till i let myself choose something no one has ever to given a chance.
tell me, is there something wrong if i began to create my own way of life?
those people aren't have a right to persecute me in something they didn't understand?
they never listen... all they care are themselves.
they keep seeing other people's dirt... not seeing their own.
but what can i do? if they dont care to me, so i am.
but they can feel it. all they want is attention.
but when they see you different from you...
they push you away...
they started to play you around...
they started to mock you...
thinking you're out of your mind...
but i didn't care...
why?
are they my future?
no!!
i stand on my own...
they never help me to stand up... before...
they never stand a chance to let me down...
i didn't trust them anymore...
all they see is the different you...
they never see the real you...
all she see is herself... but she can't stand on her own...
all she breath is him... but he wasn't the one he loved...
i know it but nobody believes in me...
who cares?!
whose fault is it anyway?!
i just watch, but never interfere...
i just observe, but never really tell them...
this is the life i choose...
God tell me to be this way...
now, if i tell them what i feel, did they care?
no!
they just laugh and mock you...
at least i know i stand on my own space,
my own feet, my own territory.
not standing at anyone's heart...
because they did...
if i'm different from them, because i just watch...
look at the events... i see in my mind...
they don't care... their words are no match...
because He told me to continue what i knew is my destiny....
so, who cares?!
if im weird, they are paranoias...
if im crazy, well, they better take off their masks...
because they don't want to stare at the reality...
at least, that's the difference...
i have eyes both in my soul and my heart...
where are theirs?!
they closed it... afraid to get hurt...
at least im really vulnerable, and i admit it...
them?! they are coward...
i fear being rejected... but if that's the atmosphere...
what can i do?
if i can stand on my own...
then i can face the future without those class in my mind....
This is what our watcher feels. We know she's being persecuted by Jonabelle's group, but she still stands firm. She's tough, and very sensitive... vulnerable... She's aware to the enviroment she is in. We are sorry. We just wish she never watch us... we wish she wasn't our watcher. But she never blame us... We are grateful of her...
-Verity-