"If only I'd had the courage to do or say things then everything would be different. There are so many things I'd like to change. So many things I wish I'd done differently. But it's too late. Even if I could get my hands on a Time Turner there aren't enough hours left for me to go back and change all the things I wish I hadn't done.
"If I'd had the courage I wouldn't have spied on you as a child. I'd have come right out and spoken to you in the playground, even with your snotty nosed sister there. You might have thought I was odd or strange, but at least I wouldn't be the creep who spied on you.
"If I'd had the courage I wouldn't have caused that branch to fall on Petunia. I was scared of what you'd do if you ever knew it was me, but you were so clever you already had it all figured out.
"If I'd had the courage I'd have talked you out of snooping through Petunia's things. I know you're wonderful and stubborn and headstrong and I didn't even try to resist you, but look at what trouble that caused. It was us finding that letter from Dumbledore that caused your relationship to fracture and splinter; caused you to lose a sister. And for that I'm sorry.
"If I'd had the courage I'd have told you all those letters and presents on Valentine's day were from me, not Potter. I hated watching you berate him, but then secretly smile at the gifts – my gifts – as if you'd never been happier. Because all I really did was pave the way for him to sweep you off your feet.
"If I'd had the courage I'd have been proud to be your friend no matter what the Slytherins might have said. I'd have defended you in front of them instead of joining in with their jeering and bullying because I was so afraid of not fitting in.
"If I'd had the courage I would have apologised, sincerely, for all the things I did and all the hurt I caused you. I would have been a better friend.
"If I'd had the courage I would have begged the Dark Lord not only to spare you, but your entire family. I would have protected you. I would have died for you.
"If I'd had the courage to do the right thing it would most probably be me lying in that grave right now instead of you. I'm sorry Lily, so sorry for all the pain I caused you. I wish I'd had the courage to do what was right all those years ago. But I'm going to do the right thing now I promise you. I will protect yours and Potter's son if it is the last thing I do. And tonight I may just die for all of you.
I finally have the courage to do the right thing."
Severus broke off his muttering as he heard footsteps approaching along the corridor before seeing the figure of Professor McGonagall. Tonight Hogwarts was going to become a battlefield and although he would never be remembered as anything but a coward, Severus Snape finally had the courage to do the right thing.
A/N: What did you think? Constructive criticism is always welcome, but no flames please.