45. Illusion

Character(s): Prussia

Info: Prussia's thoughts after he is dissolved as a nation.

Dissolution.

At first, I didn't really understand what this meant. I mean… they couldn't be talking about ME. I'm too awesome and cool for something like that! They can't just break me apart like that. Yet, deep within, I knew it. Or, at least I think I did. Looking back, I don't think it sank in just yet. Not until I was forced to go live with Russia, that damn bastard.

West tried talking them out of it but those bastard Allies wouldn't have it.

Germany had to be separated.

Therefore, I was dissolved, my rights as a nation taken away with just a few words and a couple of signatures.

Before now, I had been living with West and helping him with the war. It was fun really, living with my little brother and torturing Italy practically every day. I mean, every job had it's quirks, right?

Thanks to West's boss, I had already lost most of my rights but, you know, that really didn't both me that much. I was still living with Ludwig, as I always had been, and I still had my say in a few things.

This, however, this was totally different.

Being dissolved meant I wasn't a nation anymore. I was nothing.

It really hit me hard after I went to live with Russia. That son of a bitch… he took my land, controlled my people and even set up a fucking wall to separate me and Ludwig! He kept me isolated from everyone, locked down in his basement or something. I don't know for sure but I do know that it was dark. He kept me down there for so long that I… I began to question it.

My status.

If I wasn't a nation or country anymore, what exactly did that mean? I was still alive, living and breathing but I wasn't anything. I'm not human so I can't go out and pretend I am one. Why should I stoop to their level anyway? I'm too…. too….

What was I?

I can't remember anymore. Being locked down here for so long… I… I can't remember! What's going on? I know I was something, at one time I was something great and powerful. No one could touch me! But now… look at me. I'm just fading away, slowly dying in Ivan's house.

"It's a shame your already fading away, da. I would have liked to keep Prussia with me for a little while longer."

That's what Ivan would say to me. I was fading? How? Why?! I was too great to fade away!

That's a lie. If I was really that great, than I wouldn't be in this situation right now, now would I? No. I'd be back where I was supposed to… wherever that was. I would be back with those people, the ones who are in my dreams sometimes. I can't see their faces and their voices are muffled but they are familiar to me. I knew them at one time.

"Are you sure? They could just be tricks… Your feeble little mind could be playing with you, da."

What is Ivan was right? What if these dreams were nothing but dreams? Fabrications of my decaying mind? Just illusions that were supposed to dull the pain and send me back to a life where I was great, where I was something.

I want these dreams to come back and take me away. Take me away so I can be Prussia again… take me…

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NOTES

1) West - this is the nickname that Prussia calls Germany (Ludwig)

2) After WWII, Prussia was dissolved it's provinces were given to the Soviet Union (aka Russia)

3) "Thanks to West's boss, I had already lost most of my rights but, you know, that really didn't both me that much. I was still living with Ludwig…" --- In 1934, Prussia was abolished de fecto (meaning "by [the] fact" or "in practice but not ordained by law) as a state by the Nazis. In 1947, it was abolished by de jure ("concerning law") by the Allies.