Hi, ok so for anyone who has read my other fic, I'm sorry but I wont be continuing with it, it went in a direction I didn't want it to go in and I lost the spirit to write it. I'll put a little thing on there to explain everything. To those of you who are new to me...Hi! it's been a couple of years since I've written but I've started getting back into it and I like this ship, I think they have good chemistry. so I'm setting this fic in season 2 when Emily moves in with the Marins, so forgive me if my details are slightly off because I haven't watched this season in quite a while, but it's mostly going to be AUish like in the same universe but not on plot to what the show is kind of, I don't know i'm rambling a bit I know. but A's still there everything is the same i'm just taking it off plot. i'll stop rambling now and let you get on with reading. One more thing, I am English so i'm not entirely sure about the school system and stuff so bare with

anyway hope you like it and please do review to tell me you like because I wont carry on otherwise.

Chapter one

Emily's p.o.v

I woke up to the sound of my alarm. It was a new day and I had convinced myself my feelings for Ashley Marin were gone… 100% totally gone. I knew that I couldn't feel that way towards her, she was my best friend's mom for God's sake. So yes, my feelings were gone…except they weren't, I knew, that as soon as I walked down the stairs and saw her all of these feelings would slap me right in the face and I hated myself for that.

I looked over at Hanna who was still sleeping. If she didn't get up soon we would be late for school. So I grabbed one of my pillows and threw it at her.

"Hmmm ow, what was that for?!" Hanna said sleepily

"Come on, you need to get up or we'll be late for school" I said as got up to get dressed.

"Aww 5 more minutes, it won't hurt if we're a little late will it?" she moaned sleepily

I chuckled slightly, ever since I have been staying here Hanna and I always have this argument in the morning…she's not exactly a morning person.

"Come on sleepy head, if you get up know I'll make you pancakes."

As soon as I said pancakes she shot up out of bed, "yep ok I'm up."

I chuckled again "Ok you go have a shower and get dressed and I'll have the pancakes ready for you when you come down."

"loooove you Em!" she yelled as I left the room. I smiled to myself as I got to the kitchen.

I had just finished flipping the last pancake when I heard footsteps coming down from the stairs, thinking it was Hanna I called out "Hey Han, do you want chocolate sauce or maple syrup on your pancakes?"

"Owh I wish I had time for pancakes!"

As soon as I heard her voice my tummy did a little backflip, I didn't want to turn around because I didn't want to acknowledge my feelings but of course I had to. Why did I have to feel like this? I remembered back to when I wasn't living at the Marins, things were simpler then, I just saw Ashley as Hanna's mom, I mean I had always found her attractive, you'd have to be blind to not see that, but that's all it was. I found loads of women attractive. But then I started living here and at first it was alright but then as time went on I found myself feeling more and more for her and it freaked me out…it's not like I could tell any of the girls about it, especially Hanna, she would hate me forever. I tried to deny it but it was useless…I'm useless for having these stupid feelings.

"Ohh they do smell delicious; you might have to save some for me" Ashley said bringing me out of my thoughts. I flipped the pancake one last time then put it on the plate with the others and finally turned round. As soon as I did my heart started beating fast and I could barely speak.

I finally found the strength to smile at her and say "well I'll try but it might be hard convincing Hanna of that" smiling as I said it.

She giggled at that, and oh god her laugh was like a patch of blue sky on a cloudy day, it almost made me melt right there and then.

"yes that's a good point...I might have to start getting up earlier then if I'm to beat Hanna to them" she joked.

I laughed "yeah you will."

"Anyway I better get going, can't be late for work" she said as she picked up her bag and headed for the door. Just as she got to the door Hanna came down.

"Bye girls see you tonight" Ashley said as she opened the door.

"Bye mom"

"bye Ms Marin"

Hanna and I said together.

As soon as Ashley shut the door Hanna came into the kitchen "right where's my pancakes?"

I looked at her amused. I loved Hanna, always the one to make us laugh even without intending to, she was my best friend and that's why I felt so guilty for having these feeling for her mom.

"you know; I think my mom likes you as a daughter more than me" Hanna joked as she tucked in to her pancakes "oh and can you get me some maple syrup please" she added on.

I cringed at that, I didn't want Ashley to see me as a daughter but of course she would, I'm her daughters best friend, staying in their house and I was the same age as her daughter…but if I didn't want her to see me as a daughter, what did I want her to see me as? A friend? Something more? I don't know. And anyway I couldn't be thinking that, I should be pleased that she does see me as her daughter but it still doesn't sit well in my stomach.

"Haha well we all know that's not true" I said while forcing a laugh. I was terrible at hiding my feelings from my friends, which is ironic as I hid my sexuality for so long, but now that I'm out and all that we have been through together, I find it hard, but this…this I had to keep in, and not only around them, I have to be careful everywhere, If A finds out this secret, I'm screwed, but fuck was it hard.

"I'm serious Em, I think she wants to adopt you, she's constantly saying 'you should do this because Emily does it' 'you should be more like Emily' err 'Emily this Emily that'" she jokes, trying to do an impression of her mother. I smiled at the thought that she talked about me a lot, even though It was in a different way than I want, it still made me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

"Oh stop your mom loves you, now come on we need to get to school, Aria and Spencer will be waiting for us" I said trying to change the subject. I could feel a blush trying to creep up my face but I pushed it down.

"Hey Em, have you heard anything from A lately?" Hanna said, suddenly very serious. I froze, oh shit, A's said something to her, SHIT, I'm screwed.

"Umm n-no w-why? have you?" I said trying to sound as calm as I could.

"Hmm no neither have I, I wonder if Spence or Aria have, It's just weird that we haven't anything from A in a while I'm starting to get worried, I'm starting to get that silence from A is worse than getting regular texts"

"Hmm yeah that is weird, let's ask Spence and Aria, let's just hope A is just taking a break and not plotting something big" I said relieved that it wasn't what I had feared, but Hanna was right, it was strange that we haven't heard from A in a while, I tried to think back to a time when we weren't watching out for A, afraid of their every move…those where happier times…times when Ali was around.

It was a summers evening, me and Ali where sat on her bed attempting to do some homework.

"Em, this is boorring can we do something else? Alison huffed, closing her textbook and coming closer to me.

"It is boring but we need to do it, it's due in tomorrow and I don't wanna get another detention because of you" I joked

"Hmm you're no fun" she said opening her textbook up again "but if you're gonna force me to do homework I'm gonna have to do this…" and before I could ask what she meant, a pillow hit me right in the face.

I glared at her "ohh I'm so getting you back for that" and I threw a pillow at her and laughed.

"Come on, let's get to school" Hanna said bringing me back out of my memory.

"yeah your right, lets go."