop it. He wasn't a healer. Blood leaked in both holes as Kagome clutched the one on her chest with her uninjured arm. He then growled. "Kagome stay here." He ordered as he stood up and glared at the Miko standing only 10 metres away from them. Her arrow ready to shoot. "Kikyo! What are you doing?!"
Kikyo shot him an icy glare. "You know why Inuyasha." She spoke darkly.
Inuyasha glared at her harder. He couldn't believe that she tried to shoot him again! And not only that, she shot HIS mate! Inuyasha's eyes began to flicker red for a moment as he growled. "Why are you doing this Kikyo?!"
"Because, Inuyasha, you were going to leave me." She said coldly. "After you promised you'd be with me but then you went running towards my reincarnation!" She yelled.
"So what Kikyo?! You're dead! you shouldn't be here! We should both move on!" He yelled at her.
Kikyo's eyes stayed as hard as ever. "Well from the way I see it, she isn't even born yet! She doesn't belong in this time!"
Inuyasha winced. That's right. She wasn't. How were they supposed to stay together even though they were from different times? But still, his anger towards his former lover increased. "So what?! You have no reason to kill me or her!"
"Yes I do Inuyasha. I'm going to drag you to hell with me and the girl," She looked towards the bleeding miko. "She deserves to die." She hissed.
Inuyasha's eyes began to turn red again. "She does NOT deserve to die! If anything you do!" He yelled. His hands were curled to fists as his claws drew blood from his palms.
Kikyo aimed her arrow towards the futuristic miko. "If I die then she comes along with me!" She yelled before she shot her arrow at her.
Kagome's eyes turned wide as she saw another arrow come her way. She closed her eyes and waited for the worst but it didn't come. She looked up tiredly to see that Inuyasha caught the arrow, his eyes were shaded by his bangs. Kagome felt relieved but then the pain from the two holes on her body came back again. She began to feel dizzy. She was losing too mush blood. Her school uniform was almost completely red. She felt tired. She just wanted to sleep but she kept herself awake. She wanted to know what was going to happen.
Inuyasha caught the arrow with his hand. His bangs were covering his eyes. 'Damnit! She tried to kill Kagome!' He then looked up at both saw that his eyes were dead red. 'She tried to kill me and Kagome!' He glared daggers inside Kikyo. She had already readied gerself with another arrow. 'She must pay!' Inuyasha howled as he took a fighting stance.
Kikyo watched him intently. "Turned full demon again Inuyasha?" She said. "The more reason you should die!" Inuyasha was just about to pounce on her before she released her arrow.
Kagome's eyes were wide as she released her arrow full of purifying energy. Kagome knew if this arrow hit the full youkai Inuyasha, he would die. She didn't want that. She summoned up all her strength as she stood up and stood in between the raging arrow and the full demon Inuyasha. Time seemed to have slowed as the arrow hit her straight in the heart. As she fell she saw Inuyasha's eyes flash gold for a second as he stared at her with utter shock and disbelief. She flashed him a sad smile before she closed her eyes and met the cold hard ground.
The sky began to turn dark as black clouds hovered high above them.
Time seemed to have stopped for Inuyasha. Kagome just took the blow. Inuyasha's rage grew so big that his howl could be heard miles away. He then glared at the quivering Kikyo. Full intent of killing the bitch. And before she could ready herself another arrow Inuyasha was already in front of her and he quickly stabbed her straight in the heart. And as soon as he did Kikyo's soul collectors came and took her soul away. Leaving now trance of her death behind.
Inuyasha then turned back to normal and ran to Kagome's side. Inuyasha held her face. "Kagome...?" He asked as he could feel tears in his eyes.
Kagome opened her eyes a little bit seeing Inuyasha's worried golden orbs. She managed a weak smile. "Hey I-Inuyasha..." She said so weakly that Inuyasha didn't even know she said anything at all. The arrow was still stabbing at her heart but she was still breathing, for now.
Inuyasha stared into her dark eyes. There was no more bright sprak he always saw. Just a little speck, slowly fading. He could feel his eyes get blurrier. He managed to give a weak smile. Not for him but for her. "Hey Kagome..." He said with a croaky voice. "Y-You're going to b-be alright, okay?"
Kagome's smile remained. Blood still poured out of her chest. From her heart. She lifted a hand up to his cheek as a lone tear fell down. "Inu... yasha... you know... I... I always... l-loved ... y-you r-r-right?" She managed to say as she found out her own eyes began to blur.
Every passing second it seemed the clouds got darker. The sun was disappearing and was being engulfed by darkness.
Inuyasha's heart began to ache. Her soft hand was caressing his cheek so softly that he was just able to feel it. How long? How long as he wanted to hear those words come from her mouth? How long did it take him to realize that she was always there by his side? How long did it have to take him to say those same words back at her? His throat was clogged. Tears began to swell in his eyes. He stared down at the woman he loved with shedding tears. "K-Kagome... I... 'Love you!' ... I don't want you to leave!" He cried as he grabbed her hand in his. Tears pouring freely.
Kagome's heart ached. Much more painfully than the arrow in her heart. 'So... he doesn't actually love me...' She thought sadly but still managed her smile. 'It's okay... As long as I know he actually cares for me...' She smiled warmly up at Inuyasha as his tears hit her face. "Inuyasha..." Her eyes began to fade. But she wasn't going to die just yet...
The hanyou could feel her hands weaken. His heart was beating rapidly in his chest as he feared the worst. Why can't I say it?!' He asked himself. 'She's about to die!' Inuyasha then heard her say his name. He looked into her eyes and saw the spark slowly fade away. "Y-Yes Kagome?" He was squeezing her hand tight. "I-I'm here."
Kagome smiled. She already knew that. She could feel her grip on the living world slip away, but she maintained her grasp. Just to say final words to the one who was closest to her heart. "I'm always... going to... be there for y-you... okay?" Kagome's vision began to blacken but she wouldn't die just yet. "I won't... ever leave... y-you..." She said quietly as her tear fell.
The clouds began to rumble as her eyes slowly closed.
"I love you, Inuyasha..." She said in her final breath as she let death take her away. And as if on cue, the clouds began to rain.
Inuyasha's heart broke. No. Forget that. It exploded. His tears ran down freely as did the water within the clouds. He felt her hand go limp within his own. It was only then he let it drop and he could finally say the words he was trying so desperately to say.
"Kagome, I love you!"
But it was a little too late. His tears burst from his eyes and landed on her face. He didn't believe it. He wouldn't believe it. He glared down angrily at the woman before him. "Kagome! You can't die!" He yelled as his tears fell. The rain poured harder. Inuyasha held her face with one hand. Her face was not warm anymore. It was as cold as the water pouring onto him. Her face was as pale as death and the arrow in her heart was still there.
Inuyasha yanked it out of her angrily, her blood flowing slowly out, soaking her school uniform with deep red. He then tossed it aside and held Kagome's face with both of his hands. "Kagome! How can you do this?!" He yelled angrily his dead lover. "Why did you freakin' take that arrow for me huh?!" More tears began to fall. "You shouldn't have done that! What about me?! You think you were just saving me but now you put me into suffering!" He yelled, shaking her head. "Why did you fucking do that?!"
Inuyasha knew it wasn't her fault. If it wasn't for him there would never be in this situation. If he hadn't so selfishly asked Kikyo to let him go she wouldn't of came seeking revenge. We couldn't he even protect the one he loved? Was he destined to live his life alone? Why did everything he ever care about have to go away? First it was his mother, then it was Kikyo and now it was... Kagome. 'Why do I have to suffer like this?!'
Painful memories flashed before his mind. His first meeting with Kagome, the way he called her names, the way he treated her and acted towards her. 'No.' He shouldn't of treated her like that. Then he remembered how she always forgave him, the way she was always there when he didn't someone to talk to, the way she always managed to brighten up his day with just a smile. He regreted ever acting towards her in that cruel way. She didn't deserve it. She didn't deserve any of this.
Inuyasha punched the ground next to Kagome's head with his fist. Eyes still leaking. He shouldn't have treated her that way! Then all the memories of their fights flashed before his eyes. She was always so stubborn and child-like. She would never listen to what he said. She always disobeyed him but at the end everything turned out to be fine. "Kagome... Why did you have to leave me?!"
He then picked up her body. He put her on his lap and held her head to his shoulder, hugging her fiercly. The tears stinging his eyes. "I love you... I love you... Please... Don't go away..." He whipered into her ear. He figured he must be cursed. Everyone he ever loved had to die. It was like his love cursed them to die a fearful death. He couldn't understand why the great Kami's could never let him be happy. "Please Kagome..." He pleaded in her ear as he rocked her gently, not caring about the blood that oozed out of her heart. "Please come back to me..."
As he rocked the rain poured harder. He figured, if she wouldn't come to him then he would come to her. He cried so much that his eyes were red. "Kagome... I love you..."
Then suddenly a little sphere of light came slowly their way. Inuyasha hugged her possessivly as he growled at the light. If that was the grim reaper then he would just have to kill it before it takes away Kagome. Then the light came very close to them. Inuyasha sensed this energy before. He hugged Kagome tight as the ball came at them and took shape. It was a woman. It was Kikyo.
Inuyasha gasped. The ball of light took shape into Kikyo. Kikyo was kneeling in front of them with a regretful look on her face. She was glowing. She didn't have a physical body. 'She's... a spirit.' Inuyasha glared at her as she knelt. "What do you want?" He hissed through his tears. The rain began to weaken.
Kikyo stared at him with sorrowful eyes. "Inuyasha..." It said in a sweet voice. It wasn't like her voice when she was revived from the dead and made into a clay woman. No. Inuyasha remembered that voice from the time she was alive.
His eyes widened in astonishment as he stared at her. His grip on Kagome tightened. "Kikyo?"
Kikyo nodded with a sad smile. "Inuyasha... I am truly sorry for what I did to you and to Kagome..." She said softly. Her spiritual form was glowing brightly. "And I am really sorry for making you suffer all this time..."
Inuyasha couldn't believe what she was saying. Did she just expect him to forgive her just like that? She had killed Kagome! Inuyasha growled at her. No. He was not going to forgive her this time. She had taken away his true love. The only person that ever truly mattered to him. The only person that actually loved and accepted him. "So what?" He hissed. "You saying sorry won't bring her back." He glanced at Kagome and he could feel his eyes reload with new tears. He then looked up and glared at her. "Nothing will."
Kikyo gave him a sad smile. "I'm really truly sorry Inuyasha..." She then saw his eyes soften. She brought out a hand to reach out to Kagome but Inuyasha backed away slightly. "I hope you're going to be happy Inuyasha..." She said.
Inuyasha gave her a are-you-serious look. "She's dead Kikyo!" He yelled, his eyes stinging. "How can I be happy with her gone?!"
Kikyo gave him another sad smile. "She won't be... not for long." When she saw Inuyasha's sharo intake of breath and a glint of hope in his eyes she smiled at him, kind of happy. "Fair well Inuyasha. And I'm sorry." She said as her spirit began to break into little pieces. Before she was fully into pieces she mouthed the words: 'I love you, Inuyasha.'
Inuyasha gasped as the little bits of it dove right to Kagome. It then entered the hole which the arrow made and her wound started to glow brightly as it engulfed the entire field in light. Inuyasha held tight. He wouldn't let go of her. Not ever again. The glow slowly faded. And the rain were just pitter patters. Inuyasha still didn't let go. And she still didn't move. Kikyo gave him false hope. He would never have Kagome back. He would never see her soft smiles and happy laughs again. He hugged her so tight it was a wonder how her bones didn't break. Another tear managed to slip it's way from Inuyasha's eyes. 'Kagome...'
"I-Inu.. yasha... I can't... breathe...!"
Inuyasha's eyes snapped open as he pushed himself back in order to see her face. She was breathing. Her cheeks that were just a few moment ago white were now a flushed pink. The warmth her body gave out made Inuyasha shiver. But most of all it was her eyes. There was that spark, all alive and dancing. Her eyes were ablaze as he stared at her, to shocked to move.
A few minutes passed before Kagome broke the silence. "Inuyasha?"
Inuyash then pulled her in for a fierce embrace. He breathed in her scent like his life depended on it. It was alive! Great Kami it was alive! Inuyasha hugged her tighter, in fear of losing her again. Kagome hugged back. It was just as firece as his. Tears began to run down her cheek. "Inuyasha..."
Inuyasha pulled back and Kagome gasped. His eyes were all red and puffy. Tear stains were on his cheeks. And what really confused her was that he was glaring at her. "You stupid girl!" He yelled out. "Why the fuck did you do that, you baka!"
Kagome could feel her temper rising. "You're the baka! What do you think I did that?! I was so save your stupid li-" But before she finished she was pulled in another heated embace. Kagome gasped as her tears kept coming. "Inuyasha...?"
"Never again." Inuyasha said in her ear. Kagome looked confused but his grip on her tightened. "Never again will you leave me like that again Kagome..." His voice was soft yet strong at the same time. "I-I thought I lost you forever..."
Kagome hugged back. Her face was buried on his shoulder. "Baka. I said I'd never leave you..." She said quietly. 'I love you..' Inuyasha just hugged her tighter.
"How can you say that?! You left me Kagome!" He said as another tear ran down his face. "I thought you were going to leave me forever..."
Kagome cried softly. "I'm sorry Inuyasha..."
"I'm sorry too." Inuyasha then pulled back and locked eyes with her. "If it wasn't for me you wouldn't of died in the fir-"
Kagome shook her head and softly pressed a finger to his lips. "No Inuyasha. It was not your fault." She said softly.
Inuyasha protested. "But it was my fault Kagome!" He stared into her eyes intently. "If I hadn't told Kikyo I wanted to be with you none of this ever happened..." He said silently.
Kagome couldn't believe what she just heard. "So... that night when you saw Kikyo... you were just saying to her...?" After she recieved a little nod from him she beamed. He had chosen her! Not Kikyo! She was beyond happy. She hugged him. Tight. She couldn't believe what he just said. 'He chose me!' She thought happily but then it all vanished. 'But... does he love me?'
Inuyasha instantly felt her stiffen. Inuyasha pulled back and stared into her eyes. They were sad. Inuyasha didn't know why. "So. What happened to Kikyo?" Asked Kagome, her voice barely a whisper.
Inuyasha pointed to her heart. "Kikyo.. died. And now... she's in your soul... you're complete now Kagome..."
Kagome could feel it. The new gained power rushing through her vains. Kikyo was now inside her. She was her. Kagome saddened. Was this why he wanted her? Because Kikyo was inside her now? "Is this... Is this why you picked me? Because... Because she's... inside me?" She asked quietly.
Inuyasha's rage grew. Why couldn't she see? Didn't he make things clear enough for her? Inuyasha inwardly growled. "Wench." He hugged her. "I did not chose you because of that..." There was a moment of silence before Inuyasha continued. "I chose you because you made me happy. It was you because you were the only one who could make me smile. You were the one that made me love again."
Kagome's heart throbbed. Did he mean it? Did he really mean what he just said? Another tear escaped her eyes. She needed to know. Did he love her? "Inuyasha, I love you." She said as she buried her face into his shoulder.
This was the time. This was the time he has been waiting for. She said she loved him. And that to him was utter bliss. Who would ever guess that a miko would fall in love with a hanyou? No one. They all said that hanyous were destined to walk amoung the earth alone, without any one loving them. And they couldn't love in return. They were just regects cast out by the world. They said that no one would love a hanyou, only an ugly, stupid witch can. But he proved them wrong. He just did as she said those words. Kagome wasn't ugly, she was beautiful. She wasn't stupid, she was one of the smartest poeple Inuyasha has ever met. And she wasn't a witch. She was an angel. And angel sent by the Gods. She was a saint. A pure and innocent angel disguised as a beautiful human.
This was it. He would say he loved her. He said it before but she was already gone. To far away to hear him. He was too late but he had a second chance. A chance he would not mess up. He pulled apart from her and stared deep into her chocolate eyes. He held her chin with his hand as he stared lovingly at the woman before him. "I love you, Kagome."
Kagome's eyes spilled. How long has she waited for those words? Those sweet words coming out of his mouth? And it wasn't to anybody else. It wasn't to Kikyo. It was just for her. Her ears and heart to know. He loved her. She loved him. Now nothing could stop them. They leaned closer until their lips locked.
Both their hearts stopped. Their shy little kiss turned into a passionate one. Kagome tossed her arms over his neck and tangled her fingers in his silver hair. He grabbed Kagome's waist with one hand possessivly and the other on the small of her back.
They stayed like this until they both needed to come up for air. They were both pink and the puffed short breaths. They stared into each others eyes until they both seemed to have melted in them. They both smiled.
"I love you Inuyasha."
"I love you Kagome."
-x-
I don't care who sees.
As long as you're here
I'm ready to face everything
Believe in everything
And give you everything
but when you leave
I feel like everything
is taken away from me.
Everything...
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..::xXx::..
End
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