These will be a selection of stories I have published on other fan sites. Some are my first efforts some later. They all have one thing is common, each one is cherished baby only needing a little re-dressing.

So I propose we all look into the deep dark hidden recesses of our computers and dust them off and set them out for a new look.

Disclaimer – I didn't own them the first time and I don't now.

Chapter 1. When She Cries

It woke him again. They had gone to sleep after an extremely satisfying session of lovemaking. Their love was still new and blossoming. Each night brought a new delight. They were gathering dreams and promises for the future. With each caress, each kiss their bond became more unbreakable. Each delighted in the discovery of new found places to explore. He had his dream, her. She had her dream; he had shown her what love was. It woke him again.

He felt her clutching to him, so tightly he could barely breathe. Just for a moment he thought how could someone who looked so frail, be so incredible strong. It caught at his throat, clutched at his heart. When she cries, at night and she doesn't think that I can hear her. She tries, to hide all the fear she feels inside. So I pray, this time I can be the man that she deserves, because I die a little each time when she cries. "Bones, baby, wake up, Baby talk to me what's wrong?"

Pulling away from him she murmured "no Booth, leave me alone. I don't want to talk."

Putting his arms around her he pulled her back into him. "No, Bones, not this time. This is the second time this week you have cried in your sleep. Please let me know what wrong. I want to help you" he couldn't help but hear the begging in his voice.

She tried to pull away a little harder. "No Booth, leave me alone I'm tired I want to go back to sleep."

Thinking about all they've been through the last four years suddenly he felt the over whelming need to know what's wrong. The need was so strong it was almost physical. Sitting up and leaning back against the head of the bed he pulled her to sit on his lap holding her tightly to his chest. "No Bones, it's so no gonna happen. Whatever it is we are going to talk about right now!!"

"I can't Booth it's just too painful. Every time I even think about it I die a little. I just can't" the terror in her voice was becoming palpable.

He pulled back her hair and gently placed a kiss on her temple. "Bones you are the strongest woman I know. You survived being buried in a car, you have survived being shot, hell you've even survived me. What else could be so bad?"

"It is you Booth, it is you" she cried in desperation.

"What are you sorry we moved into this relationship? I thought we were over this? I thought we had talked this through and wanted the same things? Please Baby tell me what's causing you such pain? Whatever it is I can change, I'll make it right. We can make this work, just give us a chance. Don't give up so soon." Now his desperation was beginning to show.

"No, it's not that, not us" she sighed "it's the two weeks."

She didn't have to say more he knew which two weeks she meant. He began slowly rocking her side to side. He had thought they were over this, but evidently not. "Baby I think its time we talked about it. I'm here, I'm not going anywhere. I love you. I'm ok now, but I really need to understand, you told Sweets you could compartmentalize and that's why it was ok for him not to tell you. Now you're crying at night and telling me it's about the same time. Tell me please."

She sighed and curled into him further and begun. "When the ambulance came I insisted I ride with you. The paramedics were not happy but I told them I was a Doctor and they let me. At the hospital, they refused to let me in the trauma room. I was frantic. No one would tell me what was going on, I wasn't a family member. I tried to get a hold of Jared but no one seemed to know or care were he was, and your Dad was too drunk to come down. Cullen came in and he told them it was a matter of National Security, they give him the information. He talked to the Doctors who told him they were taking you up to surgery."

He handed her the bottle of water he always had at the side of his bed, she took a swallow before continuing. "The whole scene kept playing in my head or and over again. The whole team was there. I was singing and dancing, you were smiling and you have the most beautiful smile" she said wistfully. Anyway, then I heard the gunshot, saw you fall, saw Pam Nunan raise her gun again, grabbed yours and shot her. Seeley, I would shoot her again if I needed to in order to protect you. I would do anything to protect you."

He hug her to him. "Yeah Baby, I know you're a tigress, protecting her cub." He kissed her again.

She continued looked at him and sniffed. "After a few hours Cullen came out and told me you were dead. I thought my worst nightmare had happened, but I was wrong. It was just beginning. Later Angela told me I started screaming trying to get to you trying to see you one last time. Cullen had two Agents hold me down, while the Doctor gave me a tranquilizer. Then Angela took me home. I was covered in your blood. It was all over my hands, my clothes. She tried to get me to wash it off, change my clothes, I just fought her. Finally I told her I would be fine, if she should just go home, she went. I tried to sleep but I couldn't. I missed you so much I couldn't breath. I wanted my heart to stop just so I could be with you. Anything to be with you. Finally I remembered where I could be with you. I went over to your apartment, and fell asleep on your bed. Later that afternoon I called Angela and told her I would be gone for a few days. Not to worry, I'd call when I got back. I went back into your bedroom and took out one of your suits and put it on. I lay back down in your bed and slept for the first time in almost 24 hours."

Booth was devastated. He had no idea she had been this distraught. Why had he not called her once he knew the plan? Yes he had been out of it for while after his surgery but after that? She was his partner. Why had he trusted the FBI to tell her? He made a promise to himself right then and there but himself he would never trust anyone except himself when it came to her.

"I stayed at your apartment for five days. I slept in your shits and suits. When your smell was gone from one I would change it for another. The first time I had to shower I sat there and cried for an hour after watching your blood go down the drain. It was like loosing you again. When I had cried all the tears I had left and rebuilt my walls I went back to work. I refused to do any new cases and Cullen only asked once. I went to limbo and worked until I could fall asleep in my office. I always had a shirt, socks or one time," here she smiled at the memory as it was still funny "I even took a pair of your boxers with me to work.

While having you gone was hard Parker was harder. I didn't know Rebecca had been told so she could tell Parker and he was with you. I called Rebecca several times and asked to see Parker and she flatly refused each time. At first it was he wasn't home, finally one day she told me to just stop calling, you were dead, and I had no claim to Parker she was never going to let me see him again. It was like you were ripped out yet again. I now know the truth but then it was just another ice wall to rebuild. No one was ever getting through to me again."

She was becoming calmer now as he gently rubbed her back, urging her to finish. "You know the rest. The day of your funeral and all that came after" her voice dies away in a sigh.

"Why have you never told me, why haven't you called Sweets on it. Bones he had no right to not tell you especially if he is as clinically trained as he claims. Couldn't he see you were in pain and needed to know the truth? What was wrong with him that he couldn't see you could be trusted?"

"I don't know Booth. Anyway, I thought the nightmares were gone but they have started again and I keep finding myself waking up crying. Booth I love you, I want us to work, but I'm not sure if that's possible anymore. I feel like the egg broken in so many pieces I can never be put back together again."

"Bones you are not broken, you aren't even badly bent. Here's what I see when I look at you. You've always been there for me whenever I've fallen. When nobody else believed, you'd be there by my side. I don't know how you take it, just once I'd like to make it fine. Then there'll be tears of joy that fill your loving eyes. So I pray this time I can be the man that you deserve because I die a little each time when you cry."

There it was. There was their truth. Love. Their love. He had listened, he had heard. She had trusted, she had learned. They reached for each other in the dark re-affirming their love again. Proving once again, the laws of physics could be broken, their united world could be rocked, they had made another miracle.

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One of the inspirations for this one shot was "When She Cries" - Restless Heart

Please let me know what you think of this idea. I have loved looking at this again, I hope you have enjoyed reading it.

Nyre