I woke up , and my head hurt. My head hurt and I was hungry, I had crashed on Carly's couch like always. As I sat up I couldn't help that a bitter flavor entered my mouth, like the taste you get when you bite too far into a lemon. The taste was evidence that I was still angry , still bitter about my day in court the week before. Big fat judge lady told me, I was on my last strike and you know how it goes three strikes your out! Then it's off to prison with me! Big fat judge lady said I was too violent, too risky and a serious danger to myself and those around me.
Same old same old, that's not what I'm angry about, normally if I do something wrong I own up to it, I'm a big girl I can handle myself. What did piss me off was the fact that the Big fat judge lady completely blow over the fact that I only attack that guy because he was about to rape and girl!, right in the middle of an alley can you believe it? But the girl ran off frightened and the perv swears up and down he was just having a smoke, and I raged attacked him. With no witness it was his word against mine , so it was only logical I got the short end of the stick with plenty of outrageous actions in my past, it was a quick decision that I was telling a lie to cover my ass.
I cursed as I stretched my back and stood up , I was incredible stiff and needed some food. I with heavy foot steps, walked over to Carly's kitchen. Firstly I needed something to drink to wash the bitter taste out of my mouth, as I poured out some coke into a cup. I shook my head, taking a sip sighing as I closed my eyes. You know I can handle trouble, I can handle being punished .What I can't handle is my friends hurting me when I needed them the most. Freddie I sorta expected not to believe me I mean he's always been a Nutz, Gibbie is well...Gibbie , I admit Spencer hurt a little on the inside but Carly? She's my best friend she's supposed to always be there for me, and she wasn't. I shrugged the pain off as a joke, but it still hurts, I don't think Carly will ever understand just how much it burned.
When I first meet Carly I was so angry all the time I never wanted to surround my self with others, I truly believed that in the end they just wanted to hurt you, all of them. Carly was really starting to change that, but now? I can feel myself slowly starting to close up again, I hardly hang with Carly anymore it just hurts too much, of course she doesn't really notice. I haven't even told her about how I felt, and frankly I don't think I ever will she can figure out all that shit on her own. I only come to her house when, I really need a place to crash besides that we see each other at school. No more iCarly, recently I told her that I'm too old for that shit. ICarly at one point was a fun thing for me, and was actually good part of my life I will never get rid of all those memories . But as you get older you start to realize that not everything is as , pretty and fantastic as it seems. I quickly wash my cup and start to grab my jacket, when a hand covers mine. I look up and see Carly's sleepy eyes there's a smile on her face, it seems sincere . Lucky,
I would give anything to have my smiles be really again. We stare at each other for a moment, before I snatch my hand away, jacket in all and start to throw it over my shoulder. Carly's smile fades as she frowns.
"you've been all right Sam? " I nodded slowly, shrugging
"As good as I'll ever be" she shakes her head, wrapping her arms around her shoulders
"it's just that after you quit iCarly, I hardly see you around...so whats up"
I glare at her for a minute, wishing I could shake her wishing she would just get it. But instead I give a fake smile.
"Nothings been up I've just been busy, in fact I really have to go now...so see you at school" I don't give her time to say anything I just go. Quickly walking out her apartment door.
After all that has been down these past couple of days, I still can't get that girl out of my head. That girl that was being attacked in the alley way. I didn't get much out of her face except big eyes, but she had a head full of red hair. I can't stop thinking about where she is now. What happened to her? Is she okay? I'm trying not waste my time with questions that will never be answered but it's hard. And it's making me uncomfortable .