BPOV
"Bella?" Edward? That sweet voice still gave my tingles in stomach
"Bells? You Okay?" I couldn't help but smile a little.
"Edward?" What I was trying to say made perfect sense, but all that was coming out of my mouth was just nonsense mumbling
The next thing I knew hot hands were on my cheek and I'm startled awake, all confusion gone and reality crashing down on me. "Oh Jake, Another bad dream?" I mean I always feel bad for Jake it's like he's babysitting me all the time instead what a normal teenager and his girlfriend would do.
"Yeah Bells, are you okay? Are you sure you don't want me to give you a lift home? It's only 10." I was clearly bumming the mood, falling asleep in the middle of the movie then awakening him from my nightmares. I'm definitely going to make it up to him one way or another.
"I'm a rotten girlfriend" I tried to hide the upset in my face but as always, Jake knows me better than anyone, well almost anyone... I sighed a long sigh, It's been almost 3 years since Edward left me and to tell the truth I have never gotten over him. I dream about him every night. I would kill to see his beautiful face again.
"Of course you're not." Jacob's sudden words gave me a fright and I almost fell right of the couch that I fell asleep on. Jacob tried to hide his sadness with a chuckle, but both he and I knew I will never stop dreaming, caring, or loving Edward. On the other hand there's Jacob, as much as I love him it will never be the same as what it was like between me and Edward . There's no denying that.
"What're you going to do when we move in together? There will be no getting rid of me then." A slow smug smile spread across my face.
"I never want to get rid of you." The seriousness in his eyes made my stomach clench with anticipation. I knew how much Jake loved me, but it hurt me to know that he loved me more than I did him. I looked down feeling ashamed of myself. "Hey Bells, are you sure you're okay?" Slowly Jake put his finger under my chin to level my eyes with his. He smiled a wide smile that glowed against his russet skin. Slowly and keeping eye-contact Jake pulled me in for a kiss, this wasn't the average goodnight peck this was a slow starting passion building kiss that often led to other things. I just couldn't not now, not so soon after seeing Edward's face. I jerked my head away a little coldly.
"I can't, I, um, I'm tired." I swear my lies could be getting worse and worse by the minute.
"Right, Well in that case I'm going to bed, If you want me you know where I'll be." Jake didn't even look at me as he walked out of the room. I knew he wasn't just upset about me not wanting to have sex. It was because he knew the real reason behind it. I couldn't stand to go back to sleep and face the man who betrayed me, so I picked up the remote and put on some random channel, not that I was watching anyway. I couldn't help the next tears that leaked out of my eyes, which brought on a whole session of crying. I didn't want Jake to know I'd been crying over Edward again, it would just tear him apart. I may not love him as much as Edward but I sure as hell love him enough to keep from hurting him again, and again, and again. I finally decided it would be a good idea to go to sleep, no way was I sleeping by myself. Even though I wanted to give Jake time to cool off I had to go join him in his undersized bed. Slowly, trying not to make a sound and wake up Billy I tip-toed to Jacob's room, very carefully opening the door.
"You awake?" I whispered so quietly I didn't even think he heard me
"Yeah, but I'm not really in the mood to talk to you, I hope you understand." I understood better than he thought, When... he left i didn't want to talk to anyone for months, and at times I still don't. I couldn't let Jake stay mad at me so one way or another I was going to make it up to him. I quietly took off my pyjama shirt and pants only leaving a skimpy bra and underwear.
"Do you want to talk to me now?" Jake sighed heavily and rolled over, the expression on his face told me he was interested in a whole lot more than talking. He leaned towards me and grabbed my wrist pulling me closer, I let him pull me on top of him. I decided I'd start the kiss this time, so i started on his neck making my way up to his mouth, I put my fingers through his shaggy hair and he secured one hand on my face and one on my hip.
"Lets save the talking for later" I couldn't help the little giggle that escaped my mouth from that comment.
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"EDWARD NO!" I could see his footprints I must be close "EDWARD COME BACK" I didn't even bother holding back the tears, Edward was gone.
"Bells, please get up. It's just a dream you're perfectly fine." As much as the words made sense, and even though I could understand them I just couldn't wake up into the arms of someone who has been here for me all along. I woke to myself punching Jacob in the face.
"OH MY GOD! I'm so sorry Jake, I didn't mean to hurt you!" I started biting my lower lip in the wait to see if Jacob was okay. The following roar of laughter made my face turn a scarlet red.
"Bells, you actually think you hurt me. I'm perfectly fine, I'd be more worried about that hand of yours." I looked down at my red knuckles.
"That'll swell" as embarrassed as I was I couldn't help but laughing along with Jake until the knock on the door shut us both up.
"Mornin' Dad!" Jake said as cheery as ever. I smiled at how much love he showed for his father. But that smile was soon wiped off my face when I realised I wasn't wearing my bra, and it was nowhere in sight.
"Can I come in?" The husky voice of Billy Black always seemed to surprise me. I soon cut off Jake's next words
"My bra, I can't find it." I whispered only for his ears.
"What do you mean you can't find it?" What a stupid statement.
"It obviously means I can't see it anywhere, I don't want your dad walking in here right now Jake. Save me the embarrassment." Too nervous to even blush right now, I think I would be turning green more than red. Me and Jake quickly searched the whole room with no such luck, so I just chucked a shirt over my bare cold chest, and the old ratty shorts I was wearing last night. Jake smiled at me and gave my a quick wink before he opened the door.
"Morning Dad, How are you?" Jacob's smile was genuine but I could see his face getting red.
"Morning Billy." I couldn't help but stare down at my feet.
"Bella, Jacob." Billy looked between us with a smug look on his face. "Hope you two had er.. fun last night."
"Yeah we watched a few movies." You'd think Billy would get over the fact that me and Jake were sleeping together. We'd been going out now for 2 years and he didn't seem to mind me staying over. I think he just likes to embarrass me, and I'm pretty sure I'm the dead give-away most of the time.
"I'm going fishing, then Charlie is taking me to the game. Wheelchair seats are fantastic." I laughed, Billy, Charlie and football was almost the funniest thing you'd ever see. Them screaming when someone gets a point is hilarious. I wish I could actually see them at the game. Billy wheeled his chair without another word. Jacob started laughing, grabbing me by the waist, kissing me slowly. I smiled under his hot touch, I melted my body into his, while Jake slid his hand up my shirt and cupped my bare breast. I pushed against his chest and Jake let out a long sigh. "What now?" His voice was bitter, more bitter than I had heard from him in awhile. I laughed and Jake gave me a look like I was going crazy.
"What if your dad comes back?"
"Don't care." Jake looked down at me and lightly touched my face. "You know I love you." He said this with such doubt that it made me sad.
"I love you too, You're my everything." But my voice slipped on the last word. I wasn't entirely telling the truth and Jake knew that too. He gave me a sweet smile and bent down lightly to kiss my lips.
"I'm going to go see the guys in regards to er.. Victoria."
"Oh okay, um. I might go on the internet and look for a unit for us." He couldn't help but smile at this. We'd been waiting to move since we became serious. But we were going to stay in La Push. Billy was lonely enough we didn't want to move more than 10 minutes away.
"Cya." Jake pressed his lips to the top of my head and before I knew it he was gone. I sighed in content and decided I'd go turn the computer. This one was a lot faster than my one at Charlie's but it still took awhile to load up. I was sitting in the chair waiting for this stupid computer to load up, when I realised I was all sticky and gross. I decided I'd go have a shower, The hot water totally relaxed all my muscles and felt nice against my freezing skin. I decided I couldn't stay in the shower for the rest of my life, so I slowly got out of the nice hot shower and walked back to Jake's room in a towel to change my clothes. I grabbed jeans and a t-shirt but my bra was nowhere to be seen.
"What the fuck?" I couldn't help but cuss. I never lose anything where the hell could this stupid thing be? I searched everywhere, under the bed, in the sheets. I finally looked in the drawers, how the hell did it get there? I laughed a little relieved I would have to go bra-less today
"BOO!"
"HOLY JESUS QUILL!" after I took a breath I tried a second time. "What are you doing here?"
"looking for Jacob." he looked so innocent like he didn't realise I was in a towel. Oh my god. I was in a towel. I could feel my face getting really hot.
"ha ha ha you're looking good bells." What the?
"WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE?" Jacob had walked into the room.
"Jake chill, we're just having fun." Quill laughed
"Does it look like Bella is having fun? She looks fucking embarrassed to me, get the fuck out of my house." Jacob started shaking, fists clenched. Quill backed away and suddenly phased and ran off into out of the house, Jacob followed after him. I knew a werewolf could cause harm, but they fight all the time. Jake had never been so mad... There was no point in worrying so I took this as the time to get changed. After 10 minutes of waiting for Jake in his room I decided to go to the unattended computer and bring up a real estate site. It seemed like I was running through endless houses. I came across this small house with flowers everywhere, it had a nice brick entrance but the rest of the house was wooden, it had a fireplace and two spacious bedrooms. It looked fabulous for only a small price fortnightly. It looked like this could be the one.