UNSPOKEN
Sitting here alone, listening to the quiet hush of the night air. My mind drifts back- back to the way things used to be. Before I had to go away- leave everyone I know. Why? For all of us. I did it for all of us. But most of all, I did it for you.
The way you looked at me that first day gave you away. From that moment on, I knew. How you felt, what you wanted, what you couldn't have. I wish there'd been a way… a way to tell you somehow. Tell you that I felt the same. But the opportunity never presented itself- it was never the right time.
The warm sting of blood on my shoulder still looms. I can still feel the bullet piercing my bone. She's yelling to you "Call 911!" And you do. But it's too late. I'm slipping away before your eyes. And that's when I hear you whisper. "I love you." And those words will never leave me.
I had to see you one last time. I couldn't leave my best friends without saying goodbye. When I stepped out of that car- the look in your eyes was overwhelming. You couldn't speak. I don't even remember exactly what was said, but words don't matter. The only thing that will ever matter is the last time I saw your face; looked into your eyes. That memory will live on in my soul forever.
And if I never see you again, if I never get to love you the way I should, I hope my words get through to you. I hope you understand why I have to tell you everything. Because no matter where this wild ride called life brings me, I will always remember the one man who could calm my nerves. The one man who, though words were never spoken, I shared many silent "I love you's" with. Elliot Stabler, my body, heart, and soul are yours forever. Until the end of time. I love you. Always
Alex