I lay on the bed shivering as Carlisle cold hand's worked fast on my numb stomach. I lay back and stared at the fluorescent light's in his office realising what I had just done, I'd aborted my own child not only mine but Edward's our impossible miracle. I knew the pain he had felt when he realised what he had done in his mind he saw it as him once again putting my life in danger. The honey moon had been the best I thought that I'd finally shattered Edwards's physically barrier's he had set up between me and him to keep me "safe" he seemed to have got over the bruises I'd got the first time round but now this, this was his worst nightmare that thing could have killed me he for sure wouldn't try and have sex with me ever again not until I couldn't conceive. When I was perfect and frozen at 18 and immortal. He probably could sense my upsettness but probably thought tit was because of what I had just done. He grasped my hand firmly in his pulled closer to me I could see the pain in his eye's now he thought I was upset about my abortion.

"Bella love I'm so so."

I cut him off "no Edward don't be sorry I wasn't upset about that I knew you were right it's just."

I glanced up at Carlisle I wasn't about to have this chat in front of my new father in law.

"Oh, sorry bell aim nearly done see oh all done." He said peacefully he finished up cleaning quickly then flitted from the room.

"it's just Edward I thought we had got somewhere on honeymoon I mean we had sex Edward you fulfilled your promise it's I know you won't have sex with me now till I'm vampire but if I'm new born and I can't feel thing's the same then I'd like to experience that again with you just it was amazing."

"Oh, baby look what I did to you" his hand gestured to the various bruise mark's across my pale skin. He swallowed and carried on. "You look like you've been attacked and I risked your life I did that to you did. You know it could have killed you." He ducked his head as if he was ashamed of his actions.

"I started to feel angry EDWARD LOOK AT ME! you and I are married we had sex like every other married couple on this earth and you don't think I didn't know there were risk's don't you realise I don't care I love you and even though you make that hard for me because you just don't let me give you any kind of physical gratitude ever it pains me and I don't know why all I know is that I love you I became Mrs. Cullen for you!"

He looked at me realising the pain and anger in my word's." I won't hurt you ever again ever Bella forgive me."

"I just said I did please Edward." A tear rolled down my cheek if I could move I would have pulled him into a hug but my anesthetised body was numb.

"Bella I need to hunt...i love you." with that he loped out the room the last thing i saw were his cold hard onyx eyes.

I heard the familiar tearing sound erupting from my chest as tear's flooded from my eyes then I felt a small pair of cold arm's wrapping around me.

"Oh Bella he's not mad at you really everything will be fine."