AN: This is a one shot. Femslash, Romance between two women, if you don't like it, look away. This is my first ever songfic and Glee fanfic. I got the idea a couple of days ago when I was listening to Christina Perri's song- Jar of hearts. I recommend you to listen to the song while reading this, or at least listen to it, so you get the feel of what Rachel is singing.
The italic writing is for the past tense. Also I should tell you that english isn't my native language. Also I had no Beta reader for this, so any gramma errors or similar typos are on my, and I apologize for it.
Disclaimer: I dont own a shit, except for this fic. lol.
Pairings: Quinn/Rachel.
Written By Rachel's P.O.V
The link for the song: .com/watch?v=HH7WXlf9WLk
I walked into the auditorium with the written song sheets in my hands, avoiding Quinn's eyes I sat next to a surprised Santana.
"Did you hit your head or something this morning?" the cheerio spat out disgusted at me. I flinched slightly before regaining my posture.
Brittany chose to speak up at hearing her best friend's harsh words.
"Leave her be San" She said while rubbing the shoulder of the feisty brunette.
I mouthed a thank you, and leaned back against my seat. I swallowed the lump in my throat that was threatening to be released along with its hidden jar of tears.
"Alright you guys, I am very excited to hear the songs you picked out for today. Remember it has to describe what you're feeling, this can allow us the chance to grow into a better team, that's exactly what New Directions need. We need to know each other inside and out." Mr. Schue finished excited before walking back to his corner behind the band.
"Finn hit it!" He called out before I slipped back into my memories.
* Flashback *
"You're so beautiful" Quinn's hot breath teased my skin with each trail of kisses she left behind. I tighten my grip around her waist and kiss her collarbone softly before leaning away from her. The pout the blonde was presenting was almost enough for me to dive in for another session of kisses. But I knew I had to get out of there, I was confused. Was this just some phase the cheerleader was going through?
The strong voice of Mercedes broke me out of my walk down the memory lane and made me focus on the show Mercedes was putting up.
"Baby there's a shark in the water…"
I smiled at the girl's final note of the song, she truly deserved a solo for this years sectionals, and I was going to make sure she had one.
Mr. Schue praised Mercedes and then called up the next name.
"Sam!"
I couldn't hold back the anger I felt towards the boy. Clenching my arm with my fingernails I managed to prevent myself from doing something that could have been embarrassing. The sting of my skin being tortured kept me focused on the pain and then slowly shifted into another walk down my memories.
* Flashback *
"Be my girl?" It sounded more as a statement rather than a question to me, but I had to pinch myself just to be sure I heard right.
"Be my girl" she repeated, I turned my gaze from the wall behind her and stared into the eyes I had come to love. I saw the uncertainty in them and I couldn't help but to shake my head, how could she doubt my feelings. I guess she took the shake the wrong way since I felt her hands slip from my waist.
"No" I said firmly while pulling her back into the position we were in. I kissed her eyes softly, followed by my lips trailing over her jawbone. And finally settling on her rose full lips.
"I'm your girl," I whispered against her lips feeling lighter than ever. Is this how love felt? Or was it my lungs running out of breath by the hard passionate kiss that shortly followed after my words.
"Puck come up here!" Mr. Schue shouted for the boy who was busy sexting another cheerleader.
I groaned loudly enough for Santana to glare at me suspiciously. 'What'? I frowned at her. The Latina seemed to have read my mind before setting her attention back on Brittany who was gliding her hand up and down her best friend's thigh. My eyes practically bulged out when I caught what the blonde was doing to her friend. Swallowing nervously I closed my eyes and willed my self to stay calm.
* Flashback *
My sixth sense tingled with something I had felt several times before. I glanced carefully over my shoulder and saw Karofsky and his boys with something in their hands that could not be mistaken for anything but a slushie. Hurrying my steps I entered the first door that was presented to me. Quickly locking the door I regained my sense of where I was. I shuddered at the thought of what I might see. Maybe I should turn back? I squeezed my eyes tightly. Screw it. The boy's locker room couldn't be that bad.
Leaning my back against the door I waited for a couple seconds before deciding to head back out. A moan caught my attention though. I released the grip on the door handle and took a step towards the source of the sound. I had hear that voice somewhere before.
Walking past a few lockers, I felt something unbearable break inside of me. My breath hitched at the sight I was presented with.
"Quinn?" My voice broke.
The Head cheerleader gasped surprised, pushing Sam away from her lips she saw her girlfriend with unshed tears in her eyes.
"Rachel…I…." Quinn couldn't find the words to say.
I felt something twitch inside of me again. It was warm and heavy, my fingers were shaking and when my tears finally released themselves I understood what was happening. My heart was breaking. I forced everything deep inside of me.
"I'm sorry, I was looking for someone else" I uttered loud enough for the both of them to hear.
Feeling something wet roll down my cheek, I wiped it away frustrated of it happening it again. I never seemed to run out of tears. Straightening my skirt, I held my head high up and walked down to the stage.
"Good luck Rach" Mr. Schue whispered before handing over the microphone to me.
I smiled politely. Letting my eyes glide over the glee kids I finally found the courage to catch Quinn's bloodshed eyes.
"I hope it's fine Mr. Schue but I actually wrote a song a while ago, it would mean a lot to me if I could sing it to all of you"
Mr. Schue seemed surprised and slightly curious but he nodded. I took that as my cue to begin.
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
Rachel walked closer to the edge of the stage.
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
The brunette sang with perfection and with all the possible emotions she could put in.
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
Rachel made eye contact with each person in the seats before shifting over to the blonde who never had looked more beautiful than now. Fueled by the mistake she had done by having that thought, she sang louder.
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Squeezing the microphone so tightly in her hands, her knuckles went white by the pressure.
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
* Flashback *
"I loved you, I still do. How could you do this to me, to us?" I exclaimed.
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
I gasped for air at the end.
The end has happened for me. I thought I had a ' To be continued ' with Quinn. Maybe even a happily ever after.
But she took it all away.
I see Quinn run off. Like she always does I guess. But maybe what we had was real, maybe she actually felt something real and alive.
I will never know.
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