Sometimes I wonder if it was okay to leave everything as it was. To let Kukai go and letting Yaya be the silly self that she was, yet I always felt something was missing. I never thought that everything would turn upside down because of such simple feelings that was bottled inside her small body. I never knew it would hurt so much to hear those three hateful words come out the mouth of the one person I thought could never muster those words. The one person I had always thought could manage things when things got tough. Not only was she a guardian, but she was also my friend. I couldn't believe Yaya could ever hate me.
"I hate you Amu-chi!" she shouted at me with tears pouring down her once soft cute cheeks as Tadase looked between me and Yaya with hopelessness. He wasn't used to fights between friends let alone girls. Rima stood by me and watched the pain streak across Yaya's face. I didn't see the realization that had dawned on Rima because at the moment, I was too shocked at what Yaya had just screamed at me with such force and intensity that it made me nauseous. The rain had covered most of what Yaya had cried out, but still, everyone could see the anguish that was leaking out of her usual happy eyes.
"Yaya..." Rima tried, but Yaya only stumbled back in the mud sloshed road, the rain was relentless and the day wasn't getting any better. My hair was matted to my skin and it was freezing, but strangely I couldn't feel anything but the pain. Was it always this hard when fighting with friends? I couldn't remember, the haze that the rain had brought down upon my mind had me confused and dizzy.
"Why is it always you Amu-chi?! Always... You!" Yaya cried wiping her small hands over her eyes that was drenched with rain and tears. "You're always center of attention! The star... Everyone loves you... What about Yaya?!" she shrieked tumbling over more slippery ground before tripping and falling over onto the ground. I felt myself move a step to try and help her like Tadase and Rima, but she screamed at us to stay away from her, flailing her small arms. Her hair was undone and soaked to her skin like everyone else's; her red ribbons on the floor like bright blood stains. I felt someone's hands on mine, when I looked down, Rima had taken my hand in comfort.
There was splashing and then there was distant footsteps when I saw Yaya's eyes fly open and widen, several shades of different emotions flew across Yaya's face when she peered behind me. I looked over and saw Kukai right behind me with his black and green uniform on. Fiery red hair and green eyes ablaze, except this time it was lit with equal anguish instead of his usual happy brightness that I had come to know and love. He was drenched and heaving from running.
He stepped past me towards Yaya who had scrambled up and scurried farther away, attempting so hard to distance herself from him. Her face was now lined with anger and hatred, it was almost too hard for me to bear. I felt like this whole ordeal was a nightmare I couldn't run away from. It was worse than any Easter plots ever developed because it was between friends, that made it that much more unbearable.
"Yaya, I'm sorry for whatever I did..." I stammered out trying to figure out how to calm her down. We were at the garden earlier, talking and chattering like every other day with a laughing Yaya and chuckling Nagihiko. How did end up like this? It was a flurry of events that had led up to this stage of things and I couldn't remember on how Yaya ended shouting at me with those words.
"No, you're not Amu-chi! No... You can't give me back Kukai-kun!" she shouted at me and I felt another pang of guilt in my chest and I stepped back in shock. So it was about Kukai the whole time? Wait, Kukai and me? I would never... Would I? In secret, I did have hidden feelings for my superior and I hated myself in thinking that I liked so many guys at once what with Ikuto, Tadase, Kairi, and Kukai. I really wasn't being fair was I? Rima's hand squeezed mine and my breath tightened in my throat.
"Amu... She's alone, Kukai was her best friend after all and seeing that he has more interest in you than her, it had hurt her more than Yaya had thought," Rima said looking at the pained Yaya and the slowly approaching Kukai. Rima looked up at me and with a straight face and told me something that made my heart jump, "Amu, Yaya's in love with Kukai. Can't you see it?" My eyes continued to stare forward when I suddenly saw the two in a different light, it was like a thick haze evaporating and finally getting to see something in clear view.
"Yaya... Listen to me okay...?" Kukai soothed with gentle words as he made his way towards her, Yaya had stopped trying to move away before Kukai's arms held her small frame in his embrace. She fought against him trying to get away, but she was so tired that she eventually stopped and just let her sobs rack her body. He felt her body shiver from the cold and sobs that has erupted from her as he held her tight. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I left you behind... I'm sorry I paid more attention to Amu-chan than you. I promise I won't do it again." he said through gritted teeth. He couldn't believe that he'd made her cry, he was the one person that was supposed to make her laugh. Laugh. Not cry.
"You...You're... You're leaving anyways! Kukai-kun is always leaving Yaya!" she cried uncontrollably under the never ending rain and he pulled away to look at her. His hands on her head and the other around her slim waist with a grin and furrowed brows.
"Yaya, I'm right across campus. It's not like I'm on another planet. I'll come see you every day if it makes you happy." he said softly at the tearful girl, his green eyes softened at the sweet girl that he'd known for so long with a gentle smile.
"You...You might as well be on another planet Kukai-kun!" she mumbled and he laughed, "Does Kukai-kun even miss Yaya like Yaya misses Kukai-kun?" she asked feebly looking up with her auburn eyes, there was a faint tinge of rosy color dotting along her cheeks when Kukai pulled her close into another hug.
"You have no idea Yaya... I miss your smiles, your laugh, your company... Most of all, I miss how much you just seem so happy to just be with me," he whispered, Yaya's tears stopped, her heaves now just small hiccups.
"Promise to visit Yaya more because she'd lonely without Kukai-kun," she mumbled and he nodded. I stood there dumbfounded. The problem seemed so extreme and intense just minutes ago. I was surprised how Kukai was able to settle Yaya down faster than a cheetah when Rima released my hand.
"Let's go home, Yaya," he said gently, Yaya blinked away some remaining tears and nodded.
"I didn't know..." I finally muttered. I heard Rima sigh and shake her head. She had turned away from them and to head back to Seiyo Academy with a smiling and relieved Tadase next to her.
"I knew you were slow, Amu, but I didn't know you were that dense." Rima sighed, Tadase chuckled.
"Come guys, let's go back and dry up. I don't want anyone getting sick. Nagihiko's waiting for us back at the garden." Tadase reminded us. My head turned around once more to glance back at Kukai and Yaya. The rain had slowly ceased to a drizzle and a slight orange glow was appearing through the clouds. There, hand in hand walked the two almost in perfect harmony, Kukai held Yaya's hand and smiling down at her with that soft caring smile of his and Yaya had her head leaned against his arm for support, she was exhausted. She had looked up once and averted her gaze from me. If only I'd known earlier then maybe I could've prevented this incident, if only I hadn't been so selfish. At least now the feelings were out in the open, I can finally let Kukai go. His heart's already somewhere else where I can't tread upon, the happiness of being loved by someone else.