But I was wrong

by impureevilregal

She had gone through life, trying desperately to fit the role that was assigned to her, trying only to make others happy with her work, never realizing that what she was doing wasn't making any of them happy, including herself.

I had taken it all in stride
I had followed every order.
All I wanted was to survive.
But, it wasn't enough.

I wanted freedom.
I wanted love.
All I wanted was to be happy.
But I was asking for to much.
Instead of getting what I desired,
like so many other's do,
I was left with nothing.

But, I took that all in stride as well.
I stayed quite, and didn't make waves.
I tried to find comfort in the palace,
even though I was the queen of nothing.

But even this failed as well.
Magic made sure of that.
It took away, even my small chance of happiness.
No hope was left for me, not as the forgotten queen.
For that was what I was.
Forgotten and alone.
Only darkness came to talk to me.
So I let it.

The darkness to, I took in stride.
I didn't let it leave me.
Instead I bade it stay,
so as to still have a friend in it.
But I was wrong.

I made sure I did everything right.
I made sure that I pleased them all.
But it wasn't enough.
Trying to fit in and please was never enough.
The mask didn't make anyone happy.

If only I hadn't tried to take it all in stride.
If only I had stopped acting content.
Maybe then I would still be happy.
Maybe then I would still be full of love.
But I was wrong.